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My daily log |
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Note: This page contains the daily log for the period until
20.03.2009 to 30.06.2010. Go to last day in 2009. Last day in this log.
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Daily log Periods: |
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01.01.2011
– 31.12.2011 no entry between 19.04.2011 and
31.12.2011 |
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20.03.2009 – 30.06.2009 |
Daily Log from 20.03.2009 to 30.06.2010
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Date |
Wake up |
Sleep |
Remarks |
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20.03.2009 |
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23 |
I was exhausted tired due to many days lack of good
sleep, which is causing many parts of my body to ache=hurt. I was prevented
to go to sleep for around 60-90 minutes by forcing many ESP unwanted thoughts
upon me that I tried hard to ignore. I set my alarm at 8 O’clock in the
morning. On my left cheek of my face and near my eye I have a
very large water bubble created by ESP
since today, as I press it very hard a water like liquid comes out mixed with
a little of blood. It hurt originally I thought it was a tooth infection. |
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21.03.2009 |
5:00 + 10:00 |
2:00 |
I was waked up at 5 o’clock with the unneeded urge
to go to the toilette. All in all I had a better sleep than at least the last
7 days. The majority of the body pain disappeared. Picked up where I left off on 28.2.2009. That is one
month delay by force of what I want to to-do, which is continue to write
about my fake and biological families enable to find out my actual origin
without any doubt what so ever. In particular the profiles for FBI, CIA,
American military intelligence and American military around my life, because
I am being prevented to write them since at least August 2008, in reality
since August 2007 and while I was in the refugee camp called AZC-Dokkum in
the city of Dokkum, Netherland |
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22.03.2009 |
8:00+11:30 |
2:00 |
Some parts of my body are aching/hurting Finishing the profile wanted-0371.htm of the German
police |
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23.03.2009 |
8:00+9:00 |
1:30 |
Finishing the profile wanted-0371.htm of the German
police |
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24.03.2009 |
7:00 |
2:00 |
Went to school at 8 and came back at 13 hours |
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25.03.2009 |
9:00 |
0:30 |
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26.03.2009 |
6:00+7:00 |
1:00 |
Wanted to wake up at 6 O’clock to have enough time
to doing my morning routine such as shower, breakfast, think, read news and
so on, but I couldn’t. |
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27.03.2009 |
7:00 |
24:00 |
Went to Stichting Welzijn Dutch lesson |
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28.03.2009 |
7:00+8:00 |
3:30 |
Not knowing that the summer time has began |
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29.03.2009 |
11:00 |
3:00 |
Thinking it is 10:30 I really want to go to bed around 11 o’clock and
wake up around 6 o’clock but something is preventing me of keeping these
timings I am tired and will try to go to bed around 11 or 12 o’clock at night |
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30.03.2009 |
7:00 |
23:30 |
Slept only 4 hours, I am a little tired and have
muscle aches on my back, neck and arms since a few weeks. I can’t remember exactly when I went to sleep, it
was around midnight. |
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31.03.2009 |
7:00 |
23:00 |
Woke up tired. My body is aching in particular my
neck to the upper part of my back and the muscles of my both arms. Went to Dutch school, Noorderpoort college, for 2,5
hours and came back around 12:00 o’clock, noon. |
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01.04.2009 |
7:00 |
23:30 |
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02.04.2009 |
6:00+6:45 |
23:45 |
Went to Dutch language learning school Noorderpoort
college, also went to the medical doctor of my muscle pain went for small
food shopping and came back 16:30 hours |
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03.04.2009 |
3:30 + 12:15 |
4:30 |
Was woken up by force and tried hard to go back to
sleep after 4:30 was waken up several times, could not get up on time and
went right back to sleep. My sleep was manipulated again last night (See Hillary Clinton incident) and my entire day was ruined and therewith I last a lot of time, but
also I could not go to the Dutch language class at Stichting Welzijn. I am
around 60 years old and do not have control even over my own sleep due to the
vicious American
military persecution. This
is what these mother fuckers used to do to me in USA among others in 1994 and
while I was working at Chevron
Petroleum (Condoleezza
Rice=Bush and Rockefeller families) and then my manager at Chevron would
lecture me that I should be ashamed of myself to be a senior computer
consultant and not be dependable and come on time. I am still partially tired and have pain in my arms
and neck/bal muscles. |
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04.04.2009 |
10:00+11:30 |
21:00 |
My body is aching, even though after sleep a person
should wake up fresh and healthy, yet and especially in the morning I wake up
very tired and oft with pain in my body. 21:00 hour I fill to sleep on the couch/sofa watching
TV |
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05.04.2009 |
4:00 |
1:00 |
Wake up on the couch/sofa. Watched TV and news for
one hour. |
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06.04.2009 |
8:45 |
1:00 |
Wake up with the same pain since 3 weeks, my neck to
my back and my left shoulder and arm. Went to “CWI” the labor office and they
said they can’t do anything for me at this time, and I am glad about that
because I want to figure out many things about my past in particular about
mass international crimes performed around my life by the mother fuckers American
military intelligence among
others in Egypt, Germany, USA, Palestine (in particular in Westbank and
Jordan) and even in Netherland disguised as Palestinians and Kurds. I discovered that the American
military
is like a very wild dog or even monster, no one can control it and therewith
it is often misused by international organized crime families such as my
family the mother fuckers Bush family by feeding it wars to
their personal gains. |
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07.04.2009 |
7:00 |
1:30 |
Was waken up in the middle of the night with many
forced upon me thoughts but then went back to sleep. In the morning I woke up
tired and have more pain in my arm and shoulder than yesterday. I went to
school at 8:15 0 o’clock and came back at 12:30. We have a new student, half
black. This is the only schooling that I ever seen in my life that
continuously have new students in my class but, around once every 2-3 weeks,
also around 5 times exchanging teachers and that is most odd, among others
because we are in chapter 13 of our Dutch language book and each time a
student comes he has to start at chapter 1 and therewith there is officially
a large gap between the teaching flow and learning flow, |
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08.04.2009 |
9:30 |
1:40 |
Was woken up at least twice in night time. My arms
and neck towards my back are still in pain, whereby my left arm is sometimes
numb (=bad blood flow) and therewith as if some muscles are
interfering with some blood vessel or vice versa |
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09.04.2009 |
7:15 |
23:30 |
I still have muscle pain in my neck to back and my
arms in particular left arm. Last night I watched the Movie Fahrenheit
9/11 from, mainly it is about the conspiracy of the Bush family
and their hidden allies to terrorize the lives of the Americans and other
nations, mainly it is all true, however many things are missing, which I am
trying to fulfill with my complain pages. |
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10.04.2009 |
8:00 |
23:30 |
I still have this man made pain in my left arm and
neck downwards to my back, which prevent me of having a good sleep. Discovery
dates: Today I realized that the
mother fuckers Bush family members and their human trash allies were
not only manipulating me with ESP but also controlling my mind and preventing
me of thinking until at least 20.01.2009, which is the date the mother fucker
and human trash George
W. Bush became ex-USA president and
does not have as much power through the government as before, and the best
prove for that is that I was able to find my original fake mother Hayat Baroudi alias Nancy Patricia D’Alesandro Pelosi and
that I was used since birth by the mother fuckers Bush family as decoy
and double for the human trash and international criminal George
W. Bush, and that is why these facts
are dated after 17.02.2009 see the profiles mentioned in this box for the
dates I was able to discover and publish these facts. |
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11.04.2009 |
8:20 |
3:00 |
I still have the same pain as yesterday, I can’t
determine if it is getting worst or healing slowly. |
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12.04.2009 |
10:30 |
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My sleep habits or routines are totally mixed up and
disturbed. I still have the same man caused pain as the last a few weeks. Today and before 33 years on Easter Sunday 1976,
I was set up by the CIA director alias my official father
until 1959 the ex-USA president George
H. W. Bush
to become Christian at the fake Evangelical
Lutheran church of the CIA city Unterschleissheim, Germany (today is my peptize day) enable to
persecute me as an alleged Moslem that changed his religion to Christianity
and use his other hidden children in the Middle East and Europe that some of
them are pretending to be Moslem such as my fake nephew Samir
Bdeir to persecute me as cover up
for the mother fuckers Bush family that has been persecuting me since they
kidnapped me from USA in 1959 by misusing their positions among others in CIA, American military intelligence, the US government and business connections to
cover up the fact that I was used since my birth as decoy and double for
ex-USA president George
W. Bush. |
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13.04.2009 |
7:45 |
23:30 |
I still have the pain in my left arm, neck and upper
back, which causes me uncomfortable sleep and even uncomfortable sitting or
writing on the computer keyboard, or performing other daily routines or
duties. |
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14.04.2009 |
7:00 |
1:30 |
I still have the man caused pain as the last a few
weeks. |
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15.04.2009 |
7:15 |
23:45 |
I still have the man caused pain as the last a few
weeks. |
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16.04.2009 |
5:45 |
24:00 |
The pain in my neck, upper back and left arm is
getting worst. In particular my left arm is getting somehow a little numb,
most probably due to bad blood flow through something in my muscles/blood
vessel, which is 100% caused by ESP. It really all started a few weeks back
and simultaneously to many other things happened within the same a couple of
weeks around my life as follow: 1.
I realized that my web pages are not being found by
Google, Yahoo and Microsoft Internet search engines, and I worked on that until
I was able to get at least Google search engine to start crawling my web
pages. Note I started publishing my complain web pages 2 years ago in
summer 2007 2.
George W. Bush became ex-USA president and Barak
Obama is current USA president 3.
I finally found my original fake mother that
kidnapped me from USA in 1959 which Nancy Patricia D’Alesandro Pelosi alias Hayat
Baroudi 4. Several things changed around my life and in my
Dutch learning school 5.
I received around 700 Euros as refugee grant of the
government, however I expected only around 350 Euros because I asked the city
hall for help due to I was not able to pay the bill of the gas and
electricity of the closing year 2008 and I was told that I am possibly
entitled for yearly refugee help money for around 350 Euros since I have been
in this country for so long. 6.
I tried to sort out my life and created a work plan,
and published this plan within my web pages under the above mentioned
title “What
to do from now March 2009 and on.docx” 7.
I was complaining about the state of my computer
software within my web pages under the above mentioned title “What am I doing now-2009-02 since 03-2008.docx” 8.
I received a free software through Microsoft
Corporation email advertisement, (Added on 25.04.2009: that solved my
software problem of having to reinstall the operating system around every 6
weeks as mentioned at the top of the page under “What am I doing now-2009-02 since 03-2008.docx”) 9.
And many other things Therewith, it is not exactly clear to me who is
responsible directly for what of all the above and in particular for the pain
I have that was created exactly during this period and in particular after
getting Goggle to crawl and find some of my complain web pages. |
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17:04.2009 |
6:45 |
23:30 |
Same as yesterday. |
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18.04.2009 |
7:00 |
24:30 |
Yesterday I went to the doctor (for the second
time) for the muscle pain, the first time, last week, he suggested that I
take 3 X2 Paracetamol (=similar to Aspirin) a day, and see if it help
otherwise he would prescribe a message to me. The send time, yesterday he
more looked at the my back and prescribed to different medications, one is
allegedly for the muscles pain and the second allegedly to smooth the caused
pain of the first one and make it gentle on the stomach. The firs medicine 1
time a day and the second 3 times a day. So far it was helping only to around
70-80%. This mean I have to go back to him next week. Today a Jehovah’s
witnesses’ couple knocked on my door and asked if they can speak to me, I said
no thank you and have a nice weekend. |
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19.04.2009 |
8:15 |
1:00 |
Same as yesterday. The medicine is not really
helping. I have a lot of pain and it is expanding to my head. I have small
deep under the skin some kind of a water bubbles, yesterday I scratch 3 of
them and a lot of water like fluid came out. They are located directly on the
vein or muscles behind my neck. It seem that they are the ones causing some
pressures on my vein and muscles that is causing the pain. I need help to
stop this pain because the medicine is not helping. I have no doubt in my
mind that all this is caused by ESP. Also and since this pain started 3 weeks
ago, my arms feel much weaker and I have some difficulties lifting objects
such as glass of beer or plate of food. |
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20.04.2009 |
5:30 |
1:00 |
I woke up with pain in my arm and upper back to my
neck, as well as a bas stomach as if I want throw up. I am tired, and I have
no doubt in my mind that some evil mother fucker is causing me this pain with
ESP, among others to force me to wake up before my alarm clock. The
medication that I received of the doctor is worthless. They always use
different methods to disturb my sleep, either do not allow me to go to sleep,
wake me up in the middle of the night or as now and since a few weeks do not
allow me to sleep until my alarm goes on, and in any case I am always with
much less sleep than I am in need to, and therefore I am always tired and oft
have lack of concentration, especially when I wake up, I oft do the wrong
things and opposite my routine such as throw away something in the trash that
I want to use. |
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21.04.2009 |
630 |
23:30 |
Today is 22.04.2009. Yesterday I forgot to make an
entry. I am not even certain when I really went to bed on 20.04.2009. yet I
always wake up tired |
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22.04.2009 |
7:15 |
23:30 |
Today I feel I had enough sleep, yet I always woken
up with pain in my arm, neck and back and do not know if I really had enough
sleep or not, I really did not want to wake up as my alarm went on at 7:00
o’clock, but the pain forced me. |
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23.04.2009 |
6:45 |
23:30 |
I was not able to wake up as the alarm went on at
6:30. I still have the same pain as the previous a few weeks, however my left
arm is getting worst, and parts of my fingers feels numb, based on the doctor
statements, it is due to the muscles and not due to bad blood flow. I also
and somehow can’t keep or go by the schedule plan that I created in February
2009, and have difficulties writing my complain web pages, even though I want
to. |
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24.04.2009 |
7:30 |
23:00 |
I was viciously woken up several times by ESP last
night. All in all I had a very bad sleep, on the one side by waking me up
with ESP and not allowing me to go back to sleep right away and on the other
side I had more pain on my back, neck and in particular left arm that are
causing some kind of numbness also in my fingers, actually the pain is
getting worst. I went to the doctor again yesterday, but he said I should go
to a physiotherapist, and I went to a physiotherapist, almost next door to my
doctor, and I was told that they will call me next week for an appointment.
But since I had more pain last night I will try and go today again to the
physiotherapist and ask them if I can have an appointment quicker or earlier
or even today. |
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25.04.2009 |
7:30 |
23:00 |
Today I woke up with pain in the middle of my left
arm. Yesterday I went to the physiotherapist and they were so kind to squeeze
me in for the afternoon. The lady asked me questions, checked me and then
gave me a muscle massage treatment on the areas that I am complaining about.
It helped for a while. Thereafter the pain was somehow relocated or I am able
to feel it in different areas than before. All in all it helped. I am
scheduled to go there again next week. |
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26.04.2009 |
7:30 |
23:30 |
Today is 27.04.2009, yesterday I forgot to make the
entry. I still have pain, and I am taking 2x Paracetamol every 4 hours, they
are helping little bid |
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27.04.2009 |
8:00 |
24:00 |
I could not wake up at 7:30 I was too tired. I was
woken up around 3 ‘clock in the morning, with pain and pressure to my
bladder. I went back to sleep after 5 minutes. The pain situation is
preventing me of concentrating, focusing, continue to write my complain, or
live by the schedule that I created in February 2009 and is published above
under “What
to do from now March 2009 and on.docx” |
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28.04.2009 |
6:45 |
24:00 |
Today is 29.04.2009; I forgot to make an entry
yesterday. I woke up with pain in my arm, neck and back muscles. |
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29.04.2009 |
5:45 |
23:30 |
Monday I went to the Physiotherapist for treatment.
It seems to help momentarily, yet and afterwards I can feel pain in more
locations. Therefore I went yesterday Tuesday to another Physiotherapist to
be sure that I am on the right track or if there is another better or mainly
quicker treatment for my pain. The therapist examined me and said I should
stay with the other therapist and give it a chance for a couple of weeks and
if there are no results then I can go back to him. I am always tired due to
lack of good and enough sleep which is affecting my concentration and ability
to continue to write my compliant web pages, or in general in doing anything.
I also started to work on my garden as mean of exercise and to improve the
easiness of the maintenance of my garden, but I can do that mainly when it is
not raining, which is the minority of days. |
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30.04.2009 |
7:00 |
1:30 |
Modified evening on 30.05.2009 1.
Today is holiday in Netherland. It is the queen’s
birthday. It is celebrated everywhere in the cities in form of local markets,
special sale and partying. It is almost celebrated as the 4th of
July in USA, or Fasching/carnival in Germany or the Mauled (the alleged
profit Mohamad’s celebration) in Egypt 2.
I still have a lot of pain, but often I can’t
determine if is getting worst or not, and today I know why I can’t
determined, because it is on the one side and often at different body
location, on the other side it seems it is spreading to several areas and not
limited to one are or reappearing in different areas, and therewith it is not
a consistent and regular muscle or nerve pain, it is man made with ESP pain
that is causing me a lot of problems and totally disturbing my life. I am
always tired and don’t know why I do not feel like doing anything, the timing
is everything, and the timing of the pain says also a lot, especially after I
the followings: 2.1. February 2009, discovering who is my original fake
mother from 1959 to 1round 1962/63 (or even possibly my biological mother),
which is Hayat Baroudi alias Nancy Patricia D’Alesandro Pelosi 2.2. February 2009, discovering that I was used as decoy and double of the
mother fucker ex-USA president George W. Bush 2.3. February 2009, discovering for the first time that I was constantly
controlled by ESP 2.4. February 2009, Discovering that my complain pages at “najar.t35.com”
are not found though the search engines and I worked on it for a couple of
days until I figured it out how to at least get Google Internet search engine
to crawl my web complain pages, and gradually indexing some of them 2.5. February 2009, Started to write all the hidden American military
around my life since 1959 and therewith expose these mother fuckers and how
they misuse thousands of children and use them as decoys for thousands of
American military intelligence agents all over the Middle East and other
countries worldwide 2.6. February 2009, started to gather all the information about the mother
fuckers American military intelligence, CIA, FBI, and German police agents
hidden around my life from 1959 to 2006 or even later 2.7. And other situations in February and March 2009,
yet the above mentioned are the most critical ones Therefore and based on the above, the American
military and American government are persecuting me to prevent me of
continuing, because the more I write about my life the more I discover bad
things. But also this pain is an official distraction of the ESP control performed
upon my life such as the pain or ESP prevention to prevent me of writing
about the mother fuckers American military intelligence around my life since
1959 that totally destroyed everything in my life including friendships,
family, profession, nationality and other things, in that they kidnapped me
in 1959 from USA after wiping off my memory and surrounded me with American
military intelligence agents ever since that pretended to be my family
members, friends and other persons around my life and then all of them
disconnected of me in one way or another as a part of a strategy to make me
feel bad and isolated and others ill intentions and all this to cover up that
I was used for without me noticing, which is as decoy and double for the
mother fucker ex-USA president George W. Bush while he was raised all over
the Middle East and Iraq prior to 1959 and me raised as George W. bush until
1959, and he used my identity to travel secretly to these countries and that
is one reason why I am being prevented to go back to the Middle East by force
since at least 1986, in reality since 1969 |
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01.05.2009 |
8:00 |
124:45 |
1.
I woke up with pain, this time mainly in my muscles
of my upper left arm and elbow, and slightly on my upper back 2.
Yesterday I went to town and looked at the queen’s
birthday celebration in the city of Winschoten in form of a huge second hand
sale on the street by the general public, while a very few shops were opened
with special one kind of sale or another. 3.
After I got back to where I live I saw in the news
the very ill/sickening attempt to injure or murder the Dutch Royal family
while they were mixing with the general public. The only thing that came into
my mind is my mentally sick fake and biological families and in particular
the Bush family that would stop at nothing to cover up for that they used me
since my birth as a decoy and double for ex-USA president George W. Bush, but
also would stop at nothing to revenge on any one who helps me, and I was
partially helped in the Netherlands, at least and during my stay in the
Netherlands I found out who is sadistically persecuting me since 1959 and
why, which is the Bush family. I am using the wording “partially helped”
because this period of time is also and simultaneously mixed with very
negative and sadistic situations that are designed to prevent me not to
understand my past and origin, which is I was raised until 1959 as George W.
Bush while the Bush family was raising the mentally sick other George W. Bush
as Mohamad Nuzhat Najar and also as Mohamad Nashaat Naggar and also under
other unknown to me at the moment fake identities since his birth and until
1959 in Syria, Jordan, Lebanon, Saudi Arabia, Iraq and other countries until
they switched us in 1959 and wiped off my memory to prevent me of recognizing
that. See the crimes
performed by the Bush families against me and me
being in the Netherland since the year 2001, because I will add to it the hidden relations to
this vicious incident of attempting to attack the Dutch Royal family 4.
The question that remains in my mind is: Who would
want to attack the Dutch royal family while they are treating their own
people by far much better than the official richest country in the world is
treating their own people, which is USA, or even Germany the biggest country
in Europe and is falling deeper and deeper in poverty since the Bush family
took office in 1980s and until current in USA. It is true that kingdoms are
based on one family controlling a country, however and since they are
controlling the country all the times they do not have the need to steal it
within a small presidency period as the Bush family did between 1980s and
2008 or many Americans military intelligence agents disguised as Germans and
are members of the German government or as members of the Egyptian,
Jordanian, Syrian, Lebanese, Israeli, Iraqis, Palestinian and Saudi Arabian
governments. One thing I can say about the Dutch royal family, no one living
legally in Netherland goes hungry or is homeless, including me the refugee
with fake identity forced upon me by the mother fuckers Bush family and in
cooperation with the American military intelligence since 1959 that are
covering up for the Bush families and all their hidden allies in many
countries in particular in those countries where I was held as slave and
hostage ever since 1959 such as Egypt, Germany and USA but also her in the
Netherlands that has many American military intelligence agents disguised as
Turkish, Arabs, Asians and other nationalities where American military has
bases such as Afghanistan and Iraq and thousands of official but fake
refugees of those countries are in the Netherlands. I know because I saw
them, but also official American military staff as members of the NATO in
Netherlands, but also official American business people related to American
military is also in the Netherland, or even the official American diplomats
with their families and staffing. |
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02.05.2009 |
10:30 |
5:00 |
Around 5-6 o’clock in the morning I woke up with pain and was very tired, but did not get up, after a few minutes went back to sleep and got up at 10:30 with a lot of pain concentrated on my left arm and partially in the elbow of my right arm. Since I know that this is a man made pain with ESP I decided to make a small analysis and write down the periods where I had no pain in contrast to the periods when I had sever ESP attacks. See it below under “Pain Analysis” |
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03.05.2009 |
11:00 |
1:45 |
Went to sleep this morning at 5 o’clock. This is not
good. I still have pain and can’t decide if it is getting less or not. During
sleep I had a forced upon me dream by ESP, consisting of some Americans
officials of various institutions such as CIA and FBI, and I was standing and
walking around talking to them and cursing them and telling them I don’t
trust you. |
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04.05.2009 |
9:10 |
9:30 |
I woke up at 8 o’clock and went back to sleep. I get
up at 9:10 o’clock. I had pain in a new area which is in the lower part of my
left arm, but also around my neck and left shoulder. I went to the
physiotherapist for a treatment. I am changing my seating habit, including
computer table and chair. I am working in the garden as form of exercise, by
taking all the grass and trees of the front of the house (except one tree)
and rearranging the front to make it easier to maintain and nicer looking,
which require a lot of hard physical work, therefore I am starting to work
1-2 hours each time it is a good weather and gradually increasing the time to
3-5 hours or more as my physical condition can take it. |
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05.05.2009 |
4:45 |
24:45 |
I was woken up earlier than I wanted with a lot of
pain in my left arm and shoulder. |
|
06.05.2009 |
8:00 |
02:45 |
I slept well, yet it feels too short. I woke up with
a lot of pain in my left arm. I feel like lamed/paralyzed/tiresome, not want
to do anything, I don’t know why. I want to do a lot of things, yet I am not
doing anything significant, it is either ESP or it is due to other reasons,
such as through the pain I am taking Paracetamol, 4 times two tablets a day,
maybe it is having an effect on my state of mind, or may be something else
such as disappointment of all my surroundings in the past, in particular my
so called friends at the fake Evangelical Lutheran church of the CIA city Unterschleissheim, Germany, not only they all and simultaneously cut
their contact to me, but also caused me a lot of grieve in 1980s and in the
period 2001-2006. May all the above in is used by some evil person with ESP
to manipulate my mind to just sit like a table and do nothing to prevent me
of continuing writing my complaint pages about how the excess of evil Bush
and Rockefeller families used institutions such as police, FBI, CIA and American military intelligence to unjustly persecute me to death to
cover up that they used me without me noticing as decoy and double of ex-USA
president George
W. Bush. I don’t know it is just not
right. With this man made pain forced upon me I am being forced to be busy
getting ready of the pain, such as continuously going for treatments that do
not really help, or take medication that can ahs other side effects on me, or
just feel very beat /lash/whip. |
|
07.05.2009 |
9:00 |
23:30 |
I What happen last night that I went to bed so late? 1. I prepared
to go to bed around 23:30 hours 2. Suddenly I
wanted to continue writing my complaint pages, whereby I was not able to
write anything since 22.04.2009 3. Yesterday I
was trying to understand why am I not writing my complaint pages and
mentioned that above in my daily log, most probably I was forced with ESP to
write so late and after so long as indication of my daily log yesterday and
to force me to think and write it is not the above problems that I mentioned
yesterday, but it is definitely ESP that are causing all other problems to
prevent me of writing 4. I made
strong coffee and continued to write my complaint pages until 2:45 in the
morning 5. I was waken
up around 2-3 hours later and I was totally exhausted, I went to toilette and
went back to sleep 6. I ignored
the alarm o’clock at 7 o’clock in the morning and went back to sleep 7. I woke up at
9 o’clock with less pain than usual, yet after 10 minutes I had more pain and
numb left thumb 8. All above is
not normal and delayed me of going to school. I want to have the Dutch
Nationality and I will not move from here until I have it, because this is
one of my major life problems, which is I have no nationality since 1959, and
I am being brainwashed and forced to think that I was born in Syria, but I
was not, I do don’t know for sure where I was born, however I know for sure
that until 1959 I had the American citizenship, then I was kidnapped in
December 1959 by the Bush, Rockefeller and Windsor families from USA to Egypt
over Syria 9. My life and
I are going in a circle |
|
08.05.2009 |
7:15 |
I can’t recall, I think it was after 23:30 |
All in all and in comparison I had a much better sleep than the last a
few weeks. I was able to sleep on my left side for the first time since
several weeks. Somehow I felt pain in my left arm but it was not painful. I
woke up twice and went right back to sleep, my guess it was after 5 ‘clock in
the morning. Last night I set the alarm for 8 o‘clock in the morning, but I
get up at 7:15 even though I was very tired. What happened yesterday? 1. I did not
take pain tablet since 10 o’clock yesterday morning 2. Ironically I
didn’t feel any significant pain until after I woke up at 7:15 this morning 3. I went to
school after almost 2 weeks holiday, I went almost 2 hours late 4. In the third
session we had a substitute teacher due to the absence of our regular teacher
for this school session 5. In the class
we had a small discussion about the terrorism on the Dutch royal family on
30.4.2009 and on other related terrorism 6. I filled a 2
time Internet questionnaire related to each other’s (at the same site)
for partnership search. It consisted unexpectedly of around 170 questions. 7. The
questionnaire was all in Dutch, and it took me longer to fill than I am
supposed due to I had to often use the translation dictionary 8. Through the
questionnaire I realized that I think and feel different than I behave 9. Due to it
took me longer than unexpected to fill the questionnaire (around 3 hours)
I missed my daily routine of eating at 7 o’clock while I am watching a
specific German TV show. I eat at 20:30 hours 10. I think I feel lonely in many
ways and in many areas in my life |
|
09.05.2009 |
8:15 |
4:00 |
Same as yesterday. I was able to have much better
sleep than the previous a few weeks without feeling any pain. I took two pain
tablets around 23:00 hours. I woke up some times after 5 o’clock went to
toilette and was too tired and went back to sleep. I woke up at around 7:45,
kept on want to go back to sleep due to I was tired. I got up at 8:15. With
no significant pain until around 8:30, then I had strong pain mainly in my
left arm and left shoulder, I took two pain tablets (Paracetamol). I
performed a few gymnastic exercises as I was instructed or recommended to do
yesterday by my physiotherapist, thereafter the pain and to most part went
away. I don’t know if the pain went away due to the tablets or the exercises,
possibly both. What happened yesterday: 1.
I went to the Dutch lesson 2.
I went little shopping 3.
I went to pick up my new eye glasses that I ordered
2 weeks ago and was told that I can pick them up on 08.05.2009, yet they are
not ready and allegedly it could take another 1-2 weeks, which is totally not
normal in my situation, among others because I am having severe problems with
my current eye glasses especially working on the computer 4.
Last night I spend around 1-2 hours looking at the
partner search website, thereafter I received several very strange emails,
one of them most definitely related to me looking at that website, and the
others possibly also had something to do with it, but I can’t decide 100%,
due to it is also related to my complaint web pages. 5.
I feel very isolated in a country that has a
population of 16 million persons, which is very similar to me living 100%
isolated in Houston, Texas, USA for 15 years. I was really isolated since
1959, with a few exceptions here and there, and the longest period where I
was least isolated was between 1976-1981 and partially 1982-1983, then I was
setup by the mother fuckers American military intelligence, CIA, my fake family, German police and the German government in Munich, Germany to be
ever since isolated in that they dragged me by force to the illegal American,
English, German, Syrian, Iranian, Lebanese and Palestinian military
intelligence project called Calypso where they systematically destroyed my life ever
since and kidnapped
me to USA in 1986 and kept me isolated
under the control of the mother fuckers Bush family in Houston, Texas, USA and ever since I am trying
desperately to understand what is going around my life by hidden force enable
I can break free but somehow I can’t and my life is not going forward but
rather in a very evil never ending circle. |
|
10.05.2009 |
9:00 |
4:00 |
I got up tired. I slept good but short. A few minutes after waking up the pain started. Took two pain tablets. |
|
11.05.2009 |
10:30 |
2:00 |
I was tortured last night as follow: 1.
I was woken up with a severe pain in my leg as if
the muscles of my leg were tearing apart, lasted around one minute; this
happened to me only a 3-5 times in Netherland since 2001. However this is one
of the major torture methods that was often used on me in USA and in
particular in Houston, Texas between 1991-2001 2.
Simultaneously I had a severe urge to go to
toilette = strong pressure on my bladder 3.
Between 5-10:30 o’clock I was woken up a couple of
times where my shoulder was very cold and had pain 4.
At 10:30 I got up with pain and took two tablets
that are still not 100% helping until now at 11:20 o’clock This is a pattern in causing me sleep problem one
day prior to school, which causes me to have difficulties going to sleep
enable I wake up with enough sleep and go concentrated to school All in all I want to continue to write my complaint
but somehow I am prevented by ESP and I am just sitting down doing nothing. |
|
12.05.2009 |
7:10 |
23:00 |
Note: Today’s entry became longer than I planned it to
be. Alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock I woke up tired and
did not want to get up and went immediately back to sleep. Got up 7:10 very
tired and with muscle pain in my left arm and both elbows, took two pain
tablets. And went to school. I haven’t studied Dutch nor did anything since
around 3-4 weeks, except work 1-2 hours almost daily cleaning and
straightening the much messed up garden. I notice something very ironic in the garden that
reminded me with my actual life. Which is and as I cut down a few trees that
were very close to each other’s, only one meter distance and were causing me
trouble in maintaining the garden such as in grass mowing. One of them was
more than 15 meters high, after I chopped it off I worked on removing the
root, so I digged half way around it, and I was very surprised to find under
the soil 4-5 different roots of different plants going into each other’s and
going all over the place and as if they were fighting for the small space,
even several meters under the stone road/pavement in the garden and are very
difficult to remove. And this is similar to my life, I was raised by an
international organized crime family that are operating under the surface and
over the surface they are tolerant faithful Christians, Moslems, Jewish and
other religions or groups and they are extended all over the Middle East,
Europe and USA governments, military, religious leaders, businesses,
education and many other life branches (and therewith they suffocated me
just like the roots of the very interconnected plants, trees and moss
suffocating the garden where I live), and in each with different
identity, and all I needed to do to recognize that is be by myself and see
what the hell is going wrong in my life and why nothing is succeeded for me
and in my life and have to fight with ESP control, which is impossible
without the help of the opponents (I do not know who they are due to all
the interconnected and messed up relations and them also operating from under
the surface) of my
fake family and biological families. In other words if my fake and biological families had no opponents I
would have never be able to find out the truth as listed within my complaints
web pages, because I would have never be able to come out of slavery to find
myself that I was used as a multipurpose slave, decoy and double all my life
for the mother fuckers Bush family that used me as decoy and double for the
international hidden criminals ex-USA president George
W. Bush and his bitch/queer/bi-sexual/homosexual
father ex-USA president George H. W. Bush because he is married to another queer man named Herbert
Lange disguised as his wife Barbara
Pierce Bush, whereby Herbert
Lange was the fake pastor in the CIA city Unterschleissheim, Germany from 1976-1978 (during this period when
ex-USA president George H. W. Bush was CIA director and set me up)
married officially to Margie
Lange alias Laura
Welch Bush the official wife
of the ex-USA president George W. Bush. It is all messed up just like the underground of
my garden, with one difference, the plants in my garden are wrongly placed by
human within very short distance to each others, and in comparison to my fake
and biological families, the so called the hidden controlling families, we
have a huge planet, yet they are blind and can only see what they can steal
and not what they can create within this huge planet, in other words they are
mentally sick. In contrast is the Netherland, it is organized in such a way
that this problem does not exist, at least not visibly to me, which is a
fight for space between human, but rather and somehow they all work together
in many fields and not compete such as in USA (in USA competition is
number two enemy of the population, number one are the controlling families
that use competition to keep the general public busy going in circle of
nowhere), and as a result, they have somehow created a very livable place
for all their people, even though the land is not as beautiful, and sometimes
not as big, as may be south of France, South of Germany, Austria,
Switzerland, USA or many other countries worldwide. Even though I am
struggling in Netherland to get my real identity and go back to Munich where
I was kidnapped from in 1986 (yet I do not trust the German or American
governments due to what they did to me and mentioned within my complaint web
pages), yet I very much admire Netherland and what they did with their
own country, but also the general public is somehow much more natural than
any other nation I have ever seen in my life including USA and Germany and
most definitely more natural than the absolute messed up Middle East that is
causing many problems worldwide since at least as far as I recall which is
1959, and that is because they are controlled by mentally sick controlling
families such as the Bush, Rockefeller, Windsor and Kennedy families that are
on the surface pretend to be tolerant and nice and underground they are
pretending to be Arab origin and Moslem and are as bad as I am describing
them within my complaint pages, and I have all the rights of the world to
complain about any crime what so ever, even if it sound unbelievable due to
it is hidden and unknown or even if it is top military secret such as it is
in my case. Top secrets are made to suppress innocents and blame it on the
secrecy or on the enemy or on the national security, fuck secrecy and
national security, the only national security I need is protection of these mother
fuckers that are hiding under the national security acts such as the evil Bush family and my fake mother Hayat
Baroudi, Bdeir, Baroudi, Shawki families and the rest of the organized
crime families that are protected
by the national security in many countries and are causing me all the
troubles of my life including a very disturbed sleeping forced upon me bad
habits such as mentioned in this daily log. |
|
13.05.2009 |
9:00 |
24:20 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock, but I was too
tired and exhausted to get up and went back to sleep. 9:00 o’clock I got up
very tired and disoriented, with strong pain in my upper back that is
covering up for other pain in my left arm and both elbows. Somehow I feel the
pain connected directly to my head, possibly through nerves that is causing
me to be always tired and sleepy. Even though I have pain I did not think of
it and take a pain tablet until around 9:45, I took two pain tablets. Almost
Immediately the pain disappeared, which is impossible, it usually needs 20-40
minutes to work, which indicates that my pain is 100% manmade pain by ESP. I
am being brainwashed in the hidden, because through the pain I am often
disoriented and just live and act by instinct without any thinking following
my daily routines, not thinking about it if it is a good routine or not. I
have no doubt in my mind that NATO members alias American
military is responsible for
my current dead like situation, especially after I started to write the
profile of how vicious and sadistic is the American military around my life since 1959, and this in a so called
free country named Netherland. All this is contradiction to what I wrote
yesterday above about the Netherlands=paradox=brainwash. |
|
14.05.2009 |
9:00 |
24;30 |
I woke up possibly at 5 or 6 o’clock and struggled
to go back to sleep. At 7:00 the alarm went on and I got up and went to
school without having any home work done for the past 4-5 weeks. Which I
really don’t like at all. (added on
16.05.2009) I really forgot when I went
to bed on this date, I just added an approximate time. |
|
15.05.2009 |
8:00 |
23:30 |
Today is 16.05.2009. I forgot to make an entry
yesterday or on this day. I also forgot the actual time I woke up and what
happened. |
|
16.05.2009 |
8:00 |
1:30 |
I woke up a couple of times in the night and went
right back to sleep. It seems that I slept good, no major pain during sleep.
I woke up some how tired even though it seems that I had a good sleep. The
pain started after UI woke up and continued to gradually to increase that I
had to take two tablets at 8:30. Note: I ordered new eye glasses on 24.04.2009 due to my current ones are
not sufficient any more, I was told they will be ready on 8.05.2009, yet they
were not ready allegedly due to the supplier does not supply these glasses
for these frames, even though I just picked up just a regular none-fancy
frames that were on a special discounted offering. They said allegedly
another supplier will deliver them within 7-10 days starting yesterday, this
mean I should receive them on 25.05.2009. This glasses seem to be very
important for my eyes and physical health due to the current ones are so
called bi-vocal and the new ones are the so called vary-vocal and the current
ones are causing me a lot of problems working on the computer and in general
reading a monitor or computer screen or even TV and some small writings. It
is now 10 o’clock in the morning and I feel very tired as if I want to go
back to sleep, I feel very lash, maybe due to the pain, the pain
tablets (2x Paracetamol) that I took, or even ESP manipulation or a
combination of all the above. I have not been doing much with my life and as
far as I recall, and since summer 2008 I am just writing my complain enable
to concentrate on situations of my past and understand why I am being
persecuted from the background by the mother fuckers Bush and Rockefeller
families, yet the last 4-6 weeks I am doing much less than nothing and that
is bothering me Note: Yesterday I was researching the cost of car insurance due to I want
to buy a car but I can’t afford it based on my social income and on my
experience of the past in Germany and USA where the highest cost of the car
is the monthly insurance money. And to my surprise the car insurance in
Netherland is not as high as I thought it to be. They allegedly go by the car
weight and for a regular car weight between 1000 and 1400 kg it would cost
around 280 Euro a year or 26 Euro a month and 15% discount after one year
accident free, in comparison with USA it used to cost me yearly 600 and 1500
US-Dollar depending on the insurance company and in Germany and with their
complex system that mainly depended on accident free year by discounting the
insurance from a 200% to 40% within a 10 years period, also they used to
calculate it based on several factors among others the size of the engine and
not the weight, and there with a regular car insurance for a small car would
cost today and based on my past experience around 500 Euro and in 10 years
with no accident, it would then cost 100 Euro. The whole thing does not make
any sense because in USA the insurance is much more expensive yet more people
own cars than in the Netherland or even Germany, even though it is much
cheaper in Netherlands to maintain a car based alone on the insurance cost. Many things in our lives do not make any sense
based on economic, social, political, humanity and many other area’s logic.
Yet they all make much sense based on the hidden slavery and mass population
stress logic caused by forcing the general public being busy only with
surviving and not noticing what is going around their lives that is stressing
the life out of them. |
|
17.05.2009 |
6:15 |
1:30 |
I was woken up by force, even though I was very
tired. I had less than 5 hours sleep. As I woke up I couldn’t go back to
sleep and got up with some pain from my back to my neck, pain in my left arm,
pain in my both elbows. I took two Paracetamol tablets, yet I am having
difficulties to pick up or lift small items such as plates or anything
heavier. Now it is 16:36 hours and I am having pain in the back of my neck. |
|
18.05.2009 |
7:45 |
2:00 |
I really forgot when I went to sleep last night I
just placed an approximate time. I also almost forgot to make an entry today,
it is now 20.10 hours. I woke up with mixed feelings of tired and not tired,
yet not rested. I did not have much pain, until the late afternoon then I
took 2 Paracetamol tablets. I did not really do much the last a few days,
which I do not like, but somehow I can’t do anything about it. I worked in
the garden still trying to remove the root of the tree mentioned on
12.05,2009, yet it is very difficult and hard to remove, it will still take
me a few days or a week to remove it due to the very strong root spreading
all over. I also worked little bid on my complain web pages, however I will
not publish it until I am finished with the entire branch enable to make it
more clear and understandable. I think the most vicious thing that they did
to me and is causing me very bad self esteem, is that they surrounded me all
my life with fake family and fake friends, that all dropped or pushed me away
almost simultaneously, which caused me not to understand anything anymore, or
not understanding why all these persons around my life are pushing me away,
especially that they were the only ones I knew and trusted them, yet they
caused me more damages to my life than I can ever imagine. That forced me to
never trust anyone anymore or to want to avoid human in general and be alone.
All this is how the mother fuckers American military intelligence, Bush,
Rockefeller, Windsor and Kennedy families operates to keep secret that they
are organized crime families or institutions and would stop at nothing to
steal anything, even or especially of their family members such as
myself, they stole letterly everything of me, including my entire life. |
|
19.05.2009 |
7:00 |
23:00 |
Today is 21.05.2009, I forgot to make an entry on
this date. The pain is consistence and I am taking tablets. |
|
20.05.2009 |
9:00 |
1:30 |
Today is 21.05.2009, I forgot to make an entry on
this date. The pain is consistence and I am taking tablets. |
|
21.05.2009 |
7:45 |
1:00 |
The last two days I forgot to make an entry. I woke
up with mild pain that increased within a few minutes and I had to take 2
tablets. Yesterday I was finally able to get the large tree
of the ground that I have been working on removing it since mentioning it
above on 12.05.2009. That is around 10 days working on it around 2 hours
every day. So it took me around 20 hours to remove it. The funny thing is
that yesterday I tried to shake it to see if it is moving, but it was
too solid and did not shake at all, which let me think it will take me
another one week work to remove it, then I cut a small branch that was going
into the ground, after that I was able to shake it, then I started looking
around it and cutting another 3 small branches that were also going deep into
the ground and suddenly and with little bid force I was able to tilt it and
cut two last very small branch holding it to the ground and then completely
removing it. And all this is also very similar to the organized crime family Bush, these mother fuckers of organized crime family are
strongly depended on many smaller branches of organized crime families in the
Middle East, Russia, Yugoslavia, Germany China, India, Iraq, Afghanistan and
south America, cut their connection to these smaller organized crime families
and they will drop like a parasite that have no place to feed off. |
|
22.05.2009 |
8:40 |
4:00 |
The alarm went on at 8:00, but I was too tired to
get up. Finally I got up at 8:40. I was woken up twice last night, but I went
back to sleep within minutes, yet it most definitely disturbed my sleep and
caused me to be too tired to get up as the alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
23.05.2009 |
11:00 |
1:00 |
I don’t know why I went to sleep so late last night;
I really want to have a routine sleep from 11 o’clock at night to 6 o’clock
in the morning. I woke up 2 times before 11 o’clock but I was too tired and
went back to sleep. Finally I got up at 11:00 o’clock. Yesterday and today I
have lesser pain than usually, yet I am still taking pain tablets twice a
day, mornings and before sleep. |
|
24.05.2009 |
8:45 |
3:00 |
I woke up and got up at 8:45. I have more pain than
yesterday and took 2 pain tablets. Yesterday I thought the pain is starting
to go away due to I had lesser pain for the last 2 days, yet today it is
more, as if someone does not want me to get better. I studied Dutch around 6
hours each of the last 2 days. |
|
25.05.2009 |
8:00 |
23:45 |
Today is 26.05.2009. Yesterday I forgot to make an entry, even though I thought about it several times and wanted to make one. I was woken up several times between 5 and 8 o’clock. Finally I woke up at 8 o’clock very tired and with pain and took 2 pain tablets. I went to the physiotherapist at 10:25 o’clock. |
|
26.05.2009 |
7:50 |
24:00 |
I woke up several times, I guess after 4 o’clock
this time due to a severe thunder storm. My alarm did not go on due to the
electricity was cut off possibly through the thunder storm, I switched the
electricity back on. I woke up 50 minutes later than I wanted and there with
I am one hour late for my Dutch language school |
|
Today is 27.05.2009 |
8:30 |
24:30 |
I woke up 30 minutes later than I wanted, and this
due to I set the alarm wrongly to wake me up by music while it is on, and
therewith there was no difference between on and off. I woke up with more
pain than usual in particular in the back of my left shoulder stretching to
my upper left arm. I toke 2 pain tablets. Yesterday, at the school and after the school ended
I had a discussion with a young man from South America, where we talked about
several issues, among others about wrong judgments towards many suppressed
people (=social justice), and then I started to talk about the evil
Bush family and get real upset talking about them and started cursing them.
May be this has something to do with my today shoulder pain that is most
definitely more than usual. |
|
28.05.2009 |
5:30 |
23:00 |
Today is 01.06.2009. Somehow I did not make an entry
between 28.5.2009 and 01.06.2009. So I will try to enter the data as I
remember them. The alarm went on at 5 o’clock but I was too tired
to get up until 5:30. I had to get up early because I was preparing some food
to take with me to school for a grill party that our class organized for the
class students, teachers and other school employees. |
|
29.05.2009 |
9:00 |
Forgot |
Today is 01.06.2009. Somehow I did not make an entry
between 28.5.2009 and 01.06.2009. So I will try to enter the data as I
remember them. |
|
30.05.2009 |
9:00 |
24:00 |
Today is 01.06.2009. Somehow I did not make an entry
between 28.5.2009 and 01.06.2009. So I will try to enter the data as I
remember them. |
|
31.05.2009 |
9:00 |
2:30 |
Today is 01.06.2009. Somehow I did not make an entry
between 28.5.2009 and 01.06.2009. So I will try to enter the data as I
remember them. |
|
01.06.2009 |
9:30 |
2:30 |
Today I made the entry for several days due to I did
not make an entry since 28.05.2009. I oft thought about making an entry, yet
I did not. About the pain in my shoulder, the pain increased
since Wednesday, I took pain tablets. Friday 29.05.2009 I went to the
Physiotherapist, and she performed different therapy methods than the last a
few times, immediately It felt a little bit better, and the following days
and until today I have much less pain. My glasses still not finished yet,
they said supposedly next Tuesday, which is tomorrow 02.06.2009. I haven’t
been working in the garden since last week maybe Tuesday; I will try to do it
today. Yesterday I changed the way I sit at the computer, get another smaller
and much lower table, and adjusted the seat appropriately. Once I get my
glasses I will see what kind of table and chair I have to get to be able to
sit and work healthier at the computer. Until yester day I was using a very
old large eating table that is around 87 cm high, and maybe it is too high for
computer work, but I liked that table due to it is big and I can place many
things on it, but also due to it is very old brown and heavy sturdy wood. I
really don’t feel like doing anything, may be and among others because I am
not where I want to be today neither in the country nor in this life
position, thanks to the mother fuckers Bush family and the American military intelligence that persecuted me unjustly to mental
death, and today I don’t see any purpose or sense in doing or creating
anything because these mother fuckers always destroy it under the evil
national security laws in USA, Germany and the Netherlands, that are meant to
suppress the majority of the population including me. |
|
02.06.2009 |
10:30 |
1:00 |
The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock, somehow I shut it
off and went back to sleep and woke up around 10:15, and after 15 minutes I
got up. I have much less pain than the last a few weeks. I really wanted to
go to sleep early and woke up at 8 o’clock, but it did not work. I am somehow
tired, may be because I worked for 90 minutes in the garden taking all the
grass out from the front of the house and later I made around 15 minutes hard
gymnastics. |
|
03.06.2009 |
08:30 |
23:00 |
I have no significant pain and I haven’t been taking
a pain tablet since last Friday |
|
04.06.2009 |
07:10 |
1:00 |
The alarm went on at 5 o’clock but I was too tired
and did not get up. I get up at 7:10.No significant pain and I haven’t taken
any pain tablets lately. I got my new vari-focal eye glasses yesterday. It
was buy one and get one for free deal, and the second free pair lances
arrived damaged so I got only one pair of glasses. I do not like them much;
so far I think the bi-focal are much better, yet the new lenses are much
better. So I ordered a new very cheap one (29 Euros) just for computer and
reading, they should be ready in 2 weeks. All in all my sleep is still disturbed, even though
I haven’t been woken up in the middle of the night lately, yet a couple of
unwanted dreams were forced upon me, reminding me with situations in USA from
1986-2000 that I am trying to not have it repeat in my life or even escape
it, which it could be the result that I am not going forward in my life, at
least in my complain web pages and in particular in creating the profiles of
the persons and situations forced upon me and surrounding me in USA after
1987. This still disturbed sleep is possibly and partially due to my very
depressed mood about my very bad past situations, but also my not very
promoting current and possible also future situation. |
|
05.06.2009 |
08:15 |
24:00 |
The alarm went on at 7:30 but I was too tired to get up. I finally got up at 8:15. I have some muscle pain possibly due to me working hard yesterday digging in the garden. But there is no need for the pain tablets. |
|
06.06.2009 |
08:00 |
1:30 |
The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock and I woke up at
8:00 o’clock. I was woken up twice in night time but then I went right back
to sleep within a couple of minutes. I don’t have any significant pain at the
moment. Yesterday was my last day at the physiotherapist due to the health
insurance pays only 9 visits per year. I am making a custom table for the computer and it should be ready on Tuesday. I am making it through wood that some of it I found for sale for around 60% of the original price. Yet the transportation would cost 17.50 due to I have no car. All in all, the table would cost me around between 50 and 60 Euro, I will know for sure this afternoon. I am building it myself. It is absolutely not fancy, but it is adjusted to my heights and sight and seating habits, as well as to the length of my arms, to not have to make my arms lay on table pushing my shoulders upwards and possibly causing me back or shoulder problems. I have been using eating tables for the computer since I purchased the computer in spring 2007. The only thing I would be missing for a correct sitting is a chair with adjustable back towards forwards, backwards, upwards and downwards, but I did not find it the city Winschoten (possibly population of 20.000), which is really a very small city with minimal choices compared to a large city with 2 Million population, also if I had a car I could drive to other nearby city and find it but I do not have a car. I am really missing a car very much. |
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07.06.2009 |
08:20 |
22:30 |
Alarm went on at 8:00, but I was too tired to get
up, due to yesterday I worked hard in the garden. No significant pain any
more. The table total cost is around 70 Euro including transportation (17.50
Euro) through a transportation company. Since the discounted board was
too long (2500 cm x 60cm), it became two tables, and therewith I have
larger computer table. |
|
08.06.2009 |
6:00 |
1:30 |
It is the first time since very long time, over a
year that I went to sleep so early. I woke up several times, it must have
been after 5 o’clock, but I did not get up. I get up without alarm at 6:00
o’clock; the alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I have some minor pain in the
back of my upper left shoulder. I also have a man created air/water bubble
inside my ear that is causing me some pain and discomfort. With the new eye
glasses I do not have to tilt my neck backwards enable to read the computer
monitor/screen, which is an improvement in comparison with my older bi-vocal
eye glasses, yet the frame of the new glasses is causing me some discomfort,
I went 3 times back to the shop to fix this problem, but it was adjusted or
fixed only to 90%, I will go back again this week to see if it can be 100%
adjusted to not cause me any discomfort.. |
|
09.06.2009 |
6:45 |
1:00 |
I woke up 15 minutes before the alarm went on at
7:00 o’clock, even though I was tired, so I was woken up by ESP. It is just as strange as my sickness in my shoulder,
for this sickness I went in April several times to the medical doctor and the
third time he sent me to the physiotherapist, and the physiotherapist, even
though did her best, yet there was absolutely no improvement in my back and
shoulder pain and I had to take several times daily pain tablets, and the
strange thing is that and very suddenly last week the pain went away and what
is more ironic or strange it went away in the same week were it was my last
physiotherapy treatment due to the health insurance cover only 9
physiotherapy treatments. Yet and since 4 days I have a new pain inside my left
ear caused by ESP through making an air/water bobble near a nerve that hurts
a lot when I touch it. And therewith I am being constantly tortured by ESP in
one way or another. Thank you to the Bush, Rockefeller and Windsor sadistic
hidden family members around me that are causing me all the troubles in my
life since 1959 to cover up that I am a member of these sadistic vicious
families that use military intelligence to cover up their tracks by claiming
many things to be national security. |
|
10.06.2009 |
8:30 |
24:00 |
The alarm went on at 8: o’clock, I was too tired and went back to sleep. Finally I woke up at 8;30. |
|
11.06.2009 |
7:20 |
23:30 |
The alarm went on at 6:30 o’clock, I was too tired
and went back to sleep. Finally I woke up at 7:20. I was woken up several
times at various times in the night time, yet I went back to sleep. Therefore
I got up very uncomfortable and tired with some pain here and there in my
both arms. All in all it was a very bad night sleep. |
|
12.06.2009 |
7:30 |
3:00 |
I can’t exactly recall when I went to sleep last
night it should have been around 23:30. I woke up without an alarm. I had
better sleep than yesterday, yet I do not feel very healthy, I have some
minor pains here and there, such as in my left shoulder and left arm, left
hand, both elbows and all in all I feel some how tired. |
|
13.06.2009 |
9:30 |
2:30 |
I woke up so late due to an incident I had
yesterday. I went to the town and somehow I left my back-bag in
the bus, and I had to go again to find it, the problem is that I was not sure
where I forgot it. The most reasonable possibility was that I left it in the
bus. Anyway, the bus driver found it and went far beyond his way to let me
know that he has it, and will bring it to me today. It has my Dutch refugee
passport in it. He found my address and sent me a friend last night around
9:30, that lives in the next town, to see if it I am the owner and to tell me
that he has it. I am very happy that I found it, but most importantly I am
most impressed and most pleasantly surprised over the bus driver. Thank you.
Due to this incident I had my dinner after 10 o’clock at night and therewith
everything else I do routinely at this time pushed over, and therewith I went
to sleep at 3 o’clock in the morning |
|
14.06.2009 |
10:30 |
24:00 |
I woke up on the alarm at 8:00 o’clock, but I was
too tired and went back to sleep and got up 1t 10:30. Last night the bus driver brought to my home my lost
back-bag with my Dutch refugee passport; unfortunately and somehow I did not
think of it to show him my appreciation. I wanted to give him a small gift or
invite him in, but somehow I did not think of it, I was working in the garden
at that time. So I will try to locate him and make it up to him. |
|
15.06.2009 |
7:30 |
2:00 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock but I was too tired and went back to sleep. I Got up at 7:30 o’clock. I woke up a couple of times during the night but I went right back to sleep. My sleep is still very disturbed!! |
|
16.06.2009 |
7:45 |
Can’t recall |
The alarm went on at 6:30 o’clock but somehow I fill
back to sleep. I Got up at 7:45 o’clock. There was no water, and I couldn’t
take a shower. I couldn’t go to school un-showered; the water came back after
10 o’clock. This is the second time that they cut the water without prior
warning or notice. I think today is the first or second time that I did not
go to the Dutch learning school this year, even though I studied the last two
days and even made the homework. |
|
17.06.2009 |
8:00 |
I went to bed 1:30, but I was prevented to go to
sleep in that I was waken up several times a couple of minutes after I went
to sleep, and therewith I could not go to sleep, but also and simultaneously
many thoughts were forced upon me to force me to keep on thinking and not go
to sleep. |
|
|
18.06.2009 |
No sleep 4:00 |
1:30 |
See the entry of yesterday that became today because
I was prevented to go to sleep. Can anyone please help getting me
out of this evil never ending circle of ESP persecution?? I went to sleep at around 4 o’clock. And went to
school late due to there was no water until 9:45. At school I attended only
around 15 minutes then there was some kind of a staff meeting and no school
in the afternoon. |
|
19.06.2009 |
9:30 |
1:00 |
I slept good last night, however and due to all the bad sleep prior to that it feels not good enough. My days and nights are real bad, I keep in loosing tracks of daily things and in general of life due to I am always tired of lack of continuous good sleep. This is how evil are the Bush, Rockefeller and Windsor families that are persecuting me since 1959 to not allow me to find the truth about my real identity. All I know for fact is that I was kidnapped in December 1959 for one month to Syria, 10 years to Egypt and then to Germany where they fiercely used American military intelligence CIA and NATO members to isolate me and kidnap me again in 1986 from Germany to USA where I was severely brainwashed and kept as a mentally dead slave and hostage, and then was dumped by force in the Netherland where my life is just plain captivity with permanent mental and physical torture. And I do not know the way out!!!! |
|
20.06.2009 |
8:30 |
5:30 |
I slept good last night, yet I went to bed late,
which I really don’t want, but at the moment I can’t control it due to all
the ESP manipulation. None-important note: (Added on 27.06.2009) Today Saturday I
went to the town Winschoten around noon because they had a musical event
called “midzomer nacht” which means “Mid-Summer night”. There I sat on a
public bank near a department store called “Hema”, I was eating a sausage
when I saw from far a person coming into my direction covering his mouth and
nose, almost half of his face with a cloth, he/she was approximately the same
size as Michael Jackson, I can’t exactly recall if he/she was wearing glasses,
but it was the first time and only time that I saw someone walking in
Netherlands with this semi-mask and it seemed very strange to me. He she was
looking at me while passing in front of me. On the day Michael Jackson’s
allegedly died I was looking at the internet and saw many of his photos while
covering his mouth and nose with a cloth and wearing glasses covering his
entire face identity. Most probably it was not Michael Jackson, only the mask
is identical, however it is most odd, especially that many Afro-Americans
where around my life since 1959, and in particular in the last couple of
years and some of them where of the entertainment circle or related to
Hollywood. But also the entire behavior and circumstances around Michael
Jackson life is most odd and show that there is something very wrong around
his life, for example, he was often persecuted by many close partners,
totally changing his appearance and skin color, singing many to mainly
anti-slavery and anti-separation/division/prejudice songs. Based on many
circumstances and situations in Michael Jackson’s life I always questioned if
he is really the son of his official parents???? There are many mysteries surrounding Michael Jackson
life that most people did not even notice, and this based on the pattern of
my own life. (Added on 28.06.2009) This person I saw
with mouth mask could be a hint of local people about someone around my life
in Netherland that is related to Michael Jackson. There are a few black and
half black persons around my life for the past a few months, they could be
Afro-American origin or descendent. In matter of fact some of them could be
American military members n Europe that are for now living around my life and
possibly from the background manipulating my life negatively, especially that
a lot of negative situations are forced upon me and I can’t defend myself of
them. I am ignoring these negative situations to concentrate on the more
important issues, but I am somehow on hold since around April 2009 and can’t
even write my thoughts and my findings, which means I can’t use my mind,
because the only way to find out what happened to me and why ? is to
concentrate on the incidents, situations and people surrounding me, and due
to the ESP manipulation I can do that only when I write my memory and analyze
them. (Added on
01.07.2009) It is very possible that the
person with covered half face/mask was intended to remind me or show me that
I am being silenced since April 2009, since I started to write about the evil
American military unjustly persecuting me since 1959 to cover up for the
excess of evil families Bush, Rockefeller, Windsor and Kennedy families.
Whatever the reasons of this half-masked-persons was, it was 100% intended to
get my attention to something. |
|
21.06.2009 |
11:30 |
2:30 |
I tried last night to go to sleep at around 2
o’clock but I was prevented, finally I went to sleep at around 5:30 in the
morning and woke very late this morning, almost at noon. |
|
22.06.2009 |
9:30 |
24:00 |
I could not sleep earlier due to the bad sleep of
the last 2 days in particular 2 days ago. The alarm went on at 9 but I was
too tired to get up and went back to sleep, finally I got up at 9:25. |
|
23.06.2009 |
7:45 |
?? |
Today is 26.06.2009; I forgot to
make an entry for this day. I am not certain about my sleep and woke up times
of this day. Today I had school. I think I slept through last
night. |
|
24.06.2009 |
?? |
?? |
Today is 26.06.2009; I forgot to
make an entry for this day. I am not certain about my sleep and woke up times
of this day. |
|
25.06.2009 |
7:45 |
5:30 |
Today is 26.06.2009; I forgot to
make an entry for this day. I am not certain about my sleep and woke up times
of this day. The alarm went on at 6:30 but I could not got up, I
was too tired and went back to sleep, I got up then 15 minutes later and went
to school very tired and depressed due to among others lack of good sleep I wanted to go to bed at 23 hours but I could not,
then I was watching the news about Michael Jackson death, then I tried to go
to sleep around 2 o’clock and I was several times prevented until around 4:00
o’clock, I got up and watched news and then went to sleep around 5:30 in the
morning. |
|
26.06.2009 |
10:30 |
2:30 |
I woke up very tired. When I don’t have a good sleep
for several days my nose and throat are all dried up and I am having bad time
breathing. |
|
27.06.2009 |
10:30 |
3:30 |
I slept through. The alarm went on at 9:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and went back to sleep. I got up at 10:30. |
|
28.06.2009 |
10:30 |
?? |
I slept through. The alarm went on at 9:00 o’clock,
but I was too tired and went back to sleep. I got up at 10:30. This is no
good I totally have no control over my sleeping habits forced upon me by evil
persons with ESP. (Added on
01.07.2009) The mouse of my computer
broke down and I was not able to use the computer until Tuesday 30.06.2009. |
|
29.06.2009 |
?? |
?? |
Today is 01.07.2009; I forgot to
make an entry for this day. I am not certain about my sleep and woke up times
of this day. |
|
30.06.2009 |
7:45 |
3 or possibly 4 o’clock in the morning |
Today is 01.07.2009; I forgot to
make an entry for this day. I am not certain about my sleep and woke up times
of this day. The alarm went on at 6:45, I was too tired and went
back to sleep. I was woken up at 7:45 by ESP very viciously by creating a
severe muscle pain in both of my legs that I had to scream. I did not have
enough time to properly have shower, breakfast and take my time to think
about yesterday and today, I had to hurry to catch the bus I went to school and as I get back from school I was
very tired due to lack of good sleep and for the first time since many months
I slept in the afternoon from 14:45 to 16:30. A long and very confusing dream
was forced upon me by ESP that had relation to many things in my life, such
as multiple kidnapping and mental tortures. |
|
01.07.2009 |
11:30 |
Could not sleep |
Today is 01.07.2009; I forgot to
make an entry for this day. I am not certain about my sleep and woke up times
of this day. I have a lot of pains in many areas of my body, the
muscles of my legs since yesterday morning mentioned incident of waking me up
viciously, back pain, arms pain, muscle pain in my right arm that prevent me
to freely open my arm the whole way or carry any thing that is more than 1-3
kilograms. |
|
02.07.2009 |
Did not sleep |
23:30 |
I was not able to go to sleep due to the forced upon
me bad sleep timing. I had a Dutch language test today, and for the first
time I had very bad grade, due to I was too tired and was not able to
concentrate. In this test, the end of book-1 called CODE-1, I had six
mistakes within I think 12 or 15 questions and that is bad. This is how evil
are the Bush, Windsor and Rockefeller families that are influencing the Dutch
around my life. (added on
03.07.2009) Today is the last school day
prior to the around 7 week’s summer vacation. At 10 o’clock in the morning we
had a small party at the school prepared mainly by our two teachers. It was
nice and I was very touched, but I could not enjoy it due to I was too tired
and had several pains here and there. Not all students of our 2 classes were
present, however other not class students or teachers were also present,
which is really similar to what happened to me the last a few months (since
November 2008 the end of the Bush/Obama election in USA) in the school
and in the additional lesson that was forced upon me since January by
Stichting Welzijn, which is, there was many persons missing and replaced by
others that are not supposed to be there from students to teachers and that
would explain why all-in-all I had more than 6 teachers since the begin of
the school year (they kept on exchanging them from September 2008 to
January 2009 = 4 months), where other students had consistently the same
only 1-2 teachers, but also many students came new and others totally
disappeared of our class or even the entire school. |
|
03.07.2009 |
10:00 |
1:00 |
The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock but somehow I went
back to sleep and got up at 10:00 o’clock. Health wise and physically I do
not feel good, I feel that my health is rapidly more degrading since a few
months and this is in addition to the increasing mental and physical torture
performed upon me by ESP and no one is helping, even though some to many
persons showed me indirect support or that they are aware of what is going on
around my life but they can’t do anything either due to they do not have ESP
or due to the huge evil circle of half brothers and sisters around my life
that have ESP and are totally vicious and mentally unstable, unpredictable
and dangerous for the general public and they are 100% working for the
American military, NATO and members of the evil Bush, Rockefeller, Windsor, Kennedy and other mentally sick international organized
crime families that control several governments and use the
American military, CIA, FBI and other agencies to create fake national security reasons to
suppress the general public or persecute their victims in the name of National security as
they are doing to me ever since 1959. |
|
04.07.2009 |
9:50 |
6:30 |
Last night I wanted to go to bed earlier around
23:00 hours, but somehow I couldn’t. The alarm went on at 8:00 this morning
but somehow I went back to sleep and got up at 9:50 |
|
05.07.2009 |
11:50 |
3:30 or 4:30 I can’t recall |
Last night I was heavily prevented of going to
sleep, I went to bed around 3:00 o’clock in the morning, but each time I fall
to sleep these mother fuckers wakes me up, the last time I think it must have
been past 6:00 o’clock in the morning because it was heavily light.
All-in-all I was woken up around 6-10 times. So I was not able to wake up
until almost noon. I have a lot of air/water bubbles all over my
fingers on both hands, may be 30 or 50 of them, I can’t count them due to
many of them are very close to each others, almost on top of each others. I
never had these in The Netherland except this week. I had them a few times in
the Netherlands, however only 2-3 a time and only once a while, may be every
a few months. However and in USA especially in Houston, Texas I had them all
the times and I was not able to get ready of them, I thought it was a skin
sickness. Once they disappear another lot of 30-100 will constantly appears.
May be it is the heat, it is now very hot in my house, the thermometer shows
27-28 degrees every day for the last 10 days, however I doubt it, 99% it is
man made with ESP due to many reasons, for one I was tracking and monitoring
them in the last 8 years, but I was not doing that in USA. |
|
06.07.2009 |
13:50 |
23:30 |
I woke up at 11:30, I was too tired, went to toilette and went back to sleep. Got up at 13:50. |
|
07.07.2009 |
7:45 |
Around 5:00or 6:00 o’clock |
Went to sleep at 23:30. Woke up around 5 or 6
o’clock and went right back to sleep and got up at 7:45. |
|
08.07.2009 |
11:30 |
1:30, 3:00 or 4:o’clock |
I went to sleep last night at 3:00 o’clock in the
morning, even though I wanted to go to bed much earlier. Then I was prevented
to sleep. Each time I fall to sleep these cowered evil mother fuckers would
wake me up, last time it was light, I think it was around 5 or 6:00 o’clock
in the morning. Who are these evil persons? They are the
American military staff and NATO
members that want to prevent me of writing down what they did to me in the
Middle East, Europe and USA, but also FBI that want to prevent me to describe all the mother
fucker FBI agent that were set on me after 1986 in USA among
others by/through the evil company Dun and Bradstreet in Wilton, Connecticut, USA in the year 1988 and
until Wazi
Ullah in the year 2000, the CEO of
the computer
ComputerExpo on Westheimer road
in Houston, Texas, USA that pretended to be strict Moslem to spy on
Pakistanis, Indian and other Asian Moslems in the name of the FBI and CIA and I was set up to know him from 1991 to 2000. But
also their hidden allies around my life here in the Netherlands, among other
the Dutch military staff that are also members of the NATO and are keeping me
hostage for the American government just as they are doing with many other
innocents here, in Germany and most probably elsewhere, I know that because I
saw many of them around my life. the only difference the others do not know
what hit them just like I did not know prior to 2007, but I do know what and
who hit me and still hitting me day in and day out. Note: Today I disabled the main page of my complaint web pages. And this
due to I am being severely persecuted by ESP and prevented to have
continuous good sleep, which is causing me many problems, not be able to wake
up on time, having severe physical problems, concentration problem,
disorientation and other problems and that is a hidden torture performed by
my persecutors. |
|
09.07.2009 |
11:30 |
4:00 |
Last night I went to bed at 1:30, but I was
prevented to sleep. So I got up and watched TV-discovery channel and German
educational program until around 3 or 4:00 o’clock in the morning. |
|
10.07.2009 |
14:00 |
4:30 |
I woke up at around 10:30 o’clock, went to toilette,
I was somehow cold and tired, and went back to sleep. Prior to waking up at
10:30, a dream was forced upon me and a lot o thoughts related to the dream
and my past were also forced upon me after waking up, but I forgot what they
were about. Note: Today is the festival called “Nachts vaan Winschoten” and I s
meeting David at 6:00 o’clock at C1000 in Winschoten. |
|
11.07.2009 |
9:00 |
1:30 |
Last night I came back from the festival at 1:30. The alarm was set at 10:00 o’clock, but I woke up at 8:30, I was too tired and tried to go back to sleep, but was not able. Finally I got up at 9:00 o’clock. |
|
12.07.2009 |
10:15 |
I tried at 3:30-5:30 Went to sleep at 9:30 |
I wanted to wake up at 9, but I did not hear the
alarm. Note: Since I disabled the main page of my complaint pages at http://najar.t35.com, it feel like I was left alone and I am not being
persecuted by ESP, however it only feels like that, I still have disturbed
sleep and totally out of routine, order or prober timings. But also some of
the pains that I have in my right arm that prevent me to fully open it, or in
my left arm that a few times a day feel like a mixture of numbness and
electricity flowing in my entire arm and other pains. If they really left me
alone then, then I should feel much better within a week, and this due to I
was severely tortured through lack of proper sleep that affect the entire
physical and mental condition and would need time to regain strength. These
are some of the thoughts about this issue and that is why I am keeping track
of my sleeping habits. |
|
13.07.2009 |
14:30 |
4:30 |
I wanted to go t bed between 23:00 and 24:00 hours,
but instead I went to bed at 3:30, I was prevented to go to sleep in that and
after I fall to sleep I be woken up after a minute or two. Then I gave up at
5:30 and I got up and worked on the computer until 9:30 in the morning and
then went to sleep and woke up at 14:30 hours. Note: I thought when I disable my complaint pages at http://.najar.t35.com
, then I would be left alone, but I was not left alone, which is visible
since I disabled the main page 5 days ago on 08.07.2009 |
|
14.07.2009 |
11:30 |
2:30 |
I wanted to go t bed between 23:00 and 24:00 hours,
but instead I went to bed at 4:30. The alarm went on at 10:00 at, but I was
too tired and went back to sleep until almost noon at 11:30. |
|
15.07.2009 |
|
|
Today is 16.07.2009. I do not know
what happened to this entry, it is missing, even though I made an entry
yesterday. May be I was copying the date from the prior day and not from the
actual calendar and there is a mistake in an entry from days ago. |
|
16.07.2009 |
10:50 |
1:30 |
Today is the 16.7.2009, yet my above entry shows that I missed one entry on 15.07.2009. Alarm was set at 9:00 am. But I did not hear it, and the alarm was switched off, possibly I did that as the alarm went on and can’t recall. I wanted to wake up at 9:00 o’clock, and the following day at 8:00 o’clock, but I am not succeeding in adjusting my sleep timing. Due to ESP interference and manipulation. |
|
17.07.2009 |
09:30 |
3:30 |
The alarm went on at 9:00 o’clock, I was too tired,
and got up at 9:30. |
|
18.07.2009 |
10:00 |
5:30 |
I woke up some time may be around 7o’clock, but I
was too tired and went back to sleep. At 10 o’clock the alarm went on and I
got up a few minutes later. Note: Today is Saturday. Today I went shopping. I haven’t left the house
since last Saturday, because I want to save money that I don’t have and also
because I was busy gathering information about my past and sorting them in
form of HTML web pages. I did not even have shower since last Saturday and
until today. All this is not really good, but somehow I have to do it so
others may see how evil my fake and biological families are. Not that I am sacrificing myself for the others,
but rather because I do not know what else to do, but also because I have the
strong believe that they are performing similar brainwash tactics and slavery
persecutions on many others, also on persons that I knew and did not even
meet, did not even know or heard of/from before, yet the pattern of my past
is very clear, it is the routine that they used on me that revealed to me
that they have a very good experience in that, but also that they have sort
of a standard system for brainwash, and that can only mean that it is very
often used. It is very sad but it is all about the hidden mass slavery,
whereby many don’t even know that they are slaves, because they do not know
any other way of life except what is forced upon them since childhood. |
|
19.07.2009 |
11:45 |
Uncertain between 21:00 and 23:00 hours |
I went to sleep at 1:30 this morning, but I was
prevented to sleep, then I gave up and got up at around 3:30. I worked a
little bit on the computer then went to sleep at 5:30. All-in-all I am trying
hard to adjust my sleep to start around 23:00 or 24:00 hours until 6:00 or
7:00 o’clock in the morning, unfortunately unsuccessfully, which is effecting
my entire life very negatively. Note: Whoever prevented me of going to sleep did it for a reason, among
others to disturb my seep, but also what happened on that day, before and
after, can indicate other or additional reasons. Nothing much happened to me
before and after, except before I wrote yesterday’s log entry as shown in the
line above, and after I was prevented to sleep and got up at 3:30 in the
morning, I corrected a few small profiles as well as connected other profiles
together, but also I looked briefly at my website provider www.T35.com and its new interface as well as his all new
connections (at least to me) to various social websites such as www.facebook.com, “www.twitter.com” and others, therewith, I looked briefly at these
mentioned social website and thought about joining them, which I thought
about that many times before, but I am very hesitant or reluctant due to some
personal/psychological factors that I am trying to overcome. |
|
20.07.2009 |
05:15 |
24:15 |
I forgot what time I went to bed last night, I was
semi-drunk after 3 beers and 3 tequilas. I woke up some time around 4:40 but
I went back to sleep and got up at 5:12 in the morning. It is the first time
since a very long time that I went to sleep early and woke up also early. |
|
21.07.2009 |
08:45 |
6:30 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock but I went back to
sleep. I got up at 8:45. My left arm was very cold as I woke up, until still
feel some how cold and somehow pain. |
|
22.07.2009 |
12:30 |
I am not certain after 3:30 in the morning |
I went to sleep at 1:30, I was woken up several
times, and at 2:30 in the morning I gave up and got up. Watched little TV and
played a stupid Windows game. Went to sleep at 6:30 |
|
23.07.2009 |
13:30 |
3:30 |
The last 2 weeks sleep timing was very bad. I don’t
understand how evil these people can be to continuously damage my life, where
they can use their ESP to heal the world and not damage it. |
|
24.07.2009 |
8:15 |
1:30 |
I set the alarm at 9:00. I woke up some times before
7 o’clock, but I went right back to sleep and got up at 8:15 this morning. |
|
25.07.2009 |
8:00 |
4:30 |
I went to sleep at 1:30 in the morning, I was
prevented to go to sleep for around 45 minutes, but then and finally I was
allowed to go to sleep until the alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock in the
morning. |
|
26.07.2009 |
11:30 |
3:30 |
The alarm was set at 10 o’clock in the morning. I
was waken up at around 6:30 with severe pain in the muscles of my left leg,
as if the muscles were tearing apart, the pain was so severe that I screamed,
and said twice God help. This ESP torture lasted around 2 minutes. Then I
went to toilette and back to sleep due to I was too tired, and get up at
11:30, almost noon. Note-1: What did I do yesterday, that led to this vicious ESP attack and
torture me this morning?? I was writing about the complaint letter of June 2000 that
was forced upon me at and by the management of Compaq Corporation at their Headquarter in
Houston, Texas, USA. Note-2: Today is Sunday; I did not leave the house for 7 days until
yesterday. Yesterday I went shopping for really only 5 needed products, potato,
soap, bread and lemons, yet I came back with more than 10 purchased products,
which I really did not need to buy, partially until after 2 weeks, some where
even unnecessary. I often store too much food, some time for 2 month, often
many of it goes bad and I had to throw it away. My guess this is the effect
of the brainwash they performed up on me several times in my life, last between 2003 to 2006, or in 1999-2001, and other prior times, or being so often and
unjustly in prison and forced to eat what they force upon me, in that they
force me to be homeless and money less, and often was hungry and had no
money, or wanted specific food but could not afford it, whereby and during
this time I was not able to afford most of the food. As a result possibly and
unconsciously I am storing too much food to not be in that situation. This
little behavior shows how brainwash affects my need, thinking and behavior. |
|
27.07.2009 |
11:50 |
3:30 |
The alarm went on at 10:00, but I continued to
sleep. Nothing much to add except I am deeply depressed about my forced upon
me sleeping habits. |
|
28.07.2009 |
10:00 |
1:30 |
The alarm went on at 10:00, and I got up at 10:00
o’clock. Note: Yesterday I tried hard to go to sleep early, among others by
drinking more alcohol than usual, 3 beers, 2 tequila and another strong anise
drink, really I drunk more than a few days ago as mentioned above under the
day 20.07.2009, but it did not help a bid and I was totally alert/sober and
not a bid tired or even near drunk, which raises question about me feeling
somehow drunk as mentioned on 20.07.2009. |
|
29.07.2009 |
09:15 |
12:15 |
I got up at 9:15. The alarm went on at 10:00
o’clock. Last night I drunk again more alcohol than usual to be able to go to
sleep early, but it did not work much. I also wanted to set the alarm to 7 or
8 o’clock but I forgot. |
|
30.07.2009 |
8:15 |
12:15 |
The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock. I woke up disoriented and had no feeling for the time and I was tired. I got up at 8:15 |
|
31.07.2009 |
8:00 |
12:30 |
The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:00.
My body seem somehow numb, my guess due to drinking more alcohol than usual
in the last couple of days. |
|
01.08.2009 |
7:00 |
23:45 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock. I got up at 7:00. |
|
02.08.2009 |
7:40 |
2:00 |
The alarm went on at 6:00 o’clock, but I went back
to sleep I got up at 7:40. |
|
03.08.2009 |
9:00 |
23:00 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock, but I went back
to sleep I got up at 9:00, somehow tired. |
|
04.08.2009 |
5:15 |
21:30 and 4:30 or 5:30 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock. I woke up at
4:30. I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn’t. I got up at 5:15. |
|
05.08.2009 |
9:00 |
1:15 |
Around 21:00 hours I fill to sleep on the chair and
while I was having dinner bread, cheese, melon and wine! I woke up around
1:30 in the morning I couldn’t go to bed until around 3:30 in the morning,
but I was prevented to sleep, I was woken up several times, one of them with
a very evil forced upon me chock dream, that felt as if someone in my room
waking me up while I am allegedly snoring. I am not sure when I was woken up
the last time; it must have been between 4:30 and 5:30. The alarm went on at 9:00 o’clock, I woke up very
tired, and most muscles in my body are hurting and feel very weak. |
|
06.08.2009 |
8:15 |
3:00 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock but I was too tired and went back to sleep. I got up at 8:15. |
|
07.08.2009 |
10:15 |
5:30 |
I did not want to sleep so late yesterday. No alarm
was set. I woke up somehow not tired and relaxed. However and 20 minutes
later I felt tired and my body is somehow feels unusual sort of weak and
lash. |
|
08.08.2009 |
13:30 |
3:00 |
No alarm was set. I woke up at 12:30, but I was too
tired and went back to sleep and got up at 13:30 hours. Note: for the past a couple of weeks I was
going every Saturday food shopping, but yesterday I thought the day was lost
any way, so I may as well go shopping on Friday and start Saturday fresh and
early. And as a result of my planning I was prevented to go to sleep and the
Saturday was even more wasted than the Friday. That is how evil and stupid
are those piece of human trash that are persecuting me with ESP. I can’t plan
anything without they destroy it nor I can perform any task to the end
without them preventing it. And they are stupid because they can't
build they can only steal based destruction of others, like a parasite. |
|
09.08.2009 |
11:00 |
24:00 |
I woke up around 9:30, but I was too tired and went
back to sleep, and then got up at 11:00 o’clock. Was I really too tired or
was I forced by ESP to feel and think that I am too tired? I can’t tell any
more. All I know that yesterday I planned or it was my intention to work
through the night and until Sunday evening to make up or fix the sleeping
disruption as shown in the last a few days, but somehow I went to sleep at 3
o’clock in the morning even though I wasn’t really tired. |
|
10.08.2009 |
08:00 |
12:45 |
The alarm was not set. I woke up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
11.08.2009 |
08:00 |
1:45 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock, but somehow I
went back to sleep. I woke up at 8:00 o’clock. Note: Today I have somehow a slight chest
pain, possibly coming from my lungs or from around my lungs. |
|
12.08.2009 |
08:45 |
3:00 |
The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock, but somehow I
went back to sleep. I woke up at 8:45 o’clock. Note: Today I do not have chest pain. |
|
13.08.2009 |
03:45 |
11:45 |
I wanted to go to sleep early yesterday, but somehow
I didn’t. Then I went to bed at around 3 o’clock. I struggled to go to sleep
for around 15 minutes, and then went to sleep, Then I was woken up around
3:45 in the morning and prevented to go back to sleep and after 10 minutes I
got up, made coffee and continued to write my complaint pages. It is now 16:45 hours and I am still writing and
verifying. Note: Today I do not have chest pain. |
|
14.08.2009 |
09:45 |
4:00 |
The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock, but I was too
tired, I stopped it and went back to sleep. I got up at 9:45, disappointed
that I woke up so late, because I was trying hard to adjust my sleep habits
to sleep at 22:00 or 23:00 hours and woke up at 6:00 o’clock in the morning.
Why wake up so early in the morning? I do not know, but this is one of the
goals that I am using since years, but I can’t reach. Waking up early every
morning has many advantages, especially if it is a permanent routine, because
then I can plan and perform within the whole day many other routines that it
would all amount to organization and discipline = success and that I am being
deprived off since 1959. |
|
15.08.2009 |
12:30 |
8:00 |
I woke up at 9:30 o’clock, but I was too tired and
went back to sleep. I got up at 12:30. I did not know what to think about
waking up so late. Yesterday I wanted to go to bed earlier, around 22:00 or
23:00 hours, but somehow I did not. I felt very tired after I got up, and
many thoughts went through my head about the complaint pages that I was
writing in the last couple of days, and somehow it made me very depressed. |
|
16.08.2009 |
15:00 |
23:00 |
No alarm was set. Went to sleep at 8:00 o’clock this
morning, and woke up 12:30 noon, I went to toilette, I felt too tired and
went back to sleep and got up at 15:00 hours very disappointed and depressed
due to these timings. Note-1: These sleeping and wake up timing forced upon me are very bad.
Yesterday and due to the bad sleeping timing in the last a few days, I had
the thoughts that I will stay awake since I woke up on Saturday noon and
until Sunday evening enable I can re-regulate my sleep to normal sleep and
woke up timing, but at 8 o’clock this morning and very suddenly I felt very tired
and went to sleep, which really missed my sleep timing even more. And the bad
thing is that the Dutch learning school starts next Thursday the 20.08.2009.
I received the school attendance schedule on last Friday, which it contain 3
days a week attendance with the following timing, day one: start at 13:oo,
day two start at 14:30, day three start at 11:30, and each for 2.5 hours,
whereby I thought as I received this schedule that it is good in comparison
to 8 or 9 o’clock in the morning where I have difficulties waking up due to I
am prevented to go to sleep before 2-4 o’clock in the morning, and now my
sleeping timing is even getting worse. Also I was thinking of creating a new to-do schedule
during the school period, but I did not do that yet. I do not know how I feel
about going back to school after the summer holiday of around 7 weeks, on the
onside it is very depressing for me to be in the situation to have to learn a
new language at my age, where I should be working and performing many
activities, on the other side, it is may be a big relief for me to see other
people, because I am mainly sitting at home. Note-2: Now it is 19:00 hours, 3.5 hours after I wrote the above of today’s
section. And I am desperate about having regulated sleeping time, and I
thought I will drink beer and may be also tequila until I drop to sleep some
times before midnight. This is not good, and I tried it many times, which
possibly turns me to an alcoholic, but also it is also a continuous brainwash
forced upon me for so long that I can’t really decide when it started, except
it was absolutely extreme in 1984 during the illegal American
military intelligence project
Calypso that I was dragged to it by force,
brainwashed and enslaved under the American military intelligence whore agent Najlaa
Mahmoud and kidnapped to USA where I
was kept letterly as slave and hostage for 15 years, maintaining this
habit of continuously going out for dinner and drink beer and tequila
until I can’t drive my car any more, and the whore agent Najlaa
Mahmoud that pretended to be Moslem,
and pretended to be tolerant Moslem used to drive the car that she had most
of the time any way since I was at work and in particular during the that
project CPC-Caspian Pipeline Consortium, that I also was dragged to it by
force in 1998 to 1999 and set up uncountable times absolutely negatively and
destructively while they were pretending to remind me of the illegal American
military intelligence project
Calypso of 1984 that they used it to
kidnap me in first of all, and simultaneously during this CPC project
relating me to Russians as distraction of my actual American/English origin. The actual drinking brainwash and training my head
started slightly in Egypt before 1970 and extensively in 1970 at the American
legion club
in the American military base McGraw
kasern where I was
forced to work as bartender for over a year in 1970 to at least 1971. |
|
17.08.2009 |
6:15 |
23:45 |
I woke up sometime around 5:30 in the morning; I got
up at 6:15. Yesterday I had 3 beers and 3 tequilas between 19:00 hours and
23:00 hours, I had dinner later than usual around 21:00 hours, then went to
sleep at around 23:00 hours. |
|
18.08.2009 |
7:10 |
1:00+5:00 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock, but somehow I
went back to sleep and I got up at 7:10 o’clock. |
|
19.08.2009 |
11:30 |
23:30 |
I went to bed at one o’clock in the morning, but I
was prevented to sleep and was woken up a couple of times until 2:30 in the
morning and then I couldn’t go to sleep. I got up at 2:30 in the morning and
did not know what to do. So I looked at social website “Facebook” and
filled some account information, whereby I created that account around one
week ago but did not fill in the information. Then I set the alarm at 10:00
o’clock and went to sleep at 5 o’clock. I woke up at 10:00 o’clock but I was
too tired and went back to sleep and got up at 11:30. Physically I feel
strange, I can’t describe it, a mixture of little dizzy, little lack of
concentration, and little disoriented, little shaky, slight pain in my
muscles, as if small needle is stinging me on my entire body. This feeling I
always have when my sleep is disturbed, but I never mentioned it because I
did not know how to describe it. Note: The last a few days I decided to create a new
daily schedule to manage/organize my time between the Dutch learning school,
studying Dutch at home, fixing the very bad shaped garden, writing my
complain pages and other things, actually I meant to create this schedule
today, and I will create it, but it is very difficult with these piece of
human trash persecuting me with ESP and disturbing my sleep and preventing me
to have any specific routine on a specific time. |
|
20.08.2009 |
6:00 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock. I woke up around 5:00 or 5:30 o’clock, but I went back to sleep. I got up at 6:00 o’clock. My strange physical feelings are slightly less than yesterday. I want to wake up early, but also I want to have sufficient sleep on continuous basis, and therewith waking up early today and in combination with having disturbed sleep in the last days is causing me to be tired. Today is the start to the Dutch learning school. |
|
21.08.2009 |
8:30 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock. I was woken up
last night a few times, my guess between 24:00 hours and 1:00 or 3:00 ‘clock
in the morning. One of these waken up incidents was caused by a very evil and
forced upon me dream of someone screaming at me from within my bed room,
which waked up with thoughts that I am scared of someone being in my room.
Physically I feel tired today just like yesterday. Also I have a few man
created by ESP larger air/water bubble on strange areas on my both hands that
are causing me little pain and discomfort. Note: Yesterday was the Dutch learning school/classes begin. Yesterday was
almost a record temperature in the Netherland, around 33 degrees Celsius, and
simultaneously it was the first time that the temperatures within my housing
of 27 is lower than outside of 33 degrees Celsius. Usually inside my housing
and in the summer the temperature is 4-6 degrees higher than outside, and in
the winter often it colder within my housing than outside, therefore I have
to leave the heater on longer which cost more money. A housing that is
designed to be cooler in the summer and warmer in the winter than outside and
without air condition or heater would be the perfect intelligent design for
areas like where I live. |
|
22.08.2009 |
9:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm went on at 9:00 o’clock and I get up at
9:00 o’clock. My plan yesterday was to go much earlier to bed, but somehow I
did not make it earlier. Note: Today the outside temperature is 19 degrees, inside my housing is 26
degrees which is the usual difference between inside and outside, and this is
in contrast to yesterday, where the outside temperature was 33 and inside my
housing was 27 degrees. |
|
23.08.2009 |
8:30 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:30
o’clock. |
|
24.08.2009 |
7:45 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I woke up a
couple of times I think it was between up at 5:00 and 7:00 o’clock, but I
went back to sleep. I got up at 7:45. Note: I think I have food poison through the food I had for dinner last
night, my stomach feels strange and I had diarrhea, but also the taste of my
mouth is very weaken and it feels strange. I had some Japanese noodle out of
a packet that expire in August 2009, also I eat sour cream that expired
18.08.2009, so one of these two or both of them caused me food poison. |
|
25.08.2009 |
6:00 |
23:30 |
The alarm was set at 6:30 o’clock. I woke up twice
between around 5:00 and 6:00 o’clock. I got up at 6:00 o’clock. Note: My stomach has improved and the taste in my mouth has returned
compared to yesterday, this mean yesterday it was a slight food poisoness. |
|
26.08.2009 |
7:30 |
23:30 |
The alarm was set at 7:30 o’clock. I woke up once or twice prior to 7:30, but I went back to sleep. I got up at 7:30 o’clock.
|
|
27.08.2009 |
7:00 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock. I got up at 7:-0
o’clock. |
|
28.08.2009 |
7:00 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock. I got up at 7:00
o’clock. Note: I planned to go to go to the city of Groningen, just for fun due to
they have some kind of a festival, but I changed my mind and decided to stay
home to catch up on many home tasks, such as Dutch study, garden and house
work and other tasks. |
|
29.08.2009 |
7:10 |
22:30 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock. I woke up at 7:00
o’clock, but I was too tired and went back to sleep and got up at 7:10
o’clock. Note: I had difficulties yesterday to fall to sleep and was woken up 1-2
times last night. All in all I did not have a good sleep. |
|
30.08.2009 |
4:15 |
I forgot possibly around 23:00 |
The alarm was set at 6:30 o’clock. I woke up around
4 o’clock, but I was too tired and went back to sleep and got up at 4:15
o’clock. I really did not want to wake up so early, but I was forced with
ESP. (Added on 10.01.2010) Today I went to Germany to have lunch and was arrested around noon and released around 6 o’clock in the evening. For details see the daily entry of 20.09.2009. |
|
31.08.2009 |
7:30 |
22:30 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock; I got up at 7:00
o’clock. |
|
01.09.2009 |
6:30 |
22:45 |
The alarm was set at 6:30 o’clock; I got up at 6:30
o’clock. |
|
02.09.2009 |
7:30 |
???? |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock; I got up at 7:30
o’clock. I was woken up sometimes in the middle of the night with a
disturbing or supposed to be a scary dream fighting with a crocodile, I tried
to go back to sleep, which took me around 30 minutes. |
|
03.09.2009 |
???? |
23:45 |
Today is 04.09.2009. Yesterday I forgot to make an
entry. I can’t remember when I went to sleep last night nor can I
remember when I woke this morning. |
|
04.09.2009 |
8:15 |
22:45 |
The alarm was set on 7:00 o’clock but I was too tired and went back to sleep. I got up at 8:15. |
|
05.09.2009 |
7:15 |
23:15 |
The alarm was set on 7:00 o’clock but somehow I turned it off and went back to sleep and can’t recall doing that. I got up at 7:15 o’clock. |
|
06.09.2009 |
6:30 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set on 6:30; I got up at 6:45 o’clock. |
|
07.09.2009 |
7:30 |
I can’t recall around 23:30 |
The alarm was set on 7:00, I was somehow tired and I
got up at 7:30 o’clock. |
|
08.09.2009 |
6:45 |
10:30 |
The alarm was set on 6:30, I was somehow tired and I
got up at 6:45 o’clock. Note: Even though and for the last a couple of weeks I had a steady sleep
for the first time since 2003, yet I am always feeling tired, especially in
the morning when I got up, my guess I need at least an additional one hour
daily sleep, and therefore I will try to sleep earlier every day starting
today. But also it could be due to I drink alcohol on a daily bases between 2
beers and 2 wines to additionally another one beer plus one wine and 1-3
other shots of 38% alcohol drinks such as cognac, tequila or other drinks. On
top of that I often have very bad or sad memories in addition to air/water
bubbles on my fingers, my face and other areas, and some of them are very
deep under the skin that I can’t scratch them off, such as now I have a very
large one deep under the skin on my left cheek that is causing me some pain
and a lot of discomfort, and these are manmade with ESP. |
|
09.09.2009 |
5;45 |
23.00 |
The alarm was set on 7:00, I woke up around 5:30, but I did not feel like getting up. I got up at 6:45, I was a little tired. |
|
10.09.2009 |
7:10 |
22:45 |
The alarm was set on 7:00, I woke up around 6:45, but I did not feel like getting up. I got up at 7:10, I was a little tired. |
|
11.09.2009 |
7:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set on 7:00; I woke up around 7:00. |
|
12.09.2009 |
7:30 |
22:45 |
The alarm was set on 7:00; I was a little bit tired
and I got up around 7:30. Last night I was waken up several times, I am not
certain of the time, in around the first 1-3 hours after I went to sleep. |
|
13.09.2009 |
7:15 |
1:45 |
The alarm was set on 7:00; I was a little bit tired
and I got up around 7:15. |
|
14.09.2009 |
7:00 |
23:30 |
The alarm was set on 7:00; I got up at 7:00 o’clock.
Yesterday I really wanted to go to bed around 10 o’clock, but somehow I was
not able to do it. |
|
15.09.2009 |
7:30 |
1:45 |
The alarm was set on 6:30; I got up at 7:30 o’clock.
|
|
16.09.2009 |
9:30 |
22:45 |
The alarm was set on 9:00; I got up at 9:30 o’clock.
|
|
17.09.2009 |
6:45 |
12:30 |
The alarm was set on 9:00; I woke up around 6:00 o’clock, but I did not feel like getting up. I got up at 6:45. |
|
18.09.2009 |
6:45 |
3:15 |
The alarm was set on 7:00; I was too tired and got
up at 9:30 o’clock, but I did not feel like getting up. I got up at 6:45. Note: I was woken up very early, may be around 5:00 or 6:00 o’clock. I
also was woken up some time in the middle of the night through a very bad
dream with a dog that came into a car I was driving and bit my hand and kept
it bitten in his mouth, which very much must had something to do with a car I
was trying to purchase, but the owners, a student colleague and his wife,
were toying with me and in the last second said he is not going to sell the
car, but rather they are keeping it and gave me a big lie for a reason. |
|
19.09.2009 |
8:45 |
23:15 |
The alarm was set on 9:00; I got up at 8:45 o’clock. Note: I feel that yesterday was mostly wasted due to I was not able to do
what I had planned to do, such as study Dutch and/or add to the complain
pages specifically for the time after 1987 in USA and until current in
Netherland. I have to study Dutch, even though I do not want, and that
because one of the main methods they used to enslave me is that forcing me to
be nationality less all my life. And I can’t receive the Dutch citizenship
unless I pass a written and verbal Dutch test. |
|
20.09.2009 |
8:45 |
10:45 |
The alarm was set on 7:00; I got up at 8:45 o’clock. Note: Yesterday, I also did not follow my planning’s, however, I do not
feel that the day was wasted due to I spend it looking for and purchasing a
secondhand car. It seems that I was lucky and purchased a very good car for a
very good price, it is a Ford Escort Station-wagon made in 1995, for 499
Euro, including registration fees. It also has the yearly mandated inspection
valid until May 2010. I found the car on the Internet, yet as I went to the dealer
I purchased another. If I think about what happened two days ago with the car
that I was going to purchase of the student mentioned above on Friday, and it
did not work, then I realize that I most probably would not have looked for a
car to purchase, and just think about want to have a car. Somehow I was
scared to purchase a car, even though I feel that I am badly in need for a
car, for one, I was often very disappointed, where I wanted to attend some
Microsoft technical computer seminars, but I was not able to due to the
public transportation would not allow me to get to the seminar location on
time, but rather 2-5 hours after seminar begin. But also and since at least
2002 I wanted to go to a church service, but most of the time and in
particular on Sunday, I would wake up later than 10 o’clock in the morning,
after a few years I gave up, until the week of Sunday 30th of
August 2009, 3 weeks ago, I looked for churches in the city of Winschoten,
and picked up 5, wrote their addresses and related information down and
decided to visit each one on one of the following Sundays to decide which one
I should join. However something happened that prevented me to continuo. On
Sunday 30. August I went to a church in the City Winschoten, due to it is
easier for me to go to shops and services in the 15 km far city Winschoten
than going to shops and services in the city Bellingwolde where I am living
right now and that because the shops and services in Bellingwolde are all
over the little village that is stretched to 6-8 km, and with the bus stop
right next to my housing I can easily go to Winschoten. Anyway, on that
Sunday I went to the church and thereafter I was manipulated with ESP to take
the train (subway) to the city of Leer in Germany due to I wanted to have lunch
but I did not find any restaurant open in the city of Winschoten, and thought
I go to Germany to have lunch and come back, whereby the village Bellingwolde
is right on the German border. On the train I was arrested by the German
federal police that where inspecting passengers ID and phoning it into their
headquarters (and this is most strange within the European Union, where is
the freedom?? I feel as if I am living between the former East and West
Germany or the former communist block and the so called free Western
world/block), and in this process they said there is an arrest warrant
against me from Munich, Germany due to I am prohibited to enter Germany and
therewith I am entering it illegally. They took me to the police station in
the city of Bunde, around 30 km far, and until 5 o’clock I was locked up in
jail, then deported back to the Netherland, where the Dutch police came and
picked me up and drove me back to my housing in Bellingwolde, all in all it
was not a good day for me that Sunday, and I did not want to talk about it
and I did not mention it to any one, due to I was a shamed of it. In the
deportation procedure there was an appeal for the proceedings, that I could
file by the German police after I pay 30 Euro, I did pay the 30 Euro and filled
the appeal and mailed it to their headquarter in the city of Hanover, Germany
in that appeal I mentioned that I was unjustly persecuted by the German
police and the German government to cover
up for all their evil spies that pretended to be members
of my family and in particular members
of my household from 1959-1969,
but also that they worked closely with the concentrated evil American
military intelligence to kidnap
me from Germany to USA in 1986. I also wrote them I do not know what to expect of them because I do
not believe in justice any more. What I forgot to mention in my appeal is
that my original fake sister Afrah Najar is very possibly Mrs. Carola Moelleman-Appelhoff that was replaced later with Afrah Abokurah alias Moni Najjar
alias Mona Abokurah. It became a much
bigger note than I wanted it to be. But the main thing I did not want to go
to Germany on that day or any other day, because and from my experience the
German government and the German laws are the most sadistic laws I have ever
seen, but also I did not want to go to Germany because I was scared of being
arrested for one because I am writing what I know about some of the members
of the German government that are nothing else than piece of shit and human
trash such as Hans-Dietrich Genscher, Wolfgang Clement, Helmut Kohl and
others that not only allowed, rapping me, torturing me physically and
mentally and kidnapping me but also worked on it to protect their drug lords
terrorists own children living under fake identities in the Middle East. |
|
21.09.2009 |
8:00 |
23:45 + 04:45 |
The alarm was set on 7:00; I was too tired due to I
worked long on the garden and I got up at 8:0 o’clock. |
|
22.09.2009 |
9:10 |
23:45 |
Last night I went to bed at 23:45, but I was
prevented by ESP to go to sleep, at 1:00 o’clock in the morning I got up and
watched little bid TV for 15 minutes, then I scanned a portion of a fake
religious document that I discovered a couple of years ago and intended to
included into my complain pages. I tried hard to go to sleep early, but I was
prevented until finally I went to sleep at around 4:45 in the morning. The alarm was set originally at 6:30, then I set it
at 7:30, however I was too tired to wake up at this time and got up at around
9:10, and therewith I will be going late to school, where I have today 2
tests about the two completed chapters 15 and 16 of the Dutch language study
book. Note: Last school year 2008/2009 I was prevented to go to sleep almost every night prior to a school test, and therewith and most of the times I had only between 2-4 hours sleep for every day for 1-3 days prior to the test day. And that was most vicious and sadistic.
|
|
23.09.2009 |
9:00 |
23:30 + 2:00 |
The alarm was set for 7:30. I was very tired and I
got up at 9:00 o’clock. Note: I was tired the whole day
yesterday. Yesterday I wanted to go to bed at 22:00, but somehow I was not
able to. Since Monday, my entire body is aching and I feel very tired. I am
very disappointed that I woke up late this morning. I have many things to do
today and I lost at least two hours, actually and if I was not that tired
since Monday, I would have want to get up at the latest 6:00 o’clock in the
morning. |
|
24.09.2009 |
7:40 |
23:00 |
I went to sleep last night at 11:30, but I was
prevented to go to sleep, just like 2 days ago on 21.09.2009 as mentioned
above, each time I go to sleep I would be woken up, or forced to think about
subjects not relevant to me, at the end I started just to count numbers
started by 1 and stopped by around 300, in between I was forced to lose track
of the numbers and start at another number, then I got up, watched TV, drunk
wine, eat cheese and bread, which I really did not want to do, I just wanted
to go to sleep and wake up early because I have important things to do prior
to my Dutch learning school at around noon. It is now around 2:00 o’clock in
the morning and I will try to go to bed in around 10 minutes. Now it is 22:00 hours. I went to sleep this morning
at 2 o’clock in the morning. The alarm went on at 7:30, I got up at 7:40, however
and even though I did not have enough sleep, I was not as tired as the last
couple of days and my body was not aching any more. |
|
25.09.2009 |
7:45 |
24:45 |
The alarm was set at 7:30; I got up at 7:45. I was
waken up one time during the night but I went back to sleep, yet my sleep was
disturbed. |
|
26.09.2009 |
9:00 |
2:15 |
The alarm was turned off; I got up at 9:00 o’clock.
I slept good last night, yet my sleep timing was not that good. |
|
27.09.2009 |
9:30 |
24:15 ?? |
The alarm was set for 9:00 o’clock; I was too tired
and got up at 9:30 o’clock. I did not sleep good last night, someone
prevented me with ESP of going to sleep until around 3 o’clock, then I was
waken up sometime after that, maybe it was 4 o’clock, but I went back to
sleep after around 15 minutes. Note: All in all my sleep was largely disturbed last night as if each time
I write I had a good sleep last night, such as I wrote yesterday, then
someone would disturb my sleep the following night. This is how sadistic and
mentally sick are the persons that are manipulating my sleep, in other words
they are disturbed and all they can do is what they know, which is disturbing
my sleep. Note-2: This week I was largely busy with the newly purchased secondhand
car, then I realized that I am even more locked up than I thought, and this
due to I am prohibited to enter the country Germany, this mean and if I want
to go to any Scandinavian countries or any other European country east of the
Netherland, or countries in south of Germany, then I can’t or I have to drive
2000-3000 kilometer around Germany, for example if I want to visit Poland or
Check republic. The only countries I can go to with my car are through the
country in the south, which are Belgium or Luxemburg, then into France and
its southern neighbors. Beside I am financially broke and I can’t afford long
car journeys. I also was searching for inexpensive car tires but the least
expensive I was able to find is for 160 Euro for 4 tires, on the other side I
found 4 new tires for 96 Euro, but it is around 30 km into Germany, but I am
prohibited to enter Germany. This is how sadistic the NATO countries and in
particular Germany, USA and England that kidnapped me from Germany to USA in
1986, then kidnapped me again from USA to the Netherlands in 2001 and are
forcing me to be in this situation prohibited to enter Germany or USA and
England I am voluntarily avoiding, due to I am positive that some members of
my fake family are also members of the English royal family, but also because
officially I do not know anyone in England, except my fake sister Fadia
Nagar, that did many things to damage my life since 1959 along with her
lookalike that exchanged places with her, while pretending to be my best
friend, but friends do not lie or hide truth and facts of their friends and
most definitely would not conspire to kidnap their own friends or brother for
allegedly religious reasons. |
|
28.09.2009 |
8:15 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock, but I was too
tired and got up at 8:15. I am not certain when I went to sleep last night
but most definitely it was after midnight. I was waken up one time during the
night but I went back to sleep, however it did disturb my sleep, because I
woke up late today and I am somehow tired. |
|
29.09.2009 |
7:15 |
23:15 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock and I got up at
7:15. |
|
30.09.2009 |
7:45 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock and I got up at
7:45. |
|
01.10.2009 |
7:00 |
24:15 + 3:15 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock and I got up at
7:00. |
|
02.10.2009 |
1:30 + 10:00 |
23:15 |
I was repeatedly prevented to go to sleep, and I got
up at 1:30 in the morning. I eat cheese, bread and drank red wine and watched
TV. I went to sleep at 3:15 in the morning. The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock, but at 3:15 in
the morning I disabled the alarm and went to sleep. I woke/got up at 10:00 o’clock in the morning
disappointed that it was so late. |
|
03.10.2009 |
8:15 |
24:00 + 5:15 |
The alarm was not set. I woke up some time between 6 and 7:30, but I went back to sleep. I got up at 8:15. |
|
04.10.2009 |
11:30 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:00. Yesterday I went to bed
at midnight, but I was prevented to sleep. At 1 o’clock in the morning I got
up. I eat cheese and bread and drunken bier and watched TV until 5:15 in the
morning, disabled the alarm, then went to sleep, and there with my sleeping
routine was severely disturbed. |
|
05.10.2009 |
8:00 |
23:00? |
Yesterday I did not set the alarm. I was waken up at 3:45, went to toilette and went back to sleep. I got up at 8:00 o’clock this morning. |
|
06.10.2009 |
6:28 |
1:30 |
I am not certain when I went to bed last night. The
alarm was set at 6:30; I woke up 2 minutes earlier at 6:28. I was woken up at
2:45, went to toilette and went back to sleep. A very confusing long dream
was forced upon me last night; possibly it was 2-3 different dreams at
different times during the night. |
|
07.10.2009 |
8:10 |
10:30 |
The alarm was set at 8:00; I got up at 8:10. |
|
08.10.2009 |
5:20 |
23:45 |
The Alarm was set at 6:00 o’clock. I woke up around
5 o’clock, but I did not want to get up, because it was too dark outside and
I thought it was around 2 or 3 o’clock in the morning, then I looked and the
clock and it was 5:20 o’clock and I got up. Note: In the last 2 weeks and gradually it became much colder, yet I did
not want to turn the heater on because it is too expensive and I can’t really
afford it, Yesterday and inside my housing it was less than 16 degrees, but I
did not want to turn the heater on, so I wore long sleeve under shirt and
under pants, and on top of that a very warm sweater, training pants and
jeans, all in all I had under pants, on top of it long sleeve under pants,
and on top of them two pants, and three socks, and a home rope yet and around
6 o’clock in the evening my feet started to hurt from the cold, so I turned
the heater on and set it to 19 degrees, after 45 minutes the housing was
warm, so I turned the heater off and set it to 16 degrees. Note that I have
the heating system limited only to the living room, shower room and the
kitchen and have it all the times turned off in the hall way, bedroom and the
second floor. Why all this? Is because my energy bill from last year was too
high and brought me in a lot of trouble, which I will leave all the trouble
out that was caused to me due to this bill and dragged on from 23.12.2008 to
March/April 2009. But what is worth mentioning is how much I had to pay: 1. Note: Energy bill is combined for
Gas and Electricity from one company called Essent, whereby the electric part
of the bill is between 10-20 % and gas is between 80-90%, which is used for
hot water, heating and the stove/cooking 2. From around March 2008 to around July 2008 I was paying 75 Euro every
month 3. Then they raised the monthly payment in around August 2008 to October
2008 to 90 Euro a month 4. Then they raised the monthly payment in around November 2008 to around
240 Euro per month and if I had paid so much every month, then I would not
have any money for food, so I protested and asked the organization Stichting
Welzijn to help me with that (an organization that supposed to help
refugee integrate within Netherland), but they did not do much to save me
all the agonies caused by the energy company Essent from December 2008 to
march/April 2009, In January and after many complains they lowered the
monthly payment to 125 Euro and then I went to my account at Essent over the
Internet and lowered it myself to the least what they allowed which was 113
Euro every month from February 2009 and until current in October 2009 5. In December the energy company Essent made a so called year closing
energy usage calculation for my housing and wanted me to pay an additional
600 Euro for gas and Electricity consumption in 2008, I paid around 200 Euro
but I was not able to pay the rest and sometime in April they agreed to split
them to 40 Euro payment every month until September 2009, this mean I was
paying 113 Euro every month advance payment plus 40 Euro every month back
payment for 2008 until the last 40 Euro payment in September 2009, this mean
I was paying every month 153 Euro for gas and electricity, whereby I have a
very low (below average) consumption of energy everywhere, except with the
heating 6. Last week I received a letter of the energy company Essent that I
should give my gas and electricity meter stand via the internet, telephone or
per mail, so I did it via Internet, and their pre calculation program wanted
me to raise my monthly payment from 113 Euro monthly to around 330 Euro
monthly, but I do not have the money. After paying all the bills I have
roughly around 150 Euro left for food and other living expenses, so I ignored
the computerized monthly payment suggestion and decided to try as hard as I
can to lower my heating need, which it hurt physically as mentioned above What I do not understand is that I live in the state
of Groningen and it is possibly that the state Groningen is the richest state
in Europe because they have a lot of Natural gas within the state and my
total last year bill from mid March 2008 (when I physically moved in to
this housing) to December 2008 was 1020.00 Euro = 107.40 Euro per month,
yet I am paying much more, beside the Gas pricing and at least in the state I
am living in should be the most half of the current price due to they have a
lot of gas as natural resources, enough for exporting it. This is one of many
bad conditions I have to live under or live with or live by. |
|
09.10.2009 |
7:20 |
23:00 + 24:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock, I was little bit
tired and got up at 7:20. |
|
10.10.2009 |
7:40 |
2:45 + 6:35 |
Last night I fell to sleep at around 23:00 o’clock
on my computer chair watching TV, I woke up at 23:50 o’clock and then went to
sleep at 24:00 hours. The alarm was set at 7 o’clock, somehow I was tired and
I got up at 7:40. Note-1: Today is my official birthday 10.10.1952, but my age was falsified
in 1959, I am guessing that I was born on or shortly after 1946. My fake and
biological family created two fake birthdays for me one on 17.10.1952 and
allegedly they had to change it to 10.10.1952 enable to place me in school in
1958 and not have to wait for one year until I reach my 6th
birthday in 1959, but I was not in school until around April 1960, with the
exception that they placed me for one day in school sometime between summer
1959 and December 1959 to deceive my memory. In other words and with these
two fake birthdays my mind would then be then locked to only one of these two
fake birth dates, and therewith I would not suspect other falsifications of
my age. Today I am officially 57 years old, but in reality I am 63 years old
and this is how these mother fuckers steal the lives of their own children
and their own relatives, who are these mother fuckers? They are the Windsor, Rockefeller, Bush, Kennedy, Baroudi, Khayat, Abokurah, Bdeir, Naggar, Nagar, Najjar, Najar (=me Najar-2) and other mentally sick piece of human trash
organized crime families that builds my fake and biological families. Note-2: Today I heard a joke on the radio that sounds funny, but in reality
it is very sad, at least for me. This is the joke: What is the
difference between capitalism and socialism/communism? The difference is, by
capitalism human steal and suppress other human and by socialism/communism it
is vice versa=the other way around. |
|
11.10.2009 |
6:30 + 9:50 |
24:00 |
I disabled the alarm before I went to bed. I woke up
at 6:30, but I was tired and went back to sleep. Note: Yesterday I went to bed much later than I really wanted, then I
wanted to get up as I slept out, but I was woken up at 6:30, may be as a part
of making fun of me because I wrote last 2 weeks that I often wanted in the
past to go to church but often I was prevented by preventing me to go to
sleep early on Saturday so that I always wake up too late on Sunday for the
church service, then last Saturday 3.10.2009, I was prevented to go to
sleep early until after 5 o’clock in the morning and this Sunday I was waken
up too early even though I went to bed late last night or this morning. Why
did I go late to bed last night? I was helping another refugee that is also
learning Dutch in the same school as me and lives around 500 meter of my
housing, he had some problems with his computer printer and it turned out he
had also other problems with his computer settings that I also helped fix
them from around 15:00 to 20:00 o’clock, and this time was missing in my
daily routines that I had somewhat to catch up on. |
|
12.10.2009 |
9:10 |
22:30 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock, but somehow I did
not get up and went back to sleep until 9:10, then I got up. |
|
13.10.2009 |
4:45 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at 5:00 o’clock; I woke up at
4:45. I woke up so early enable to make my Dutch school home work, which is
to write a food recipe and make the actual food and take it with me to school
enable the students can taste the food and if they like it then they can take
a copy of the recipe. I made potato salad with sides of figs and grapes. |
|
14.10.2009 |
7:50 |
23:15 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock, but I woke and
got up at 7:50 due to someone was working on my bed room window as a part of
cleaning it after installing a new isolation glass. |
|
15.10.2009 |
5:55 + 8:400 |
4:50 |
The alarm was set at 6:00 o’clock, I woke up
sometimes around 4 o’clock but I went back to sleep, then I woke up again at
5:55 with a big urge to go to toilette. I was somehow very tired and went
back to sleep at 6:o’clock. Finally I got up at 8:40. All in all I was waken
up twice, or my sleep was twice disturbed by ESP. |
|
16.10.2009 |
6:30 + 9:55 |
23:30 |
The alarm was set at 10:00 o’clock; I woke up 6:30
o’clock and had a big urge to go to toilette, which is ESP, pressure on my
bladder. I went to toilette and then back to sleep. I woke up 9:55, 5 minutes
before my alarm went on and I got up 2 minutes later which is also an ESP
pattern in waking me up a few minutes before my alarm o’clock goes on, which
is visible in all the above mentioned wake up timing mentioned above. Note: Yesterday I went to sleep late because I was trying to solve a
problem, which is, one of my school teachers asked me to copy for her a Dutch
language training DVD that she was not able to copy. The problem was that the
movie clips on that DVD was 6.5 GB (=Giga Byte) but a new empty DVD is only
4.5 GB and therefore the software program was not able to copy the DVD, I
tried to divide the DVD into 2 DVSs, but it did not work, actually the first
copied part of the DVD was working but the second part copied of the DVD was
not working. Since I had to try that a lot I used re-writable DVD, (DVD-W)
and not the regular recordable DVD (DVD-R) enable to save on DVDs and not
waste them trying and then have to through them away. At the end I figured it
out, which is I had to re-code the DVD while copying it and then it worked
and I was able to make one successful copy of the 6.5 GB DVD into a 4.5 GB
DVD, and after I successfully tested the result I went to sleep at 4:50
o’clock in the morning. Another problem of this copy is that I am using the
new operating system “Windows 7” and I don’t have suitable DVD software for
this operating system, so I had to reboot into my older operating system
“Windows XP” and use Nero DVD program , but here also it did not work
successfully, it did make a copy but the sound was not on it, then I
downloaded the updates of Nero program and tried it again, then it worked and
all this took a round 7 hours to figure out how to make this DVD copy,
because each copy process needs around 30-60 minutes. The good side of all
this is that I was able to save around 7 DVD-Rs |
|
17.10.2009 |
8:00 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock, I got up at 7:58
o’clock, I was waken up twice during the night but I went back to sleep
within minutes. One time minutes after I fell to sleep and another time
sometimes between 1 and 4 o’clock in the morning. |
|
18.10.2009 |
8:00 |
02:45 |
The alarm went on and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
19.10.2009 |
10:20 |
3:00 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock. I was waken up at
6:50 in the morning, but I was too tired and went back to sleep. I got up at
10:20. Note: Last night I had problem with my computer and I was trying to locate
it. Today I found out that one of my external hard disks case allegedly
damaged and need to be replaced, and the warranty of Toshiba would replace
it, but I would lose all my data, I do not have data on it, but rather and
mainly Microsoft programs that I can’t replace due to I have no money. They
are the programs that I downloaded during my trial membership with Microsoft
‘TechNet Plus”. The technical support suggested that I either should remove
the hard disk myself to another case, and here I would lose the warranty, or
mail the hard disk to Toshiba Netherland and they would replace it with a new
one but I would lose all my data, and both solutions are sucks (=American for
no good). |
|
20.10.2009 |
9:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock, but I got up at
8:59, even though I was tired. Note: This week from Monday until Friday there is no school. It is autumn
vacation. Since Sunday evening I am trying to fix the computer, three hard
disks out of 4, were corrupted or damaged and I do not know why. Te result is
I had to reinstall one operating system, and I will reinstall the other. I
have a multi boot system, one with Windows XP Pro and the other with Windows
7 Ultimate. I was able to fix two hard disks by using Microsoft operating
system software. The third hard disk, a Toshiba USB external 1 Tera Byte (=1,000,000,000,000
bytes) that I bought new7-8 months ago, with a special discount,
allegedly has a bad case that is possible caused through electrical surge and
is not fixed, see yesterday’s note for detail. Luckily I have some of the
important software on DVDs such as some operating systems and Microsoft
Office, but over 90% of all the software I had is on this Toshiba hard disk.
I must develop a way to avoid lose of mass data, I know how, but I can’t
afford it at the moment, I would need around 200-300 Euro, which I do not
have due to in the last 4 weeks I spent all my savings, around 900, on the
new car, including car maintenance, parts, gas, insurance, tax, auto mobile
club etc. |
|
21.10.2009 |
9:10 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock, but somehow I did
not get up until around 9:10. I was woken up two times in night time, I do
not remember when it was. I had an appointment at 11:00 o’clock; luckily I
made it on time. |
|
22.10.2009 |
8:00 |
23:30 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 and I got up at 8:00
o’clock. |
|
23.10.2009 |
7:00 |
23:45 + 3:15 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock and I got up then. |
|
24.10.2009 |
1:00 + 10:30 |
1:20 (old time) |
Last night I went to sleep at 23:45, but I was
prevented to go to sleep and each time I fall to sleep I was being
continuously waked up until 1:00 o’clock I gave up and got up, watched a
little TV, drunk a couple of glasses wine, eat cheese and bread and then went
to sleep at 3:15. Before I went to sleep the second time I turned off the alarm, and got up at 10:30 in the morning and based on the daylight savings starting tomorrow I got up at 9:30 and in both cases I woke up late, too late for my want or for my taste. Now at 11:20 and I am tired. |
|
25.10.2009 |
7:00 (8:00 old time) |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock; I woke up at 7:00
o’clock. I was woken up once during the night, but I went right back to
sleep. Yesterday I set all my clocks to the new timing (daylight savings). |
|
26.10.2009 |
8:20 |
23:15 |
I was woken up twice last night by pressuring my
bladder, but I ignored it and went back to sleep, yet my sleep was disturbed. The alarm was set at 7:00, o’clock, but I was tired
and got up at 8:20. |
|
27.10.2009 |
6:10 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at 6:00 o’clock; I got up at 6:10.
I was a little tired. |
|
28.10.2009 |
6:10 |
2:15 |
The alarm was set at 7:30 o’clock; I got up at 8:00. I was very tired. |
|
29.10.2009 |
8:50 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at 8:30, but I was too tired and
got up at 8:50. Note: Yesterday I was fixing my computer, one of the hard disks was
corrupted, and I had to copy all files, check the disk for bad sectors,
reformat it and copy the files back, and since it is USB disk and the data
were over 120 GB it took very long time and I was done at around 2:00 o’clock
in the morning. This is the third time I had this problem this month, and
this due to the electricity would be interrupted for a second or so, and my electric
surge protector does not help in this case, the only thing that can help is a
backup power supply, but I can’t afford one at the moment, the cheapest is
around 100, Euro, and the one I really like to buy cost around 400 Euro a so
called smart UPS (Uninterruptable Power Supply) of the company APC,
where I have a very good experience with the stability and quality of their
products, beside I used to be, among others APC certified, and was illegible
for a large discount. |
|
30.10.2009 |
7:50 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock, but I was too
tired and got up at 7:50. |
|
31.10.2009 |
7:55 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock, I woke up at
7:55, just a few minutes before the alarm, this mean I was woken up by ESP,
because I was very tired due to I had lesser sleep in the last a few days. |
|
01.11.2009 |
7:40 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at 7:009 o’clock, but I was too
tired and got up at 7:40. Last night I was not able to go to sleep easily, I
was prevented to go to sleep for around one hour, by waking me up after I
fall to sleep. |
|
02.11.2009 |
7:10 |
23:15 + 3:30 |
The alarm went on at 7:00, but I got up at 7:10.
Actually I wanted yesterday to set the alarm at 6:00 o’clock, but I was
tired, and I am still tired. Most probably I need a few days of more than 8
hours sleep to not be tired. |
|
03.11.2009 |
1:45 + 8:05 |
22:00 |
1.
Last night I set the alarm to wake me up at 6:30
o’clock and went to bed at 23:15, but I was prevented to go to sleep, each
time I fall to sleep I was waken up with ESP. At 1:45 in the morning I gave
up and got up, worked a little bit on the computer and looked over the
internet for help in learning the Latin alphabets for a school colleague that
has difficulties to read but he speaks ok Dutch, and this because his native
language is something similar to Hindi language that is used in Sri Lanka.
Then I went to sleep past 3:30 in the morning 2.
This morning around 3:30 I set the alarm at 7:00
o‘clock, but I was not able to wake up I was too tired, and somehow I got up
at 8:05 o’clock, I had no time for breakfast, shower or any other activity
that I usually perform in the morning. All in all I was prevented to go to sleep by sick
persons with ESP, but why? Often there is no known explanation for the
behavior of mentally sick persons; except that they are sick and that their
behavior heavily and very negatively affects other persons such is in my
case. When I try to stay objective and try to see what
difference was there this week or today comparing to other time period then I
would find the answer on my own behavior that let these sick persons disturb
my sleep very negatively, so that I was very tired the whole day, but also I
lacked full concentration. Nevertheless, and no matter what, nothing excuses
there sick behavior, because I did not do anything bad, I did not torture any
one, I did not lie, I did not steal or any other thing, and this totally the
opposite of these persons with ESP that perform all these negative and
destructive behaviors, and this in an alleged country of freedom, but from my
point of view it is freedom for criminal and suppression of honest people. In general, these criminals like to confuse the life
out of their victim, and make him/her unsure of him/her self as if he/she did
a mistake and they punishing him/her for it, but it is not true, they were
just raised like that by their mentally sick parents, like to play God and
torture others and manipulate their lives negatively and to their own
advantages, in my case just to force my life to be stuck in nowhere. |
|
04.11.2009 |
7:30 |
22:45 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock but I was tired
and I got up at 7:30. |
|
05.11.2009 |
7:00 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at 7:00 o’clock but I was tired
and I got up at 8:20. |
|
06.11.2009 |
9:30 |
23:00 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock but I was too
tired and got up at 9:30, which is not good. |
|
07.11.2009 |
8:45 |
24:45 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock but I was too
tired and got up at 8:45, which is not good. |
|
08.11.2009 |
8:20 |
1:00 + 4:30 |
The alarm was set at 7:30, I woke up at 8:20, I
wanted really to go to the church, but I did not make it. Note-1: Since 2 months I am having a lot of problems with the consistency of
the electricity, in other words the electricity it is being interrupted for a
second or so, which is causing my computer to restart, and this is very bad
for the computer it could damage among others the hard disks, which it did
damage the my hard disks 3 times so far in the last 2 months, and I was able
to fix 3 of them, but the fourth one I can’t afford to fix it at the moment,
it need at least 25 Euro for a new case. I am concentrating on a backup power
supply, and I am trying to buy a used one that has inexpensive battery in
case I have to buy a new one. A battery of an average backup power supplies
can cost between 35 to 250 Euros, so I can only afford the smallest. Note-2: Yesterday I went to a small business exhibition in the city of Groningen, it is for small businesses, how to start a small business, maintain it and all other necessary rules and obligations. It was informative and useful for me; I got a very good idea what do I have to do to start a business in Netherland, for one that I need much more information, which it could take 4 weeks if I do it as full time job and 6-12 months if I do it on the side. This seminar was arranged by an organization called “Kamer Van koophandel” it is equivalent to “Chamber of Commerce“ and the “Small Business Administration” in USA. My guess it was mainly sponsored by, some government agencies and medium to large businesses that offer services also to small business, such as government agencies that pay unemployment, business insurance companies, accounting companies, business consulting companies, banks for business loans, city halls and others. All in all I found it much better organized than the seminars that was organized by the “Small business Administration” in Houston, Texas, USA, possibly due to Netherland is small country compared to USA and they strongly depend on foreign businesses and therefore they want as much of their population as possible to be in business enable to compete with large industrial and trade countries such as USA, UK, France, Germany, Japan and so on, which it seem to be successful because they have a better average living standard than these countries and Netherland is an International Industry and trade country, yet something seems to be missing and I can’t pin point it at the moment. Any way it was my first experience or exposure with Dutch business since I was forced to live in the Netherland in 2001. I will try to make use of all the information, or some of it, that I gained yesterday. They had several closed seminars about 10 various subjects, I attended 3 of them and one of these 3 seminars I did not find to has been very good, it was about Advertisement and Marketing, but it was little information about advertisements and marketing and more sort of a general motivational seminar. Each seminar was 45 minutes |
|
Mo 09.11.2009 |
1:45 + 9:20 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at 10:00 and even though I was
very tired, somehow I woke up earlier than the alarm at 9:20. Note: Last night I wanted to go to sleep early around 9:00 o’clock, but somehow I was prevented and as I finally went to bed at 1:00 o’clock in the morning I was also prevented to go to sleep, 30-45 minutes later I gave up and got up and worked on the Internet looking as some photographs that were very familiar to me. Finally at 4:30 in the morning I went to sleep. |
|
Tu 10.11.2009 |
6:50 |
22:30 |
The alarm went on at 6:30, but I was too tired to
get up and I got up at 6:50. |
|
We 11.11.2009 |
6:45 |
24:30 |
The alarm went on at 6:30, but I was somehow tired
and I got up at 6:45. |
|
Th 12.11.2009 |
6:45 |
22:30 + 3:00 |
The alarm went on at 7:30, but I was somehow very
tired and I got up at 8:45. |
|
Fr 13.11.2009 |
1:50+9:50 |
24:15 + 2:45 |
The Alarm was set at 7:30. I went to sleep at 22:30,
but I was prevented to sleep for more than one hour, then I went to sleep,
but I was waken up 2-3 times, then a 1:50 I got up, worked on the computer
until 3 o’clock in the morning and went back to sleep. I was too tired to get
up at 7:30 I got up much later at 9:50. Note-1: Yesterday I was very tired, and was cold the whole day, even though
yesterday was much warmer than the previous days. When I went to sleep the
first time at 22:30 I was so cold that I was shivering all over my body. Also
I have some pain in my head since around 5 days that I do not know why. All
in all yesterday I was sadistically and viciously tortured through unknown
mentally sick mother fucker by using his/her ESP capability. Note-2: All in all this week was very tortures for me through sadistically
torturing me with my sleep. The last 2 weeks seemed to be the reason for this
week sadistic torture of my sleep my guess because the following: 1. The last 2 weeks I was trying to go constantly to church 2. The last 2 weeks I am trying hard to build a foundation for future
business and work, among others by attending last Saturday the business
exhibition arranged by the Dutch Chamber of Commerce 3. Since 2 weeks I am trying hard to see if I can get any financial help
in getting education to update my computer knowledge (it is at least 9 years
outdated) through the city hall, but so far I can’t get through to the right
person 4. I am trying hard to improve my Dutch language capabilities among
others by studying steadily and I also have a so called Dutch language mentor
that meet with me once a week for 2 hours and we just do Dutch language speak
and listing practices, and this started also 2 weeks ago 5. I received the respond of the German police in Hanover for my filled
complained on 11.09.2009, 2 months later on 10.11.2009 saying that it is not
their responsibilities but rather it is the responsibilities of the
government of the state of Bavaria, Germany. And exactly this shows one of
their absolutely sick behavior in that every one push the responsibility to
the another, and no one is doing anything about the actual mother fuckers my
fake family that are terrorist and drug lords in Germany, USA, England and
other countries, and this because many of them are simultaneously members of
these governments. Therefore and all in all the above 4 points shows
that I was making some connections to outside of my locked up world but also
I am trying to get free of the slavery of social help, and apparently these
sick mother fuckers who are disturbing my sleep want to prevent me to perform
these tasks among others with the following results: 1. Last 2 Sundays I wanted to go to church but I woke up late 2. Last Saturday I wanted to go to the exhibition of the chamber of
commerce but I woke up late and went 2.5 hours later and therewith missed
among others at least one seminar 3. But also today, I wake up at almost 10 o’clock in the morning even
though I went to bed at 22:30 last night and wanted to perform many things
today, as a result of me waking up late, I got up somehow disappointed and
lacked motivation due to I can’t plan anything. And I can only blame theses
mother fuckers NATO intelligence and in particular the government of
Netherland where I am a refugee under their protection, and since I have no
protection in Netherland, this mean the Dutch government is persecuting me
most probably by using decoys of other nations. 4. But also I live directly on the German border and the German
government is one of the most sadistic governments along with USA and
England, at least in my life and due to what they did to me these mother
fuckers. Since 1970 and I am complaining about it with absolute no results. I really do not see
any different between ex-president(s) Bush and t current governments in USA,
Germany or England, in matter of fact I absolutely do not see a different
between them and the evil North Korean, Iranian, Syrian, Saudi Arabian,
Egyptian, Jordanian and Israeli governments. They all have at least two
things in common: 1. They all live by enslaving the others 2. And many of them have immediate relatives in the opposite governments
and that is con family business governments in all these countries, but also
in Netherland |
|
Sa 14.11.2009 |
2:45 + 9:45 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set
at 8:00, but I was too tired and got up at 9:45. Last night I was prevented
to go to sleep until around 1:30, then I was waken up at 2:45, but I went
back to sleep within 10 minutes. |
|
Su 15.11.2009 |
9:15 |
3:15 |
The alarm was off
because I was too tired. And my sleep habits in going early to bed and waking
up early in the morning are totally disturbed. |
|
Mo 16.11.2009 |
9:45 |
24:15 + 3:30 |
The alarm was set
at 9:30, I got up at 9:45 and I am very tired due to the severe missed up
sleep timing of the past a few days. |
|
Tu 17.11.2009 |
1:50 + 6:30 |
1:15 |
Note: Now it is 3:21 in the morning, was tired the whole
day and I tried to go to sleep at 24:15 but I was prevented by ESP to go to
sleep, so I get up at 1:50, worked little on the computer, eat a sandwich and
watched TV. I have school soon and I must leave home to school at 8:00 in the
morning, so now I will try again to go to sleep in a few minutes at 3:30 in
the morning. The alarm was set
at 6:30, and I woke up as the alarm went on, I stopped it and was too tired
and tried to go back to sleep, but somehow after 1-2 minutes I got up very
tired and somehow disoriented. This morning as I went to sleep the second
time at 3:30 I was for a while prevented to go to sleep may be for around
20-30 minutes, then I was waken up 1-2 times after that, and some stupid
dreams were forced upon me, whereby I can’t remember much of them. All in all
that was a very sadistic and vicious torture of my sleep by preventing me to
have a good rest for may days. |
|
We 18.11.2009 |
10:30 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set
at 9:30, but I was too tired and was not able to get up until 10:30. |
|
Th 19.11.2009 |
9:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set
at 8:30, but I was too tired and was not able to get up until 9:00. |
|
Fr 20.11.2009 |
9:45 |
2:15 |
The alarm was set
at 8:30, but I was too tired and was not able to get up until 9:45. I was
woken up at 5:45, which badly disturbed my sleep. Even though I got up at
9:45 and all in all I had 9:15 hours sleep, yet I feel very tired. |
|
Sa 21.11.2009 |
8:30 |
2:45 |
The alarm was set
at 8:30 and I got up at 8:30. As I went to sleep last night I was woken up
around 30 minutes after I went to sleep, and I was cold, yet I knew that my
bed room temperature is warmer than the last a few days so I ignored this cold
feeling and went back to sleep. All in all I was waken up around 3 times
after I went to sleep. Note: Last night at 22:30 I received an invitation from
Microsoft to be a beta tester for “Microsoft Office Starter 2010”, I accepted
the invitation and was mainly busy from 22:30 and until 2: o’clock in morning
in getting familiar with the testing environment, downloading the files,
installing them and try them out for an hour or so. All in all the difference
to Office 2007 is not as great as the difference between office 2007 and
office 2003, yet I notice a couple of major functional changes or additions. |
|
Su 22.11.2009 |
11:00 |
2:30 |
I was woken up some
times between 4 and 6 o’clock in the morning. The alarm was set at 9:00
O’clock, but I was not able to get up until 11:00 o’clock. I woke up with bad
feeling about getting up so late. |
|
Mo 23.11.2009 |
8:55 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set
at 8:00 o’clock, but I was not able to get up due to I was too tired and I
got up at 8:55. Last night I wanted to go to bed early around 22:00-23:00
hours bit I was not able to. |
|
Tu 24.11.2009 |
6:15 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set
at 6:00, but I was tired and got up at 6:15. |
|
We 25.11.2009 |
6:00 |
24:45 |
The alarm went on
at 6:00 and I got up at 6:00. |
|
Th 26.11.2009 |
9:50 |
3:40 |
The alarm was set
at 8:00 o’clock, but I got up at 9:50. I was waken up at 5:45, but I went
back to sleep, however it disturbed my sleep so that I was too tired to get
up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Fr 27.11.2009 |
10:00 |
3:00 |
The alarm went on and I got up at 10:00 o’clock. Note: Yesterday I added friends at Facebook and last night around 23:00
o’clock I looked at the new added so called friends in Facebook and looked at
their fiends and their friends and so on and suddenly it was 3:30 in the
morning. Now I know how some people get lost, time wise, on the Internet.
Everything on the internet has a branch and each branch has its branch and so
on, and when I would be looking for a certain thing, often it is possible
to forgot the original thing and be busy in one of this branches that
is often far of the original goal which is search for a certain thing.
Actually I discovered that in mid 1995/1996 and ever since I limited my Internet
access to only professional computer use, because it was and still it is
difficult for me to set a limit on how far or when I gone too far or that I
am side tracked of my original search goal. |
|
Sa 28.11.2009 |
10:20 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set at 8: o’clock but I was too tired and I got up at 10:20. Last night I wanted to go to bed around 12 o’clock, but somehow I was not able to make it. So my sleeping habit is still severely disturbed. |
|
Su 29.11.2009 |
8:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:00. |
|
Mo 30.11.2009 |
7:00 |
23:50+2:30 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:00. |
|
Tu 01.12.2009 |
1:30+7:00 |
23:45 |
Note: Last night I wanted to go to bed
at around 22:30, but I was not able to, then and finally I went to bed at
11:50, but I was woken up around 1:00 o’clock in the morning, I tried to go
back to sleep but I was prevented. At 1:30 I got up, I eat cheese with bread
and drank one bier and now it is 2:00 o’clock in the morning. I will go to
bed at 2:30 and try to wake up at 7:00 o’clock. The alarm was set at
6:00 o’clock and later changed it to 7:00 o’clock. I got up 7:05, somewhat
tired. I have little time before I leave to school. |
|
We 02.12.2009 |
8:20 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 8:20 because I was too tired. |
|
Th 03.12.2009 |
8:20 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, but I went back to sleep and got up at 8:20! |
|
Fr 04.12.2009 |
8:20 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, but I went back to sleep and got up at 8:20! I was woken up at
3:45 but I was able to go back to sleep 5 minutes later. |
|
Sa 05.12.2009 |
9:10 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, but I went back to sleep and got up at 9:10! |
|
Su 06.12.2009 |
8:05 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:05! I was woken up at least twice last night
but I was able to go back to sleep after 5 minutes or so. |
|
Mo 07.12.2009 |
7:00 |
24:10 + 2:00 |
The alarm went on at
7:00 o’clock but I was too tired and got up at 8:20. Note: I am always tired and have
breathing problem, but it is not from smoking, mainly it is from lack of the
much needed continuous good sleep, which means every day between 7-8 hours
sleep. It is one of my major problems that distracting me of many things in
life by force of the evil persons that are persecuting me with ESP and no one
is helping. |
|
Tu 08.12.2009 |
6:00/7:10 |
1:30 |
The alarm went on at
7:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:10 o’clock. Note: Last night I was prevent to go
to sleep at 1:00 o’clock I got up and watched little TV, then I went to sleep
at 1:30. |
|
We 09.12.2009 |
8:50 |
23:45 |
The alarm went on at
7:30 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 8:50 o’clock. |
|
Th 10.12.2009 |
9:00 |
1:45 |
The alarm went on at
8:00 o’clock but I got up at 9:00 o’clock. I was woken up 2-3 times during
the night time, therefore I am tired due to I did not have continuous sleep. |
|
Fr 11.12.2009 |
7:30 |
2:30 |
The alarm went on at
7:30 o’clock and I got up at 7:30 o’clock. I was prevented to fall to
sleep for 90-120 minutes, I just laid in bed and tried hard to go to sleep
until finally I fill to sleep around 3:00 or 3:30 in the morning. So I woke
up very tired due to I had only 4-4.5 hours sleep and this for a few days |
|
Sa 12.12.2009 |
11:30 |
2:30 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock. I woke up at 9:00 o’clock, and went back to sleep, then I woke
up at 10:00 (alarm) and went back to sleep. |
|
Su 13.12.2009 |
7:45 |
22:45 |
The alarm went on at
7:30 but I went back to sleep and got up at 7:45. Then I went to church. I
think this is the third or fourth time I go to the church sequentially. |
|
Mo 14.12.2009 |
7:45 |
2:00 |
The alarm went on at
7:00 but somehow I was tired and went back to sleep and got up at 7:25
o’clock. |
|
Tu 15.12.2009 |
6:30 |
22:00?? |
The alarm went on at
6:00 but I got up at 5:45. Note: Today I deleted najar.t35.com,
najar.net78.net,
SkyDrive and MySpace at Microsoft |
|
We 16.12.2009 |
6:30 |
23:00?? |
The alarm went on at
6:30 and I got up at 7:15. |
|
Th 17.12.2009 |
6:00 |
22:30?? |
The alarm went on at
6:00 and I got up at 6:00. |
|
Fr 18.12.2009 |
6:00 |
22:00 |
The alarm went on at
6:00 at I got up at 6:00. |
|
Sa 19.12.2009 |
8:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm went on at
8:00 and I got up at 8:05. |
|
So 20.12.2009 |
7:30 |
1:20 |
The alarm was set at
7:30 and I got up at 7:30. |
|
Mo 21.12.2009 |
7:25 |
23:0 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 but I got up at 7:25. |
|
Today is Tu 22.12.2009 |
8:25 |
2:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 but I got up at 8:25. |
|
We 23.12.2009 |
8:15 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 but I got up at 8:15. |
|
Th 24.12.2009 |
9:00 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 but I got up at 9:00. |
|
Fr 25.12.2009 |
10:00 |
2:00 |
The alarm was NOT
set; I got up at 10:00. |
|
Sa 26.12.2009 |
9:15 |
3:15 |
The alarm was not
set; I got up at 5:45 and went back to sleep and got up at 9:15. |
|
Su 27.12.2009 |
5:45 |
4:30 |
I set the alarm at 9:00 o’clock, but I was prevented to go to sleep, and was waken up each time I fall to sleep. Then I gave up and got up at 5:45. |
|
Mo 28.12.2009 |
13:05 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock but I was too tired and got up at 13:05. Note: Yesterday I started to restore
my web site (this website) and it takes long time to restore due to it
has over 4000 documents and I can’t upload all the files all at once,
otherwise the FTP connection to my web is disconnected each time I upload
more than a few hundred, but also my website it becomes inaccessible to
others for a while, some time for a few hours, so have to upload only a
certain amount at a time and wait for a while and upload the next lot. Which
it takes 2-3 days to upload the entire website content. |
|
Tu 29.12.2009 |
8:10 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:10. |
|
We 30.12.2009 |
9:45 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock, but I got up at 9:45. Note: I had a problem paying the end
of year bill of the gas and electric company Essent, which was around 360
Euro. I called them and asked them to pay in installment, but they refused to
give me an arrangement that I can afford, they wanted me to pay it in 4
months installments. Then I wrote a letter last week to the headquarter
complaining about that. Today I received their answer where they offering me
7 monthly payments of each 40 Euro and the eights payment of 76.30, and that
I can afford. So I wrote them back thanking them and telling them that I
accept their offer. I tried hard to save energy comparing to last year usage.
I started saving in around June 2009 and it worked I had all in all over one
100 Euro savings for only July to November, this mean and if I would have
started last November or December 2008 I would have saved around 250 Euro for
the entire year. Today and since I was able to save so much, I think I can
save more. In general by never setting the heating for more than 19 degrees,
last year and many times I set it for up to 22 degrees. Also and when I live
the house usually I set it to 13 degrees, but this is not good, because then
it takes me much longer to heated back to 19 degrees, so I am setting it to
16 degrees when I leave the house for a few hours. So all in all and since
the called started in around October 2009 I always set the heating between 16
and 19 degrees, in comparison with last year I set it between 19 and 22
degrees and a few times even higher. The most I use is gas for heating and
hot water, and I am paying now 119 Euro per month, but I want to reduce my
usage to under 90 Euro average per month, especially that now I need more
electricity for my computer due to I am refreshing my computer knowledge and
use a lot of electricity for that. All the above are my
thoughts to this issue and writing those issues helps me concentrate on it. |
|
Th 31.12.2009 |
9:45 |
3:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock; I got up at 9:40. Last night I was woken up at 3:45, then I
went to sleep 15 minutes later, however my sleep was disturbed already |
|
Th 31.12.2009 |
9:45 |
3:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock; I got up at 9:40. Last night I was woken up at 3:45, then I
went to sleep 15 minutes later, however my sleep was disturbed already |
|
Today is the new
year Fr 01.01.2010 |
10:00 |
2:00 |
The alarm went on at
10:00 o’clock and I got up at 10:00 o’clock |
|
Sa 02.01.2010 |
9:00 |
1:30 |
The alarm went on at
8:00 o’clock, but I was tired and I got up at 9:00 o’clock |
|
So 03.01.2010 |
9:30 |
1:20 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock, but I was not able to get up until 9:30. Note: I wanted to go
to the church today, it starts at 9:30, but I was not able to, due to waking
up late. I was somehow prevented to go to church since Christmas 24.12.2009,
this mean I was somehow prevented to go to the church on all the main events
days such as on Christmas eve, Christmas days, New years eve and new year’s
day as well as the first Sunday of the new year (today). All these mentions
events days have usually 5-10 times more church visitors than usual. Many
church members go to church only on event days. In other words, I have the
thoughts as if I was prevented to go to church possibly to not see certain
persons/people that possibly I knew from before and I have no idea that they
live in the same village as I do. |
|
Mo 04.01.2010 |
8:45 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set at
6:00 o’clock. But I was not able to get up until 8:45. Last night it took me
a while until I was able to fall to sleep, then I was waken up at 5:00
o’clock, I went back to sleep 5 minutes later, but my sleep was already
disturbed so that I got up much later than I wanted. |
|
Tu 05.01.2010 |
9:00 |
22:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:00. |
|
We 06.01.2010 |
8:00 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at
6:00 o’clock, but I was not able to get up until 8:00 o’clock. Last night I
had difficulties to fall to sleep for around one hour, I think I fell to
sleep around or after 23:30 hours. |
|
Th 07.01.2010 |
8:00 |
23:40 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:00 o’clock |
|
Fr 08.01.2010 |
7:50 |
1:20 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up earlier at 7:50 o’clock |
|
Sa 09.01.2010 |
9:20 |
5:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, but I did not hear it and I got up at 9:20. Last night I was
waken up possibly it was around 2 or 3 o’clock in the morning, I did not look
at the clock and I was able to go back to sleep around 5-10 minutes later. |
|
Su 10.01.2010 |
12:30 |
3:00 |
I did not set the
alarm o’clock. I was waken up at around 6:45, but I went back to sleep after
around 5 minutes and got up at 12:30. Even though I got up very late, yet I
did not have enough sleep, only 6.5 hours. Note (minor
corrections on 12.01.2010): Friday I saw two letters in my mail box, and
somehow I get scared as soon as I saw these two letters. Both were from the
German government, both of them were related to the same subject, one of them
from the district attorney in a nearby German city and the other of the
department of Justice from the city Bonn, Germany, or also called ministry of
justice. They were related to my arrest on Sunday 30 August 2009 as I was
manipulated to go to have lunch in a nearby city called Leer in Germany. For
more information see my daily log for 2009 and scroll to the dates 30 August
and 20 September of 2009. Both letters stated that they are dropping the
charges against me, and one of them mentioning due to my alleged sick mental
status {added on 12.01.2010: I misinterpreted the wordings, it stated in
German “Schuldunfaehigkeit” which means based on the dictionary not
responsible, or unsound mind (juristically) non compos mentis or in plain
English “inability of guilt”}. Why did I get scared as soon as I saw the two
letters? For several reasons, reason number one, I was brainwashed to always
be scared of governments and especially the police and this since 1965/1966
and they increased this fear during and after my kidnapping from Germany in
1986 to USA. In matter of fact and until 2006 and each time I saw a police
car I had the feeling that I had to hide or run and this started in 1985 and
continued severely in USA until 2001, because they kept me by force as an
illegal alien and forced me to think that it was my own doings and I was
always afraid to get arrested due to I was allegedly illegal alien. Second
minor reason why I get scared of these two letters is because they were
almost simultaneously to my email correspondence with my fake son Abdulhamid
Najar, whereby he
was threatening me to go to the police and get me arrested and punished
unless I take remove my complaint pages or at least only his own information
out of my complaint pages, which I will not do, however I offered him to add
his own wordings, but he ignored this offer. For more information see his emails from December 2009 to January 2010. All in all fear is a
major tool of the brainwash and slavery and I discovered that I was afraid of
so many things in my life, whereby most of them or even all of them were
absolutely forced upon me as a brainwash to among others limit my decision
capability, forcing me to be scared to go to certain areas or
countries, to mix with certain group of people such as Moslems or Jewish,
destroy my self confidence and other reasons just to keep me isolated and in
hiding and that is a very cruel and sadistic doings. |
|
Mo 11.01.2010 |
9:30 |
23:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was too tired and I got up at 9:30. |
|
Tu 12.01.2010 |
7:00 |
23:45+3:00 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:05. A little bit tired but not as much as
yesterday and the day before. |
|
We 13.01.2010 |
7:50 |
23:15 |
The alarm went on at
7:00, but I did not hear it and got up at 7:50. Last night I was waken up a
few minutes after I went to sleep, I stayed in bed but I was prevented to go
to sleep until around 3:00 o’clock in the morning. |
|
Th 14.01.2010 |
7:00 |
2:15 |
The alarm went on at
7:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and was not able to get up until 9:15. |
|
Fr 15.01.2010 |
9:45 |
3:00 |
The alarm went on at
9:00 o’clock, but I was not able to get up until 9:45. I really wanted to go
to bed around 23:00 hours, but somehow I couldn’t. Note: On Tuesday
12.01.2010, I had problem with the car. As I started the car to go to school
around 11:00 o’clock, I heard something unusual in the car, something
cracked. But I couldn’t tell why? After I picked up a school colleague of my
neighborhood and drove around 5 km, I started to smell as if something is
burning in the car and saw smoke coming out. So I stopped, but I was not able
to tell why. As soon as I stopped the smoke and smell went away. This process
repeated 3 times. By the third time I was around 8 km from my housing, and
decided to stop and call for help. A very nice mechanic from the next town
came for help and he discovered after around 10 minutes of checking that the
right-front suspension spring broke and the spring is scratching the tire,
which causing the smoke and smell, and it was very difficult to see or
discover. Any way he took my car to his garage and repaired the car by having
to replace the suspension and the damaged tire, he used secondhand parts to
keep my bill low, yet it was all in all more than I can afford, but somehow
we managed it with payment arrangement. |
|
Sa 16.01.2010 |
9:00 |
23:00 |
The alarm went on at
9:00 o’clock and I got up at 9:00 o’clock, but I was very tired. |
|
Su 17.01.2010 |
8:15 |
1:25 + 4:45 |
The alarm was set at
9:00; I got up earlier at 8:15 o’clock. |
|
Mo 18.01.2010 |
8:50 |
22:45 |
The alarm went on at 7:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and was not able to get up before 8:50. I was waken up at 4:45, but I was able to go back to sleep after 5-10 minutes. Then I was woken up again 2-3 times between 6 and 8:50. |
|
Tu 19.01.2010 |
6:25 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock. I was woken up 3 times during the night, twice with supposedly
nightmares about something scary just outside my own bed room. The third time
was at 6:25. I got up at 6:25, but not as tired as yesterday. |
|
We 20.01.2010 |
7:25 |
22:30 +2:00 |
The alarm was set at
7:30 and I woke up at 7:25 and got up at 7:30. |
|
Th 21.01.2010 |
24:00 + 7:00 + 8:00 + 10:15 |
4:00 |
It is now 1:00 after
midnight. I went to bed at 22:30, first I was prevented to go to sleep and
then and as I fallen to sleep I was woken up at around 23:45m and I got up 15
minutes later. Originally I set the alarm at 7:00 then I changed it to 8:00
o’clock. Finally I was able to fall to sleep at 2:00 o’clock after
midnight. The alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock, but somehow I did not hear it or I heard it and switched it off. I got up at 10:25. |
|
Fr 22.01.2010 |
11:00 |
3:45 |
The alarm went on at
11:00 o’clock and I got up at 11:00. Last night I was reinstalling my
computer operating system. |
|
Sa 23.01.2010 |
11:00 |
24:45 |
The alarm was not
set. I got up at 11:00. Note: The last two
nights I was busy re-adjusting my computer. It was not easy task, because
Windows Vista did not install properly and I had to take it off to not damage
my other installations. I have several operating systems installed on my
computer, such as Windows XP, Windows 7 Ultimate and Windows 7 Enterprise,
and on the other computers (small network of 3) I am using Windows Servers
2003 and soon Windows server 2008 and other Windows servers for training
purposes. I even using Office 2010 and they are all working fine now. The
Siemens computer, the smallest of them, is almost with no sound, the other
two computes, HP and NEC are very loud, probably over 90 possibly up to 110
decibels, they sounds like a factory when I turn them on, they are very old
but for my training purposes they are just perfect. Thanks to whoever sold
them to me for a very affordable price. |
|
Su 24.01.2010 |
9:30 |
1:30+6:10 |
The alarm was not set. I got up at 9:30. |
|
Mo 25.01.2010 |
3:00+9;40 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at
11:00 o’clock, but I woke up tired at 9:40. I just had 3.5 hours sleep. Last
night I was first prevented to go to sleep, then and as I finally fill to
sleep around 2:30 after midnight, then I was woken up 5 minutes later, then I
was prevented to fall back to sleep again. This is how cruel these mentally
sick people that are persecuting me with ESP. |
|
Tu 26.01.2010 |
9:00 |
1:30 |
The alarm went on at
9:00 o’clock and I got up at 9:00 o’clock. Note: As I went to
sleep last night I was prevented to fall to sleep for a while, possibly for
an hour or more, yet I stayed in bed because I was too tired and tried hard
not to think about any subject and concentrate on going to sleep. I fill to
sleep 2-3 times but then I was woken up after a few minutes. So most probably
and actually I fill finally to sleep after 2:15. This happen all most
on a daily basis, where I lose on average at least 2 hours on a daily basis
just for trying to go to sleep. These are 14 hours a week, where I can use
them to improve my life and possibly the life of others, but these mentally
sick person or persons that are haunting me with ESP are 100% preventing me
to advance in life in any way possible and this since 1959, and since I am in
the Netherlands, this mean it is the same pattern since 1959 performed by the
same group of people in several countries due to they have the same sick
interest or motives. This lack of continuous good sleep has a very negative
effect on everything in my life and it is my number one problem, it is a
daily torture I have the feeling as if some government agency is performing
all that such as military or other agency intelligence agency that are
pretending to use me to find out more about my fake family the international
organized crime family that are related to many other European and American
controlling families. Pretending is because I am in the Netherland and don’t
have contact to this criminal family since at least mid-1980s, with a few
exceptions that are mentioned within my complaint pages. All governments own
several intelligence agencies and therewith they all know much more than I do
about my organized crime fake family. Also this lack of
continuous good sleep has a big effect on my behavior. I often in my Dutch
learning school make too many jokes, in other words the more tired I am the
more jokes I make, when I am absolutely tired and lack of many days of good
sleep such as yesterday, but in reality I have absolutely nothing to be funny
about despite to be happy about. I take the life serious and try very hard to
take every one serious, because people make life and not life make people,
and lack of people in my life such as friends, family wife children, church,
work and so on is in reality lack of life and that is absolutely not funny.
It is as if I am far away of life and I am just looking at the life from far
distance but I am not allowed to mix within it or even touch it. All of the above are
some of the thoughts that are in my mind and that are the results of this
daily torture of preventing me of having a continuous good sleep. |
|
We 27.01.2010 |
10:00 |
12:30 |
The alarm went on at
8:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and I got up at 10:00 o’clock. Even though
I slept 8.5 hours, yet I am tired and have several physical problems
due to the lack of a good sleep in the last a few days, on top of that my
daily timing, routine and scheduling are totally out of sync. |
|
Th 28.01.2010 |
6:15+8:00+ 9:15 |
24:40 |
1. I was prevented for around 45-60
minutes to fall to sleep last night, even though I was very tired 2. I was woken up at 6:15 o’clock,
1.45 hour before my alarm and around 4 hours after I went to sleep which
totally disturbed my sleep and made me in more need for sleep 3. I was not able to get up as the
alarm o’clock went on at 8:00 o’clock due to I was already too tired due to
the disturbed sleep as mention above 4. All in all I had 6 hours sleep,
but due to waking up at 6:15 and as the alarm o’clock went on at 8:00
o’clock, it feels like as if I had less than 4 hours sleep. 5. I was not able to perform the
tasks that I planned to do from 9:00 to 11:00 o’clock, which is study Dutch 6. Since I have to perform my daily
routines such as showering, put my clothes on and have breakfast and now it
is 10:15, it means I have less than 45 minutes to study Dutch instead of 2 hours I am tired. |
|
Fr 29.01.2010 |
9:05 |
02:15 |
No alarm was set. I got up at 9:05. Last night there were no sleep disturbances. Slept 8 hours and 25 minutes. |
|
Sa 30.01.2010 |
9:45 |
1:00 + 4:30 |
No alarm was set. I got up at 9:45. Last night there were no sleep disturbances. Slept 7 hours and 30 minutes. |
|
Su 31.01.2010 |
2:15 + 11:20 |
1:30??? |
1. I did not set the alarm and went
to sleep the first time around 24:45. Then I was waken up a couple of minutes
after I fallen to sleep and I stayed in bed trying to go to sleep,
unfortunately unsuccessfully, then I got up at around 2:15. During this
period of time I was forced to think about my kidnapping to USA and how and
through whom or who they used, they means FBI and CIA, to
viciously, cruelly and unjustly persecute me to death. In other words I was
forced to get up and start to write about them in their profile the FBI
document with name wanted-0465.htm 2. I went to sleep for the second
time at 4:00 o’clock in the morning. I did not set the alarm. I fill to sleep
after around 5 minutes. I got up at 11:20. I was woken up 2-3 times between
4:30 and 11:20. All in all I did not have a good sleep. |
|
Mo 01.02.2010 |
9:15 |
1:30 |
I can’t exactly
remember when I went to sleep last night, I think around 1:30; however my
intention was to go to bed around 22:00 o’clock. The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, but I was not able to get up until 9:15. |
|
Tu 02.02.2010 |
9:15 |
1:30: |
The alarm was set at
8:00 but I got up at 9:15. As I woke up this morning I was so disoriented
that I read the time wrongly and thought it was 10:15 and not 9:15, even
though I looked at twice at two different clocks. First after I took a shower
and had breakfast at 9:50 I recognized it is 9:50 and not 10:50. |
|
We 03.02.2010 |
7:45 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 but I got up at 7:45. |
|
Th 04.02.2010 |
8:30 |
2:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 but I got up at 8:30. |
|
Fr 05.02.2010 |
10:20 |
4:30 |
The alarm was not set. I got up at 10:20. |
|
Sa 06.02.2010 |
10:45 |
3:30 |
The alarm was not set. I got up at 10:45. |
|
Su 07.02.2010 |
10:45 |
23:30 |
The alarm was not set. I got up at 10:45. |
|
Mo 08.02.2010 |
7:10 |
23:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at around 6:00 o’clock went back to sleep and got up
at 7:10 o’clock. |
|
Tu 09.02.2010 |
4:50 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at around 4:40 o’clock I tried to go back to sleep but
I couldn’t and I got up at 4:50 o’clock. |
|
We 10.02.2010 |
7:55 |
1:40 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at around 7:55 o’clock. |
|
Th 11.02.2010 |
8:00 |
23:45 + 2:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at around 5:00 o’clock and went right back to sleep
and got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Fr 12.02.2010 |
1:15 + 8:20 |
2:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. The first time I woke up at around 1:15 then I tried hard to go
back to sleep, then I fallen to sleep at around 2:00 o’clock and got up at
8:150 o’clock. |
|
Sa 13.02.2010 |
10:00 |
4:45 |
No alarm was set and
I got up at 10:00 o’clock |
|
Su 14.02.2010 |
11:00 |
4:00 |
No alarm was set and
I got up at 11:00 o’clock. |
|
Mo 15.02.2010 |
8:25 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set on
9:00 o’clock. I woke up at 8:25, but I was tired and got up at 8:30. |
|
Today is: Tu 16.02.2010 |
8:40 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set on
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at 8:00, but I was tired and got up at 8:40. |
|
We 17.02.2010 |
8:00 |
10:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Th 18.02.2010 |
7:40 |
1:00 |
The alarm was not
set. I got up at 7:40 o’clock. |
|
Fr 19.02.2010 |
8:45 |
3:30 |
The alarm was not
set. I woke up sometimes around 6:00 or 7:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and
went back to sleep, then I got up at 8:40 o’clock. |
|
Sa 20.02.2010 |
5:30 |
10:30 |
I was prevented
several times to go t sleep, and as I fall to sleep I would be woken up by
shacking some of my body parts, such as an arm or a leg. 5:30 I gave up and
got up. |
|
Su 21.02.2010 |
7:00+8:58 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock, first time I woke up it was may be around 7:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and went back to sleep. Then I woke and got up at around 8:58. |
|
Mo 22.02.2010 |
6:00 +7:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock. I woke up at around 6:00 or 6:30, went back to sleep and got up
at 7:00 o’clock. |
|
Tu 23.02.2010 |
7:00 + 8:00 |
23:15 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock, I woke up around 6:00 o’clock and again at around 7:00 o’clock,
and in both times I went right back to sleep and got up 8:00 o'clock. |
|
Today is: We 24.02.2010 |
6:00 + 7:00 |
1:05 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock. I woke up around 6:00 o’clock and went back to sleep. I woke up
again at 6:55 and then got up at 7:00 o’clock. |
|
Th 25.02.2010 |
5:00 + 8:30 |
23:50 |
The alarm was set at
6:00 o’clock by mistake It should have been I woke up at around 5:00 or 5:30
o’clock, and after 2 minutes went back to sleep. I think I may also woke up
at around 2:00 or 3:00 o’clock and went back to sleep. The alarm went on at
6:00 o’clock, I stopped it and went back to sleep, then I got up at 8:30. |
|
Fr 26.02.2010 |
7:00 |
1:05 |
The alarm went on at
7:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:00 o’clock. |
|
Sa 27.02.2010 |
8:30 |
24:50 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I got up at 8:30 o’clock. Since yesterday I have a little
sore throat and I don’t know why? Yesterday I had some car trouble that I
don’t know how to describe, so I get it towed to the garage. I can’t really
afford any car repair. So I am worried on what is going to happen with the
car. |
|
Su 28.02.2010 |
8:05 |
1:00 |
The alarm went on at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at 7:58 o’clock and got up at 8:05. I also woke up
twice in the middle of the night, it must have been between 2:00 and 6:00
o’clock, but and in both cases I went within a minute or so right back to
sleep. |
|
Mo 01.03.2010 |
8:20 |
23:20 |
The alarm went on at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at 8:00 o’clock, went back to sleep and got up at
8:20. Somehow I am tired; I think 7 hours sleep is not enough, I must try to
go to sleep earlier, around 23:00 o’clock. Also I still have sore throat and
it is effecting also my ears and I don’t know what is causing it, maybe I
smoked too much the last 10 days and this due to I had school spring vacation
and was mainly at home and doing other tasks during which I smoked more than
my daily average. In this spring vacation I have performed and completed more
tasks than I was able to do since a very long time such as studying Dutch and
preparing for a business by creating business website and other tasks. |
|
Tu 02.03.2010 |
7:15 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I got up at 7:15. Last night I woke up several times by hearing
a beep, and I kept on going back to sleep. This morning I found the source of
this beep, it was the answering machine, this mean that someone called my
number after midnight. |
|
We 03.03.2010 |
7:25 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I got up at 7:25. |
|
Th 04.03.2010 |
7:45 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I got up at 7:40. My sore throat is almost healed. |
|
Fr 05.03.2010 |
5:30 + 8:35 |
24:45 + 3:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I was waken up at 5:30, I was too tired, then went to toilette
and went back to sleep. At 8:00 I stopped the alarm and went back to sleep, I
finally woke up at 8:35. All in all my sleep was disturbed and I woke up
later than I wanted or than I planned. |
|
Sa 06.03.2010 |
2:30 + 9:10 |
1:25 |
All I can write is
that last night I had a very bad sleep. First I was not able to go to sleep
and then and as I went to sleep I was waken up at around 2:15, I tried to go
back to sleep and I was not able to then I got up at 2:30 watched little TV
and tried again to go back to sleep at 3:45. The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was too tired and I got up at 9:10. |
|
Su 07.03.2010 |
10:20 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at 5:30, but I went back to sleep and I did not woke
up until around 10:00 o’clock, and stayed in bed until 10:20. |
|
Mo 08.03.2010 |
8;20 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at 8:20. I was woken up around 5:30 o’clock, but I
went back to sleep. |
|
Tu 09.03.2010 |
1:30 + 7:25 |
10:45 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I was woken up at 1:30 but I was able to go back to sleep. Then I woke up at 7:15 and got up at 7:25. |
|
We 10.03.2010 |
8:20 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock, but I did not hear it and got up at 8:20. Last night I was tired so I went to sleep early at 10:45, but I was prevented to go to sleep, I fell to sleep at around 11:30 but I was woken up one minute later and prevented to go to sleep until; around until around 24:00 o’clock. So now I feel somehow tired and cold. |
|
Th 11.03.2010 |
7:45 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:45. Somehow I am tired. I was woken up at
around 3 o’clock, but I was able to go back to sleep after around 5 minutes.
Also I had a dream that was force upon me by ESP. It was about some woman
taking me for a ride by pretending to be my girlfriend or something like
that; I can’t remember all the details. |
|
Fr 12.03.2010 |
8:15 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:15. |
|
Sa 13.03.2010 |
9:00 |
3:30 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock. I woke up at 8:00 and went back to sleep until 9:00 o’clock,
then I got up. I was waken up at around 5:30, but I was able to go back to
sleep after 5 minutes. |
|
Su 14.03.2010 |
10:20 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 10:20. |
|
Mo 15.03.2010 |
9:00 |
1:30 + 4:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:00. |
|
Tu 16.03.2010 |
9:30 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
9:30 o’clock and I got up at 9:30 o’clock. |
|
We 17.03.2010 |
8:00 |
24:30 |
Last night I was
prevented to go to sleep for a while and as I went to sleep I was waken up at
around 2:30, I tried to go back to sleep again but I was prevented with ESP.
Then I got up and watched little TV and there was a documentation film on the
German TV channel about the evil, crocked drug lord and ex German foreign
minister Hans-Dietrich Genscher alias the hidden father of the German
politician Juergen Moellemann that pretended to be my fake stepfather Mohi
Sabri until 1968. In this film they were portraying Hans-Dietrich Genscher as
an honest politician and an angel, at 4:30 the whole program made me feel
sick of all the lies about him, so I stopped watching it and went to sleep.
All in all some stupid evil person(s) with ESP waked me up by force of ESP to
force me to see this film, but also to disturb my sleep and make me be tired
for a few days due to I can’t catch up on good sleep and this is a kind of
hidden physical and mental torture. All in all I am still physically very
tired due to lack of good sleep. The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up reluctantly at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Th 18.03.2010 |
8:45 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:45. |
|
Fr 19.03.2010 |
8:00 |
1:10 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:05. |
|
Sa 20.03.2010 |
8:00 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:45 o’clock. I was waken up
at around 5 o’clock in the morning, but I was able to go back to sleep after
a couple of minutes. |
|
Su 21.03.2010 |
9:00 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:00. |
|
Mo 22.03.2010 |
8:00 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock I get at 8:00. |
|
Tu 23.03.2010 |
7:15 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 7:15. |
|
We 24.03.2010 |
7:00 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock and I get at 7:00. |
|
Th 25.03.2010 |
9:50 |
3:10 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:50 o’clock. This is may be
due to that I was very busy the whole day and also performed several physical
activities. |
|
Fr 26.03.2010 |
10:10 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 10:10. (Added on
27.03.2010) On this day I was prevented for a while to fall to sleep and then
I was waken up around 5 o’clock in the morning |
|
Sa 27.03.2010 |
8:50 |
24:00 + 4:45 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock and I get up at 8:50 o’clock. I was waken up at 6:00 o’clock but
I was able to go back to sleep, however my sleep was already disturbed and
therewith it is as if I did not have enough sleep. |
|
New Summer Time |
Note: The time
changed last night at 2:00 o’clock from 2:00 o’clock winter time to 3:00
summer time. |
||
|
Su 28.03.2010 |
1:30 + 10:00 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and later I set it at 9:30 (or 10:30 new summer time). I went to
sleep at 24:00 o’clock and I was waken up 10 minutes after I went to sleep,
then was prevented to fall to sleep. At 1:30 o’clock old time (2:30 new time)
I got up and watched a little TV at 3:45 old time (4:45 new time) I went to
sleep. Note: On the TV
there was a program about circumcising women in Somalia and on how one Somali
woman was protesting in Europe about this situation and that the Europeans
are allegedly like the 3 Monkeys, one monkey is closing his ears with his
hands, the second is closing his eyes with his hands and the third is closing
his mouth with his hands, in other words that the Europeans are doing nothing
about this and even are allowing it to happen in their own countries in
Europe, and that is a crime that no one is doing anything about it, because
it does not directly involve them |
|
Mo 29.03.2010 |
9:05 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:05. |
|
Tu 30.03.2010 |
3:15 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at
6:00 o’clock. I was waken up around 24:00 hours Then I was waken up at 3:00
o’clock in the morning and I get up at 3:15. |
|
We 31.03.2010 |
7:00 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock and I get at 7:00. Note: Yesterday I
was dead tired and today I am still very tired due to the sleep disturbance
of the last a few days. |
|
Th 01.04.2010 |
8:15 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock, I was still too tired and I got up at 8:15. |
|
Fr 02.04.2010 |
8:05 |
23:00 + 2:00 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock, I was still too tired and I got up at 8:05. |
|
Sa 03.04.2010 |
9:05 |
24:00 |
Last night I went to
bed at 23:00 o’clock, but somehow I did not feel like going to sleep. After 5
minutes I got up and watched TV until 2:00 in the morning and then I went to
sleep. This morning the
alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and went back to sleep and
got up at 9:05. |
|
Su 04.04.2010 |
8:00 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:05. |
|
Mo 05.04.2010 |
7:00 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:00. |
|
Tu 06.04.2010 |
8:05 |
24:20 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:05. |
|
We 07.04.2010 |
6.55 |
23:15 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock and I got up at 6:55. |
|
Th 08.04.2010 |
6.55 |
2:15 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock and I got up at 6:55. |
|
Fr 09.04.2010 |
9.55 |
24:15 |
No alarm. I got up
at 9:55. Last night I woke up at around 3:00 or 4:00 o’clock for a couple of
minutes but I was able to go back to sleep. Last night I fell to sleep around
24:30 on my chair while watching TV. |
|
Sa 10.04.2010 |
8:58 |
2:30 + 4:45 |
No alarm. I got up
at 8:58. Last night I woke up twice at different times but I was able to go
back to sleep. One of the times I woke up and my tong was all dried up and it
felt like a heavy stone and I was not able to soften it, I had to flush my
mouth several times with water, then it became again almost normal. |
|
Su 11.04.2010 |
3:30 + 9:45 |
3:30 |
Alarm was not set
the first time I went to sleep. Then I set it at 10:00 o’clock. I Woke up at
9:45 but I was not able to get up until 10:00 o’clock. Note: Last night I
was prevented to go to sleep for around 45 minutes and then and as I fell to
sleep I was waken up and I couldn’t go back to sleep until 4:45. Also
yesterday and the day before two different dreams were forced up on me
possibly as a reminder of this web pages or they were making fun of me. I
really want to continue writing these pages and until the year 2006 and
especially what the FBI and CIA did to me in USA with the help of large and
small companies, but somehow I don’t feel like it, among others because I am
trying to concentrate on my Dutch language school and the language
examinations in the summer enable I can get the Dutch nationality, which
would then mean that I finally have a nationality and not considered as a
refugee any more after around 50 years refugee status between 10 Egypt, 17
years Germany, 15 years USA and now around 10 years Netherland. |
|
Mo 12.04.2010 |
10:15 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock but I was absolute tired and was not able to get up until 10:15. Therewith my weekend was totally missed up through these mentally sick persons that are persecuting me with ESP and disturb my sleep. I wanted to study Dutch over the weekend but I felt tired the majority of the weekend and did not feel like doing anything. I letterly dragged myself to perform a few tasks. |
|
Tu 13.04.2010 |
8:20 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I was waken up at 5:20 in the morning, but I was able to go back to sleep after a few minutes. As the alarm went on at 8:00 o’clock I was too tired and struggled to get up until 8:20. My sleep was disturbed at 5:20. |
|
We 14.04.2010 |
8:45 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I was waken up at around 5:00 in the morning, but I was able to
go back to sleep after a few minutes. I was not able to get up on time until
8:45. |
|
Th 15.04.2010 |
8:15 |
1:00 |
The alarm went on at
8:00 o’clock, but I felt the need to catch up on my lost sleep of the last a
few days and struggled to get up until I get up at 8:15. |
|
Fr 16.04.2010 |
9:00 |
24:00 + 2:00 + 6:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:00 o’clock. I am still very
tired due to the sleep disturbance of the beginning of the week. |
|
Sa 17.04.2010 |
1:00 + 5:30 + 7:55 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I was waken up three times last night, one time at 1:00 o’clock
and could not go back to sleep until 2:00 o’clock and the second time I was
waken up at 5:30 and was not able to go back to sleep until 6:00 o’clock.
Therewith I am very tired; however, I was woken up again for the third time 5
minutes before my alarm went on. |
|
Su 18.04.2010 |
9:50 |
24:50 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I got up at 9:50. I was very tired; I worked most of yesterday
in or for the garden. |
|
Mo 19.04.2010 |
7:15 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I was woken up at 7:15. |
|
Tu 20.04.2010 |
7:15 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I was woken up at 7:15. |
|
We 21.04.2010 |
8:30 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:30. |
|
Th 22.04.2010 |
7:25 |
3:10 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I heard knocking at the house door and I got up at 7:25, but
there was no knocking at the door, it was only a dream, beside I have a bell
at the door. |
|
Fr 23.04.2010 |
9:45 |
2::00 |
No alarm was set. I
was woken up at 5:45 and I was very cold, but I was able to go back to sleep
within a few minutes, then I got up at 9:45=6 hours and 35 minutes sleep. All
in all and the last a few days I was almost able to have continuous sleep but
in average less than 7 hours sleep a daily sleep. |
|
Sa 24.04.2010 |
7:45 |
1:00 |
No alarm was set. I
got up at 7:45. |
|
Su 25.04.2010 |
9:25 |
1;50 |
No alarm was set. I
woke up at 9:15 and I got up 10 minutes later at 9:25. |
|
Mo 26.04.2010 |
7.55 |
24:50 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at 7:55 and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Tu 27.04.2010 |
8:00 |
1:40 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
We 28.04.2010 |
8:00 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Th 29.04.2010 |
8:30 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I woke up at 7:45, but I was very tired so I went back to sleep
and woke up again through the alarm and went back to sleep and then I got up
at 8:30 very tired. |
|
Fr 30.04.2010 |
8:15 |
24:45 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I can’t recall hearing the alarm. I got up at 8:15 |
|
Sa 01.05.2010 |
8:00 |
3:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Su 02.05.2010 |
10:45 |
24:30 + 3:45 |
No alarm was set.
Between 16:00 and 22:00 hours I had around 2 liters of none-strong bier.
First I fell to sleep on the chair around 22:30 and woke up around 23:30, and
then I was not able to sleep until 3:15, even though I was very tired. Then I
wake up at 6:45 in the morning and went right back to sleep, and finally I
got up at 10:45. There with my day was messed up. Note: All in all and
even though I was able to have continuous sleep for the last period, yet I
was tired most of the times from lack of enough sleep. |
|
Mo 03.05.2010 |
2:00 + 9:45 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock but I got up at 9:45. Note: Last night I
was prevented to go to sleep for an hour or so and as I fell to sleep I was
woken up after around 10 minutes and then prevented to go back to sleep. At
2:00 o’clock I gave up and got up. I had two cups of wines and watched TV
until around 4 o’clock and then went to sleep. It seem that the sleep
disturbance from last night has something to do with my above written
statement from yesterday where I mentioned that even though I had continuous
sleep for a while yet and most of the times I am very tired due to having
less than 8 hours sleep on a daily basis. |
|
Tu 04.05.2010 |
8:15 |
2:00 |
The alarm was set (wrongly) at 10:00 o’clock, I meant to set it at 8:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:15. |
|
We 05.05.2010 |
9:25 |
3:00 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock. I woke up at 8:45 but I was tired and got up at 9:25. |
|
Th 06.05.2010 |
9:05 |
3:15 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock. I woke up at 9:00 but I was tired and got up at 9:05. |
|
Fr 07.05.2010 |
9:00 |
24:35 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock. I got up at 9:00 o’clock. |
|
Sa 08.05.2010 |
8:45 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, but I was not able to get up on time, in matter of fact I did
not hear the alarm and I got up at 8:45 o’clock. |
|
Su 09.05.2010 |
8:45 |
24:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I got up at 8:45 o’clock. |
|
Mo 10.05.2010 |
7:30 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I got up at 7:30. Note: My sleep was
severely disturbed last night as follow: 1. I was woken up around 4:30 but I
was able to go back to sleep within around 10 minutes. 2. I was woken up around 6:30 but I
was able to go back to sleep within a few minutes. 3. I was woken up around 6:50 o’clock
then and until 7:30 I kept on woken up and go back to sleep for around 4
times until I gave up to sleep and got up at 7:30. In the last a few
days I was working a lot in the garden, which means physical hard work and in
particular yesterday I worked around 9 hours in the garden, which means I was
very tired. Disturbing my sleep caused me to be not only very tired but also
this morning somehow I was disoriented, not performing some tasks that I
routinely do or do them in the wrong order. This is how mean and cruel are
these criminals that are disturbing my sleep with ESP, they are like Nazis or
even worse. |
|
Tu 11.05.2010 |
6:00 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at
6:00 o’clock and I got up at 6:00 o’clock. I was woken up sometimes in the
middle of the night but I was able to go back to sleep. Note: Today I have a
computer seminar, which I want to try to use it to get back in to my profession
as computer consultant. |
|
We 12.05.2010 |
7:30 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set at
7:30, I woke up around 6:30 but I was able to go back to sleep and I got up
at 7:30. Note: Yesterday I
went to SUN-Oracle computer seminar. It was in a small town called Baarn near
the city Amersfort. The seminar started at 12:00 o’clock and ended at around
17:00 hours. I had to leave home at 7:45 to get there on time and I get back
home around 21:30 hours. This is the 2nd computer seminar that I was able to
attend since I live here in 2008, due to it started at noon and I have time
to get there, the majority of computer seminars that I wanted to visit
starts around 8:00 or 9:00 o’clock in the morning and they are around 4-6
hours far away, and I have no possibility to get there before noon, unless I
go to the seminar city one day ahead and sleep in a hotel nearby, but I can’t
afford that. Therefore yesterday it was for me a very successful day. I
learned a lot of new things and I was very impressed with the offered
technologies. I tried around 3 times to work with or learn the SUN or Oracle
products (that was before the two companies merged together), but each time I
was prevented, started in 1993 and last time around 1998/1999. In particular
I wanted to learn and work with Unix system and Oracle PC database in 1994 as
well as the PowerSoft software that connects to Oracle database and I
obtained all the necessary software but somehow I was never able to continue. I Am very interested on building upon the seminar of yesterday and try to learn Unix and some products of Oracle if I can obtain it. I strongly believe that the merger of Oracle and Sun Micro Systems will bring forward many new and good technologies that will help against monopoly of other computer companies but also help the end user and one of these new technologies is the new database server they recently brought out name Exadata. a very impressive products. Well I wish them a lot of success. |
|
Today is: Th 13.05.2010 |
9:15 |
3:30 |
No alarm was set. I woke up several times after 7:00 o’clock, but I was too tired and went back to sleep and I got up at 9:15. Somehow I feel I slept too long and my body is somehow is a little bit sore of too long sleep. All in all I slept 9:30 hours. |
|
Fr 14.05.2010 |
10:00 |
3:10 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock and I got up at 10:00 o’clock. |
|
Sa 15.05.2010 |
10:00 |
4:30 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock but I was too tired and I got up at 11:00 o’clock. |
|
Today is: Su 16.05.2010 |
10:30 |
22:30 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock but I was too tired and I got up at 10:30 o’clock. |
|
Mo 17.05.2010 |
8:30 |
23:30 + 4:30 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:30 o’clock. |
|
Tu 18.05.2010 |
9:45 |
24:15 |
In short I did not
only have very bad sleep but absolutely tortures sleep, and this is why: I
went to sleep at around 24:00 hours, but I was prevented to sleep for an hour
and as I fell to sleep was woken up after around 10 minutes later and
prevented to go back sleep. At around 1:30 in the morning I gave up and get
up. Then I worked on school example government exams (StaatsExamen) I had the
thought that I will work through the night but at around 4:30 I was too tired
and could not stay up any more and I went to bed, but again I was prevented
to sleep by ESP for more than one hour and as I fell to sleep I was woken up
after around 5 minutes and this went on every around 30 minutes, fall to
sleep and being waked up. The first time as I went to bed I set the alarm at
5:00 o’clock and the second time I set it at 9:00 o’clock in the morning but
and since I was continuously waked up I was too tired and was not able
to get up as the alarm went on, and I woke up at 9:45. I went to school at
11:00 o’clock and found out that the teacher did not come and allegedly she
was sick or her mother was sick. This is the third time that this happen to
me so it was not a coincident, this mean my sleep was totally and viciously
disturbed and as I went to school there was no school. The school allegedly
knew ahead of time that the teacher is not coming and they should have called
me and in all cases they did not call me and each time they had a stupid
excuse, one time they called everyone else but did not call me because they
allegedly did not have my new telephone number (which is not true) and today
they allegedly did not have time to call all the students because three
teachers did not show up, and this even though the teacher said to them ahead
of time that she would not come to school on Monday and Tuesday and today is
Tuesday the second day that she did not show up and they had all the time of
the world to call me. All in all it is all fucked up and most definitely not
coincidents and the school administration are lying to me. |
|
We 19.05.2010 |
8:30 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was too tired and was not able to get up until 8:25 |
|
Th 20.05.2010 |
8:20 |
24:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was too tired and was not able to get up until 8:20 |
|
Fr 21.05.2010 |
9:30 |
3:30 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock but I was too tired and was not able to get up until 9:30 |
|
Sa 22.05.2010 |
6:00+9:15 |
5:30 |
I was woken up at
6:00 o’clock but I was able to go back to sleep after a few minutes, then the
alarm was set at 9:00 o’clock but I was too tired and was not able to get up
until 9:15. |
|
Su 23.05.2010 |
11:00 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
11:00 o’clock and I got up at 11:00 o’clock, very tired. |
|
Mo 24.05.2010 |
8:55 |
2:30 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:55 o’clock. |
|
Tu 25.05.2010 |
7:50 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock but I was too tired and I got up at 7:50 o’clock. |
|
We 26.05.2010 |
7:50 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:50 o’clock. |
|
Th 27.05.2010 |
8:00 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock I woke up some time between 3 and 6 o’clock, I can’t remember it
exactly was, but I was able to go back to sleep, and I got up at 8:00
o’clock. |
|
Fr 28.05.2010 |
8:50 |
3:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was too tired and I got up at 8:50 o’clock. |
|
Sa 29.05.2010 |
11:05 |
4:30 |
No alarm was set. I
woke up around 9:00 o’clock but I was too tired and went back to sleep. |
|
Su 30.05.2010 |
10:45 |
2:15 |
No alarm was set. I
woke up at around 6 or 7 o’clock but I was able to go back to sleep and I got
up at 10:45. |
|
Mo 31.05.2010 |
10:00 |
24:45 |
The alarm was set at 8:00 o’clock. I can’t recall hearing the alarm. I woke up at least twice around 5:00 o’clock and later. I got up at 10: o’clock |
|
Tu 01.06.2010 |
6:45 |
24:15 |
The alarm was set at
5:00 o’clock but somehow I did not hear the alarm and I got up at 6:45. |
|
We 02.06.2010 |
6:45 |
1:45 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock; I got up at 6:45. |
|
Th 03.06.2010 |
5:10 |
22:30 + 4:30 |
The alarm was set at
5:00 o’clock and I got up at 5:10. |
|
Fr 04.06.2010 |
23:30 + 5:30 9:30 + 11:20 |
4:45 |
No alarm was set. I
fell to sleep on the chair at around 22:30 hours and woke up around one hour
later at 23:30 and was not able to go to sleep until 4:30. I was woken up
around one hour later at 5:30 and again at around 9:30. I got up at 11:20.
After I got up I felt I very tired and I am still very tired and somehow
lacked of concentration. |
|
Sa 05.06.2010 |
11:45 |
4:00 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up because I too tired. I got up at
11:45. Unlike yesterday, I am not tired anymore and do not lack
concentration. |
|
Su 06.06.2010 |
11:30 |
3:15 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 11:30. |
|
Mo 07.06.2010 |
9:30 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:30. |
|
Tu 08.06.2010 |
8:20 |
24:30 |
The alarm was set at
7:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 8:20. I was woken up sometime
around 5 o’clock but I went back to sleep. |
|
We 09.06.2010 |
7:45 |
24:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock and I got up at 7:45. |
|
Th 10.06.2010 |
9:35 |
2:10 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 9:35. |
|
Fr 11.06.2010 |
11:15 |
2:30 |
The alarm was set at
9:00 o’clock but I was not able to get up until 11:15. First I was prevented
to go to sleep for around 45 minutes and then and as I fell to sleep I was
waken up after a few minutes. Later I was woken up around 4:45 but I was able
to go back to sleep after a few minutes, and therefore, and even though I
went to bed at 2:10, yet it is as if I went to sleep at around 5 o’clock. |
|
Sa 12.06.2010 |
10:15 |
10:30 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 and I got up at 10:15. |
|
Su 13.06.2010 |
1:30 |
22:30 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 and I got up at 1:30 in the morning. I fell to sleep on my chair and
woke up at around 1:30 and could not go back to sleep. |
|
Mo 14.06.2010 |
5:25 |
22:30 |
The alarm was set at 5:15, I was waken up at 4:15, but I was able to go back to sleep within a few minutes. I woke up at 5:25. |
|
Tu 15.06.2010 |
6:00 |
23:00 |
The alarm was set at
6:00 and I got up at 6:00. |
|
We 16.06.2010 |
7:45 |
1:00 |
The alarm was set at
8:00, I was waken up at around 5:00 o’clock but I was able to go back to
sleep, yet I woke up several times until I got up at 7:45. I was too tired
due to the bad and short sleep between last Saturday and yesterday Monday. Note: Yesterday and
before yesterday (Monday and Tuesdays) I made the government exam for the
Dutch language (in Dutch is called: Staatsexamen NT2 Programma I or 1). It
was 4 exams. First was writing exam (in Dutch Schrijven), second was
Listening (in Dutch Luisteren), third reading (in Dutch Lezen) fourth and
last speaking (in Dutch spreken). Before I did the exams I thought I will
100% past at least the reading and listing exams with 85-95 points out of 100
and with 70-85 for writing and speaking. However, after the exams I don’t
know if I will have such high scores or even pass all or any of the exams,
because they were much more difficult than what I was trained on by the Dutch
school. In particular the reading exam was very bad, because 4 reasons: 1. They had 300 to 400 percent more
reading than the example exams that was provided by the Dutch ministry of
Education. All in all and since January 2010, I performed around 20 example
exams or even more. In the example exams, which is the actual exams from previous
years including one example exam from 2009, We had questions some are long
and some are short and we had to select the answers out of multiple choices,
also the example exams included a few long texts that all in all comes up to
2-5 full reading pages and we have 110 minutes for the exam. But the actual
exam had no questions but rather around 8 texts each of 1-2 pages and for
each text around 4-6 questions. The result was the time was not sufficient to
read the entire text enable to understand it. During the exam I thought I
will perform half of the exam and then look how much time I still have and as
I answered around 20 questions out of 42, there was half of the time gone =
60 minutes and I had 50 minutes left for the 22 questions that were still
to-do. Therewith I did not have enough time to read the entire text of each
section, which made it much harder to understand the question and to find the
answer. The rule was any unanswered question will be considered as wrong
answer, and therefore often I had to guess the answers, which was the case by
at least 6 questions, possibly they were all wrong plus I have may be another
4-6 wrong answers, which means I have around12 wrong answers which means I
failed the exam, because based on the example exams that I downloaded of the
Ministry of Education website, I must have at least 32 or more good answers
to pass the exam. 2. Most of the texts in the exams
were in a much higher Dutch language level (in Dutch they call it: niveau)
than the Dutch language in the example exams but also in much higher language
level than what the school taught us or taught me. 3. Third but not least reason and it
is 100% the result or effect of the above two reasons, is that I had
absolutely no time to check if I answered correctly, there should have been
at least 15-20% of the time enough to reread my answers, however and as I
answered the last and 42nd question, there was 90 seconds left and I was so
pissed off (=angry and disappointed) that I thought it is not worth it any more
to check any question it will take me 90 seconds just to page through the 42
questions because it is all computerized. 4. Also this point is the result of
the above 2-3 points, I was totally stressed as soon as I noticed I have less
than half of the time left over to answer more than the half of the
questions=total questions 42 within 110 minutes. I answered 20 questions in
60 minutes and I had 22 questions to answer in 50 minutes, and additional
problem is that the exams always starts with easy questions and end with
harder ones, this mean I had to read the text in more time than before,
enable I can understand them, but it was 100% impossible. I consider myself
much above average in reading in comparison with the other students in my
class, and this due to I know and Understand English and German and the Dutch
language has at least 20% of the vocabulary as English and German, and the
majority of the other students, speak much less English (if any) than me and
most of them don’t speak German above that they are used to different
letters, none Latin letters such as ABCDEF.. but rather Chinese, Philippine,
Russian and so on, therefore my understanding of the Dutch language, at least
in reading is better than my writing, listing or writing, but it did
absolutely not help me in this exam. I have the feeling as if this reading
exam was selected difficult especially for me, especially that it did not
start with easy questions that became harder and harder later in the exam,
but rather it started with hard questions that became hardest at the end. I spoke with a
couple other persons that were performing the exams and they also meant the
same that the reading exam was much harder than expected. One of the persons
I asked he performed this exam for the second time within one years and he
meant that this time it was much harder and much more text than the previous
time. I ask myself why? That was the problem
by one exam, however each of the other exams had its own problems, but by far
not as severe as the four above mentioned problems. |
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Th 17.06.2010 |
8:15 |
4:45 |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock but I got up at 8:15. |
|
Fr 18.06.2010 |
9:55 |
4:00 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock; I got up at 9:55. I was waken up at 5:45 but I was able to go
back to sleep. |
|
Sa 19.06.2010 |
11:15 |
5:00 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock; I got up at 11:15. I was waken up at 9:45 but I was too tired
and went back to sleep. |
|
Su 20.06.2010 |
11:15 |
3:00 |
The alarm was set at
10:00 o’clock; I woke up at 10:00 but I went back to sleep and I got up at
11:15. |
|
Mo 21.06.2010 |
9:15 |
23:45 |
The alarm was set
for 8:00 o’clock but I got up at 9:15. |
|
Tu 22.06.2010 |
8:00 |
1:30 |
The alarm was set
for 8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. However, last night I had a
little bit trouble falling to sleep for around 45 minutes. |
|
We 23.06.2010 |
8:00 |
1:15 |
The alarm was set
for 8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. However, I was waken up at
around 7:30 but I was able to go back to sleep. |
|
Th 24.06.2010 |
8:00 |
24:45 |
The alarm was set
for 8:00 o’clock and I got up at 8:00 o’clock. |
|
Fr 25.06.2010 |
9:15 |
4:30 |
No alarm was set. I
got up at 9:15 o’clock. |
|
Sa 26.06.2010 |
12:15 |
24:45 |
No alarm was set. I
got up at 12:15 o’clock. |
|
Su 27.06.2010 |
8:45 |
1:30 |
No alarm was set. I
got up at 8:45 o’clock. I felt to sleep on the couch. |
|
Mo 28.06.2010 |
9:45 |
2:30 +?? |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock. I got up at 9:45 o’clock. I was not able to sleep, may things
went through my mind. I got up and worked on the computer. In other words I
did not sleep. |
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Tu 29.06.2010 |
2:45 |
10:30 |
I was not able to
sleep last night. |
|
We 30.06.2010 |
9:15 |
3:00 did not sleep |
The alarm was set at
8:00 o’clock, but I was too tired due to I did not have any sleep last night
and I got up at 9:15. |
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Daily log Periods: |
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20.03.2009 – 30.06.2009 |