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Sa.
18.08.2007 |
See disclaimer for the new update. Last night
I could not sleep early due to all the sleep torture I was going through in
the past in form of sleep prevention, interruption and distortion. I watched
TV and finally I went to sleep at around 4 o’clock in the morning. One hour
later I was wakened up through ESP. Then I went back to sleep after I smoked
a couple of cigarettes. 2 hours later I was wakened up again by ESP, but this
time violently through inflicting pain upon my leg muscles, that made me
screams. Which they used to do a lot to me in USA and especially in Houston,
Texas. All in all and since I was taken by force of ESP to USA in 1984/86,
the following ESP sicknesses and pain infliction was performed up on me: 1.
Pain on my teeth until the
majority of them are damaged 2.
Pain
on my leg muscles 3.
Pain
in my ears 4.
Pain
in my left eye 5.
Prevented me to go to sleep or
waked me up after short period 6.
Inflicting pain in my hands and
face through air/water bubbles 7.
Creating red and large spots all
over my arms and upper body, which the dermatologist called it fungal
infection, and I believed him at that time, especially that I was taken to
him through the CIA whore Najlaa Mahmoud and her whore daughter Suzanne
Khodor, and therewith he worked with them against me. Which I don’t have any
more since I am in Holland 8.
Breathing problems that the public
Hospital of Houston, Texas, called it Asthma and I believed them, it turned
out it was punishment and distraction of my free thinking, in other words and
each time I think about something that is related to my situation I suddenly
had breathing problems and was forced to concentrate on it and by the time the
breathing problem is gone, I forgot already what I was trying to think about.
The hospital prescribed for me an alleged asthma spray, which also I don’t
need it since I am in Holland 9.
Fungal infection all over my feet that I
can’t get ready off since 1990s in Houston, Texas. Even though I took a lot of medication to get ready of
it, yet I can’t. Each time I was in prison or refugee camp, I used to go to
the doctor, then he examined me and gave me cream anti-fungal infection that
I oft took for several weeks and partially several months, and never helped,
but also I was prescribed several times bills/tablets for it and I was told I
should give it a couple of months to work, and it never worked. Today I know it is all evil ESP
manipulation. Today I am around 58 years old, and when I get to think about it and
after I get Christian in 1976 and until 1978 I had much more pain problems,
in my legs, my ears, my eyes, my arms and my entire body than now. In 1976 I
was around 24-27 years old and supposedly much healthier than now, yet and
despite the pain inflicted today upon me by ESP, which I can today recognize
as ESP manipulation, some how I feel much healthier
physically today than in 1976, this mean I don’t have as much physical
problems as I did have in 1976 and that is a paradox, but it is very easily
to explain. In 1976 and as I get Christian in Unterschleissheim/ Lohhof,
Germany, I was very evilly and heavily persecuted by ESP, much more than
today, to prevent me of getting free and find out that my family is not my
biological family and therewith find out all the crimes they performed and
who is my biological family is, and who are some of the members of my fake
family and their real identities. Also I suspect I did not have adult enough
children with ESP at that time who possibly prevented many ESP pain inflicted
upon me, and those children of mine that were stolen were told lies about me
and about my situations, mental status, sexual orientation, and honesty, and
therefore many of them fought me because they were raised to fight me and be
used against me, and I recognize some of them that turned to be very evil
just like the people that raised them, one of those children that I just
recently recognized, is an alleged Palestinian that owned a Video store in
Schleissheimer street in 1985-1986 in Munich, Germany, and that piece of shit
helped with his ESP the CIA, Syrian military intelligence that was present at
that time in the illegal American/English/Syrian military intelligence
project called Calypso, and I was forced with ESP through all these piece of
shit and stupid to be with Najlaa Mahmoud and later was kidnapped to USA
where I was totally lost between all these piece of shit of Bush,
Rockefeller, Kennedy, Windsor and other messed up families and all their
hidden businesses that destroyed my logic, mental state, emotional state and
my entire I, and therewith
enslaved me to cover up for all what is in my life which is related to those
crocked minded and messed up people that set my fake family together out of
their own family members which held me hostage all my life and until today,
just because I am the only official and legitimate son of the last king of
England, King George VI that allegedly died in February 1952 officially 8
months before my birth, biologically and in reality almost 3 years after my
birth. But also I am related to the piece of shit George H. W. Bush, most
probably his half brother, and that is why he was
fighting me publicly since at least 1975/76, since he was director of the CIA
and set on me his brothers-in-law Scott Pierce disguised as pastor Herbert
Lange in the Evangelical Lutheran church, and his second brother-in-law James
Robinson Pierce disguised as my employer Mr. Hoegl, both in 1976 and in
Unterschleissheim, Germany. But also fighting me in the hidden since at least
1959 and since he and his official brother William H. T. Bucky Bush alias my
fake cousin Farhat Kheir kidnapped me from USA to Damascus, Syria in 1959 in
cooperation of his official but fake brother Prescott Sheldon Bush Junior
alias Rockefeller family member and related to Dr. Kubie from Rockefeller
Medical research center in New York alias Mr. Kabani the official
brother-in-law of my fake uncle Jawdat Baroudi alias member of the
Rockefeller family in USA and Porsche family in Germany, that had several
look a like and I did not see him since 1966/1970,
what I saw after 1966/1970 was 100% look a like.
The original Jawdat Baroudi was 100% a Rockefeller member that was
simultaneously an official member of the government of the United States of
America, most probably in the Senate or Congress and simultaneously member of
the Exxon managerial group either as CEO, CFO or member of the Exxon board.
He is a very evil man, that caused a lot of grieve for millions of people in
USA, Europe and the Middle East, but also caused me a lot of pain in my life
to cover up the fact who he is. I will recognize that piece of shit of
Rockefeller even if he is one of 100 look a like,
because I remember him very well, just as I remember the piece of shit Fuad
Khayat, Samiyath Khayat and other no good and messed up people of the
Rockefeller and Windsor families. I will hunt them down as they hunt foxes in
England and buffalos in USA, and like rats in the ghettos that they created for
their slaves, those greedy, stupid, cruel, vicious and sadistic pieces of
shit. My life is
very sad, at least for me, and I don’t wish it for any one, not even for my
enemies, unfortunately my number one enemies are my biological immediate
family members. Personally I never made enemies, or saw enemy in any one or
in any thing, yet many people saw in me an enemy and made me in the hidden to
enemy number one to them and their countries that they control officially and
to the countries they control in the hidden such as England, Germany, USA,
Syria, Israel, Jordan, Palestine, Lebanon, Egypt and Saudi Arabia. All those
countries persecuted me with their secret service organizations, terrorist
and crime organizations and the result of all these persecution is, I am here
over 58 years old, locked up, yet as if I have never existed on this earth,
and locked up as if I am an alien from another planet that every one is scared of me, or may be afraid of my feet
fungal infection, that was created by ESP as part of additional stress and
distraction of the mind, on the bases, a little bid here, a little bid there,
a little bid of this and a little bid of that, all together is a very bad mix for an
individual that was brainwashed and has no idea what is going on around him
for so long, and suddenly is trying to clean up his surroundings of his own
life, yet it is too many obstacles laid in my way or life by so many people
that all of them forced me to think that they all were angels and wanted the
best for me, which is death. |
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Fr.
17.08.2007 |
See disclaimer for the new update. I received
a letter of my asylum attorney that was forced upon me and I have no choice
of attorney, the letter stating that he received a letter of the Dutch immigration
authorities stating that they would need another and up to 15 weeks to
allegedly decide on my political asylum application of November 2005, and
that I am Syrian. First I did not apply for political asylum and I will never
in my future apply for political asylum, if I can’t go back home to Germany
and with a German citizenship is not worth it for me to live in this world,
because I was setup my entire life to be homeless, paperless and
nationality-less by the governments of Syria, Egypt, Jordan, USA, England,
Germany Holland, my fake family and my biological family the piece of shit
Windsor in England and Bush, Rockefeller, Kennedy in USA, my church Evangelical Lutheran
church in Unterschleissheim Germany, the Evangelical Lutheran church of
Bridgeport, Connecticut USA and every piece of shit Moslem that I ever met in
my life from Egypt to Europe and USA but also from India such as the piece of
shit CIA agent Khalid Mian who lives in Germany and pretend to be from India.
And therewith is not worth it to live. If I don’t get the German citizenship
now, this mean there is absolute no justice or freedom in USA, Europe or
Germany that is 100% controlled by piece of shit American, English, French
and Russian military, whereby Russian military is hidden now in the same form
as the American and English military is hidden in Syria, Jordan, Lebanon,
Palestine, Egypt and other so called Arab countries. Beside I am not Syrian
and since 1970 my life is being terrorized in many ways, and one of them I am
always threatened to be deported to Syria, a country filled with thugs and
controlled by thugs that have nothing in mind except drugs, money and food to
fill up their stupid stomach as much as they can. Syria it is the hidden
terrorist county of the rich of our world such as the Windsor, Bush,
Rockefeller, Kennedy, Quandt and many other disloyal, greedy, stupid that
sell out their own children and grand children for
money, at least they sold me and all my children for money and greed. If they
want to deport me because I am saying the truth as I know it, if they want to
deport me because I am defending myself and saying who is the responsible
persons for my situation, if they want to deport me because they want to
cover up most of the facts in this website, if they want to deport me because
of all my anger, disappointment and sadness, and if they want to deport me to
a country I was not even born in it and I was only kidnapped to it and forced
to live in it for approximately one year, where they brainwashed me as a child,
wiped off my memory, manipulated my look by illegal human cosmetic surgery
performed by the piece of shit Rockefeller and bush family jointly, to a
country that faked my identity and stamped on my Syrian as they did to tens
of thousands of stolen luxury cars from Germany and taken to Syria and
stamped on them Syria and sold them in all over the Middle East through out 1970s and 1980s, let them do, I don’t care to
live with thugs any where in this world. I either go back home to Munich, Germany where I was kidnapped by
these stupid or not live and that is it. I will expose each piece of shit one
of them with out any regard to loyalty to any
biological relation or friendship, because and among others they were all
fake. As a result of
all what happened to me in the last two weeks, I was not able to create as
many personal profiles of the persons persecuting me as I want. I should be
able to create at least 50-60 profiles weekly, yet the last two weeks is
getting less and less, until last week was only 23 profiles, and this week
most probably less than 10, who profits through that?? At least those persons
I am creating profiles about them, but also CIA, and many crime organizations
that have many members of their organizations as ones of the persons surrounding
me by force and tricks and I am creating a profiles about them. They are
always defending their actions with fake situation and bunch of lies, that most people think it is true or
reality, such as the enemy number one in 1960s-1980s is the ex-Soviet Union
and their alleged communist allies, then it is the Palestinian terrorists,
then it is US and English survival interest in petroleum, then it is Dutch
and other alleged Europeans survival interest in petroleum and Natural Gas,
then it is the World Trade Center Bombing, Then it is the alleged evil Jewish
with their alleged Zionist expansion ambition in the Middle East, then it is
the International terrorism under the alleged control of one man, Osama Ben
Laden, a CIA employee and spy of the Bush, Windsor, Kennedy and Rockefeller
families to eliminate their own business competitions worldwide in illegal
and legal business in one hit under the pretension of fighting terrorism.
Osama Ben Laden a man that in reality is a very stupid (not intelligent man)
and not capable to lead to any thing good and in
particular in unifying world terrorism, because unification is good,
terrorism is bad and this alone is a paradox, and a paradox is an expression
defined by human of things they don’t want other human to understand. Then it
is Iraq that was never able to be proved and linked to international
terrorism and mass destruction weapons, yet and today every
one is talking only about a daily hundreds of dead in Iraq by the
international terrorist Osama Ben Laden and Bush administration made up Al
Qaida international terrorist organization to justify land expansion
(stealing), to cover up for the mass drug plantation by his family members
and business associates in the Middle East, and many other different crimes
performed by his family members disguised under other identities in the
Middle East, I know that because I am of the family and I am absolutely
disgusted of their limited capability of being peaceful and productive,
imaginative and creational. A combination that is only to see by absolute
intelligence, where ever it does not exist such as by the Bush family it is
100% due to lack of intelligence, and these people rule the great United
States of America. Then and as the Germans say: Na, dann
prost und feritgott. As the American say and don’t
mean it, God Bless the United States of America. Blessing means honesty,
integrity, loyalty, caring and love for every one,
even your own enemy. All these ingredients that are absolutely missing by
my fake and biological families, the
Windsor in England and all their allies in Europe, Asia and elsewhere , Bush,
Rockefeller and Kennedy in USA and all their hidden allies and family members
in the Middle East. Love for every one, even your
enemy, because the enemy that is raised to be enemy is sick (brainwashed) and
need caring, love and nurturing until he understand there is no need for
animosity. |
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Sa.
14.07.2007 |
2001 I
started realizing and because of the evil brainwash performed on me jointly
by Americans, Israeli, English, Syrians and my fake family, I had severe
problem gathering my thoughts or even set relation to any thing I know or
even newly get to know, and that was an important element of my brainwash to
not understand or recognize any thing. And since what they did to me is based
on their experience, this means they do that to others, and I hope and with
this web site others recognize their surroundings and who is really for or
against them. Because they always pretend to be the friend of their victims
or even their enemies, and they force their victim and enemy to believe that
through a very cruel, sadistic and vicious brainwash. What a bitty that they
waste their brain, mind and intelligence on this life style, and what is even
worth is that they tell their selves, or lie to their selves or they have
been lying for so long that they believe their own lies, that what they do is
for the benefit of the general population, and that they make letterly
Billions yearly of drugs, stealing and misusing public funds to kill others
to steal what they have is their legitimate right because they are superior
because they have ESP, they think it is their reward for their life style,
they think (or lack of it) every one else is
created to serve them. They are really not capable to create or invent. With
drug and killing money they buy big company shares and sit on their asses
pretending to have worked honestly and hard their entire life to become
queen, king, president, minister, owner of millions of shares of General
Motors, BMW Mercedes , Boeing, AEG or hundred others they bought with blood
money of their own relatives and countrymen/countrywomen. Then they claim
look what I made out of BMW or Boeing or Mercedes. And I look and see bunch
of thugs stealing shares of these companies legally by purchasing them with
illegal blood money. Boeing for example, is managed by punch of crocks who
build special Boeing airplanes that was designed to hide huge amount of
drugs, so did Mercedes with their trucks, or even General Motors. Boeing is
not capable honestly to develop some thing their
selves, so they steal it or sabotage their competition such as Air Bus or
McDowell Douglas and many others. And some members of my stupid family are
100% the saboteurs of Air Bus for Boeing in Germany and Europe such as Dr.
Farzat Baroudi. Or General Electric and their partners sabotaged the Atomic
Energy plans, research and development in Germany and brought it to a total
stop, just so they may be able to sell more Atomic Energy plants worldwide
and have monopoly, but also to be able to sell more electric to house holds and businesses in Germany and else where in the world. That tells me that General
Electric the biggest electronic company in USA is absolutely stupid because
they only rely on eliminating competition instead on how to increase the
chances of every one to be able to have his own fare
share of daily energy. General Electric was founded by a thief and ever since
they follow his foot steps. Tom Edison is the
founder of General Electric, Tom Edison who stole all of his ideas and
invention of other scientists and claimed it to be his and even registered
over one thousand of it as patent to eliminate any
possibility of the actual inventor to develop his own invention, and that is
what patent is all about, stealing and quickly register it as yours before
the real inventor. And exactly here is the prove
that they are stupid; because when concentrating on the actual well fare of
individuals, this will help much more individuals to have more fare shares of
energy and therewith increase the revenue. You cant follow money and the well fare of others at
the same time, you can only follow the welfare of others, which brings an
unexpected hidden treasures behind it, which is a new conscious consumer,
that have money to spend on any thing he needs and
wants. But these people can’t think so far, they only see money and what they
can buy with it for their selves and how quick they can make more money to
buy more things for their selves. And the best way to make quick money and
make others dramatically suffer and not pay taxes is to sell illegal drugs
which is estimated to be yearly one Billion Euro per one Million population
worldwide and it brings at least and pure 30% net profit for the head of the
crime organization, that is controlled by my family in USA, Europe and at
least in the Middle East, however I have solid prove that it goes to Africa,
entire South Asia and many parts of South America. And that is one of the
major reasons in the continuous wars in the Middle East, which is to hide the
huge amount of illegal drug plants in that area, which has been secret for so
long, and every one is busy with the man created
wars to cover up for what is in this website. And therewith Afghanistan is
100% cover up for the Middle East. Therefore, it was planned by my family to
link Afghanistan to the biggest and most stupid and ridicules lie of our
century, which is Afghanistan has 75% of opium of the world, it is
impossible, scientifically impossible, infrastructure wise is impossible,
business wise it is impossible, worldwide connection it is impossible and
revenue wise it is impossible. 75% of opium of the world would letterly means
uncountable hundreds of Billions of Euros every single year, this would
definitely make Osama Ben Laden richer than King Solomon and his alleged
hidden treasures, and this will make Osama Ben Laden the richest man ever and
for all times. One lie like the other King Solomon or Osama Ben Laden. Beside
China alone have 10 times more opium plantations than Afghanistan; one very
visible reason is because most Chinese smoke opium and they have more than
ten times the population of Afghanistan. But also India has 10 times more
opium and drug plantations than Afghanistan because the majority smokes opium
and they have more than 10 times the population than Afghanistan. Beside
India or China will not import their much needed and used opium of others who
are against them this mean they make their enemy richer to control them, this
would mean Osama Ben Laden and with his uncountable hundreds of Billions of
Euros out of at least 15 years Afghanistan opium plantations to cover 75% of
the world need, would have to control the government of India and China,
because and in reality, with money you can control a country. But I don’t see
Osama Ben Laden traveling the streets of India and/or China in an open car
waving to people who salute him and think they love him, like they usually do
to many members of my family in England, Germany,
USA, Syria, Egypt, Jordan and other countries. Osama Ben Laden is a criminal
and that is a fact, but it was all part of the plan to present to the world
the head of all the crimes of the world, a scapegoat for the real messed up
people going around in their open cars waving to people pretending to love
the well fare of the people and think we just give people what they want,
they want drugs so we give them drugs, they want God and some
one to believe in, we give them Gods (plural) to believe in and look
up to, we give them variety of religions, we give them a choice, to believe
in what we give them or be persecuted, expelled, forced to mass migration or
even being killed, and we can always blame it on Osama Ben Laden, hidden
Nazis, Russian Mafia, Italian Mafia, the cruel royalties, Iran, North Korea
or any thing else no one can verify, see or touch.
Osama Ben laden and his myth of power world wide
have only been repeated over and over again in all media owned by the persons
who go around in an open cars waving to the people. It is a circle of lies
and evil that has to stop now PERIOD. |
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Sa.
14.07.2007 |
This week
the Iranian lives in the same refugee apartment as I do, came on Tuesday with
his alleged Dutch girl friend and stayed until
Thursday, doing nothing but bugging me, I would not waste my time on what
they did and how they behaved, nor I think it is worth it to waste time on
them of even thinking of them, because they were set on purpose with me by
the refugee camp administration. They know I don’t want any
one around me and in particular stupid women who have nothing else to
do with their life than coming to my apartment and pretend some thing they are not. I was very upset, angry and
bugged by them and their presence near me. And the result was I was not able
to continue writing but around 5 records in 3 days, my external computer hard
disk fell down and broke, which had all my data in it, which cost it 15 Euro
to fix that I did not have, and it cost me at least a whole day to rearrange
and back up my data in case of future accident, or was it no accident? Thank you
every one for terrorizing my life, misleading me, feeding me with wrong
information just to suite your purpose. Some times
I think I am surrounded only by mentally sick people. In reality many of them
are mentally sick, any one is not capable to stop pretension, and pretend to
be some thing he/she is not is mentally sick, is
afraid to show the truth or his/her own reality. The refugee camp is filled
with people with fake identity, people who claim to be of a country they are
not from, just because this country has political or war problem and is
therewith more likely to be accepted as refugee, or others make up fake
refugee story that is heart breaking just to be accepted as refugees. No one
is welling to set or put his life
honestly on the table, and that tells me there is some
thing very wrong in our society, especially when and through this
pretension many others have to suffer or even be killed. Some times I just want to run away of all my
past and surrounding, but I can’t because of many reasons: 1.
I
am locked up 2.
I have no papers that proves my
real identity and permit me to move where I want to go freely, or even just
go any where but this stupid refugee camp in
Holland or any other refugee camp, jail or prison 3.
I have to continue to expose all
my fake family and what they do world wide 4.
I have to show that all the
suffering I immediately saw around me is not only man made, but also and very
sadistically and cruelly planed and performed based on a personal gain plan 5.
I have to find all my stolen
children and at least they must know the truth and reality of what is
surrounding them for sadistic, cruel, violent and absolute vicious people
that are using them for their own personal benefit, which is going to be
hard, because most people think what they know is not only the only existing
knowledge but also the only true knowledge or reality, and I can’t blame them
for what they have been feed year after year in their mind and brain, which
is all they have, regardless if it is good or not. It is their personality.
But I would not allow them to be like my family, regardless if they have ESP
or not, regardless if they can force me to do things with their ESP or not.
Being like my fake family is not just like a monster, it is a monster of
destruction. And a monster is an expression of an entity that has no brain or
feeling, it just follow it is instincts of eating, sleeping even over dead
bodies. Human have intelligence that permit them to do any
thing they want in this universe, yet the majority of us misuse their
intelligence to cunning, stealing, cheating, and killing others for the
purpose of stealing, cheating and only feeding their selves but not others.
And what is worth is that they use their own children, friends many family
members, country, or any other human and bunch of lies to reach their
personal gains |
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Tu.
03.07.2007 |
Many things happened since I last wrote some thing in this daily dairy on So. 24.6.2007. First I
should really write on a daily basis, which I wanted, but some
how I am being prevented. Among others through the following two
points: 1.
I am trying to give all my time to list all those individuals who
build an international crime organization and are among others members of my
fake family and persecuted me my entire life 2.
I am being set up and my life is being manipulated in a very sadistic
and vicious way by the people I am forced to live with, which it has a very
negative influence on what I do, think or even behave, therefore, I am trying
to eliminate problems in my life and not accumulate them, and one way under
my current circumstances is by being alone This could mean that some one
does not want me to write down the facts I know about my family and therefore
I am being prevented. Or they are trying to get ready of me, by making it
impossible for me to live in this refugee apartment so I may leave
voluntarily, and therewith I stop publishing about my family, who are
worldwide criminal organization. Also last week I received two or three emails of my
fake sister Fadia Nagar, but I did not want to read them and I did not read
them. I don’t read email of my brainwashers and persecutors. If she wants she
can email photos of my evil family members such as my fake uncles who are all famous Americans
and English. She has the photos. I can recall one photo that I had, which was
five women together to represent five generation in my fake family, from my
fake grand mother Samiyath Khayat/Baroudi alias
queen Mary of Teck, her daughter (my fake mother) Hayat Baroudi alias twin
brother or sister of queen Elizabeth II, her grand
daughter (my fake sister) Suhair Bdeir, her grand grand
daughter (my fake niece) Basmath Bdeir/Alami and her grand grand grand daughter the
daughter of my fake niece I forgot her name. A brainwash photograph it was
from mid 1970s and it was given to me after I became Christian |
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Mo
02.07.2007 |
Today is really Tu. 9.7.2007 and I am writing what
happen since So. 24.6.2007 when I last wrote in this daily dairy. I will
limit my entry to the essentials in the last a few days. 1.
They brought two new alleged Iranian refugees in to the apartment I am
in 2.
And I am feeling being terrorized by them, due to all their aggressive
behavior, carelessness, inconsidered, ignorance and they brought back the
vicious sadistic Iranian in to the apartment who terrorized my life for
several weeks and then stole all my belonging in the kitchen 3.
They are absolute mentally sick people, they have nothing in mind
except setting me up, I don’t have to like them and I don’t have to live with
them, yet I have no choice, the government stole my choice 4.
I asked the administration to place me alone in a room or apartment 5.
I asked the medical center 6.
I even asked the police 7.
But they are always forcing me to live with people I don’t trust, or
even like 8.
I want to go back home to Germany where they kidnapped me from, if not
I want to be alone 9.
I am not allowed to go back home, instead and in the refugee camp they
always set me up and provoke. 10. Who places me with these people? The refugee camp
administration, even I asked them many times to place me alone 11. The more they place me with these kind of people the
more I hate them all and hate the Americans and my stupid family who
kidnapped me and caused all this suffering to me 12. Today I complained to the administration about the
new refugees and partially what they are doing in the apartment, I lost my
faith and trust in Dutch government long time ago I really don’t like the Dutch, but I have
contradiction in that, out side the camp it is all
peaceful and very nice people, kind, polite, and considerate, in the camp is
another world, at least surrounding me, they are all vicious, sadistic,
careless, in-considered, lazy, unhygienic, think as if they own the place,
don’t care about any thing or any
one but their selves. Living with these people make you hate your life
and your self, at least I hate my life and my self, specially that I can’t achieve one thing in my
life which is going back home to Germany or at least be alone, live alone,
among others to eliminate many problems that are being caused mainly by the
people I am being forced to live with All in all, I absolutely don’t feel well, not
mentally nor emotionally, because I am being forced to live with these
people. May be it is time to confront the Dutch with why I have conflicts
about liking them: these are the reasons from 1977 and until today |
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So.
24.6.2007 |
My entire sleep timing was missed up over this
weekend. Today I woke up very late around noon, after I slept around 8 hours
last night. Actually I did not feel for any thing.
I watched TV from around 8 in the evening until 6 in the morning. 10 hours
TV, that is not good, but I have nothing else to do when I don’t feel like
writing. Any way I will not watch TV for more than a film, which is 2-3 hours
at one given time. Actually I hate TV, and if I have a choice I could and
would do some thing else of many things on my mind,
but I am in a situation, location and country I don’t want to be in and this
since 1986. Finally took a shower, washed my cloths and cleaned a few things
that were bothering me. It is past one o’clock in the morning and I don’t
know what to do because I woke up late today, just before noon, so I don’t
feel sleepy yet. |
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Sa.
23.6.2007 |
Also today my sleep was manipulated with ESP. I did
not have enough good sleep in the last couple of days, I am very tired. |
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Fr.
22.6.2007 |
After I went to sleep last night, immediately
thereafter I was waken up by some asshole with ESP,
thereafter I could not go to sleep until early in the morning. Today I
scanned several photos and documents that I will publish in the next a few
days and weeks. |
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Th.
21..6.2007 |
Last night, Wednesday, I was very tired because I
did not have enough sleep in the last a few days, and I had one liter bier
with my dinner, which was Frozen pizza and fresh spinach salad, therefore I
went to bed around 11 o’clock in the evening, but I was prevented by ESP to
go to sleep. At midnight I left my bed and added more wanted persons
profiles, then I went to sleep at around 2-3 o’clock in the morning. I was
very tired, exhausted, and my body started to aching. Also I was waked up by
ESP at around 6 o’clock in the morning, which really disturbed my sleep,
therefore I could not wake up early, I woke up at
10.45 with disturbed sleep. This is hidden physical and psychological
torture. Yesterday, the secondhand computer shop owner was so kind to lend me
a scanner, which is a HP multi purpose scanner,
copier, and printer, therefore I need special driver, which I don’t have, I
will down loaded from the Internet and scan the photos and documents that I
have and publish some of them next week. |
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We.
20.6.2007 |
Last night I could not sleep until around 3 O’clock
in the morning, which happens to me every Tuesday. Why always Tuesdays? What
is different on Tuesdays? Every refugee in camp have to register on Wednesday
between 10 and 12 in the morning by the administration and immigration
police, therefore, many refugees who live far away of the camp and in other
cities they come on Tuesday evening and sleep in the camp overnight so they
may make it on time at 10-12 o’clock, especially that there is no train stop
in town, so it could take 5-7 hours to come to the camp from other cities. Since I know that I my sleep is being manipulated by
ESP through some cruel persons, so they want me to think it is some refugee
who comes on Tuesday and while he is in the camp he/she manipulate my sleep.
But it is not necessary true, because I can’t see who is using ESP on me, nor
his location, IT could be a woman, a man or even a child. Beside he could be
in England, Germany, USA or a residence of the city where the refugee camp
is. Whatever the reason or location of that person, he is stupid, because he
can’t find some thing productive to do with his
life beside disturbing my sleep and manipulating my thoughts or surroundings. |
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Tu.
19.6.2007 Today |
It is 13.10 in the after noon.
I wanted to go to the Internet to publish what I have so far. But some how I don’t feel like it. May be because on Tuesday
afternoon there are most visitors and I will definitely be allowed only for
90 minutes and that is not enough to publish, test and fix bugs. I will try
to publish at least Every Monday Morning which is a good day after the
weekend, where I can accomplish at the most. But for this week I will go tomorrow
in the after noon to publish, because before noon
is only for women, which is an absolute waste, to reserve 20-25 computers
just for a couple of ladies my guess 3-5. Beside why does every
one has to make a difference and separations between human, women’s
day, children’s day, youth day, elderly day, white people’s day, Asian day,
African day, where is the limit, where is human’s day? Or better yet
Human’s Life! |
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Tu.
18.6.2007 Today |
Yesterday I was working on my publishing until
around 2 o’clock in the morning. I wake up this morning 15 minute before my
alarm, it was 7.45. Since 9 O’clock I am writing on what I am going to
publish today. It is unusual for me to wake up before the alarm especially
after going to bed so late. Actually this is what I was trying to do for very
long time; it is so long a go that I forgot when it
was. I always wanted to wake up early in the morning and go to sleep early to
be able to catch the day at the beginning, but I was always prevented by ESP.
At least since 1976, the year where I officially and partially voluntarily
became Christian, partially because I was tricked by my stupid attorney to
become Christian, his name was Ralf Bossi a very famous attorney in Germany through out 1970s and until 1990s. Voluntary, because and
after I get to read the new testament, I was impressed and some how felt lost and found. One thing is for sure, you
can’t beat the logic within the words of Jesus. For me it was just like when
I first started to work with Microsoft Office 2007, at first I thought: what
is all that, where are all the stuff and menus that I am used to, but quickly
thereafter and after I started playing around, experimenting and exploring
it, I felt in love with it, specially that I worked with so many other word
processors since 1982. And this is exactly what happen to me when I started
to read the new testament, I immediately compared it with what I knew at that
time which was what I learned in the public school in Cairo, Egypt 1960 through out 1969, which is Quran and Islam. Then I
started to realize two things simultaneously: first is that the new testament
is very human oriented, timeless compassionate, intelligent and some how innocent. Second: I suddenly realized how wrong
my fake family was; at that time I did not know that my family is not my
family. Also I just realized that my fake family is not only far of being
human but also they don’t even practice what they claim to be, which is
Moslem, they never practice it, then I realized they have two faces, one face
to the public we are practicing Moslems, and the other face is in not public
which is screw religion we can do what we want with any one, any where any time. But I did not know what to think of
these findings because I was heavily persecuted with ESP at that time in
1976-1978, but I did not know it was ESP I just registered it as bad
situations and that I was doing things I don’t want to do, I don’t think this
way, and I don’t approve of my own doing, I blamed it on at that time bad
marriage and separation of my wife. But today I have no doubt in my mind my
wife at that time, Anita Disbray, had ESP and she was a very cruel person,
but also CIA, Mosad were persecuting me among others with the help of James
Robinson Pierce alias Mr. Hoegl
and Scott
Pierce alias Herbert Lange my pastor.
Enough
of that. Today I started writing my daily dairy, I started
back dated with “Some times in April 2007”. I knew
that there is many persons or people with ESP (= Extra Sensory Perception =
Telepathy + Telekinesis + others) Telepathy means thoughts on distance, just
like telephone means sound on distance telegraph means letters/signs on
distance and all other tele’s. This
mean people can read my thoughts but also manipulate them, place
thoughts in my mind and this if I want or not. Therefore and because only
some people read my mind with out my approval, I
share every thing with every one
who is interested of knowing some of the hidden secrets of our lives. We
created (or discovered and developed = human creation!!??) Telephone,
Television, Telegraph, TeleText, Telex, Internet
(maybe it should be Telenet/TeleConnect/TeleConnection or plainly what it is in reality TeleHuman/TeleSences!!??), and
we can’t be better than our all teacher, which is God, he crated
some thing better long before we did all that and
more, and much better, which is ESP, with out
cabling, wires, switches, modems, hubs or any other substituted help. The
question why some have ESP and some not? He is in reality teaching us how to
do it, and best prove for that is that we are imitating our capabilities; we
are not capable to invent new things out of some thing
we don’t know of. Because evil people always like to suppress others to take
advantage of them = slavery, and since God love every one and give every one
equally the same, just like our body parts, son, air and other things, this
mean we all were 100% born with ESP, but evil persons destroyed it at birth
so they may have slaves. And this is hidden slavery. A slave who does not
know that he is a slave, because he can be manipulated with ESP and he has no
idea about it, because we were told that what ever
is in our mind comes only from with in our selves,
which is 100% a lie. We can have thoughts that is 100% not ours and we don’t
recognize it because we don’t know all the facts about ESP. It is hidden and
kept a secret. Or did any one ever hear of a
criminal who perform a crime and then goes back admit to it and fully replace
every thing to the origin? I heard about it, I read
it in the Bible, Jesus suggested it, but it is never done by major criminals,
I never heard of it, and the reason I am sure about that, is that I know of a
lot of mass crimes and tried very hard to report it to the police in the last
five years but I was not successful, because the criminals are controlling
the situation and preventing police of accepting my report. I went several
times to the head quarter of Munich, Germany police in Ett street, but they
refuse, arrest me, or make fun of me. Therefore I will publish every thing I know about my family, whereby I am fully
aware that I can be mistaken here or there, and therefore publishing my
knowledge will help correcting my knowledge in that I am expecting people to
report to my web site to confirm or disconfirm, beside I am saying the truth
as I know it, and I know that and my fake family knows that and my biological
family also knows that, and the police in many countries also knows that, and
that is why I have been persecuted all my life, kidnapped, jailed,
imprisoned, brainwashed, tortured and raped, to intimidate me and fill me
with shame and guilt so I may shut up, but I will not, I have nothing to fear
except my life, and I did not even create it, neither my family did, God did,
so it is not mine that I fear about, it is belong to God, I have only the
freedom of choice that was stolen of me by my evil fake and biological
families. I have absolute no reason to love or even remotely like my fake or
biological families, because of the damages they performed on me, on my
children, at least on my officially one son Guenther Najar alias Anas Najar
alias Kane Najar alias Abdulhamid Najar, on my friendships, on my
girlfriends, on every one I know, and did not know.
So they can read my mind with out me knowing
despite of approving it, let us see what they are going to do when I dump all
my memory on the Internet and every thing
associated with it. This is what they feared since 1959, and now their fear
is coming to reality due to their own cruel, absolute compassionless and
violent bad doings. |
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We.
6.6.2007 |
Today I picked up the computer; the shop drove it
for me to the refugee camp. I had problem with the computer, which is I don’t
understand the Dutch language and I refuse to learn it, because I was
kidnapped in 1984/1986 from Germany and forced to be locked up in USA for 15
years and then the stupid Americans who kidnapped me instead of taking me
back home to Germany where they kidnapped me from they dropped me in Holland
and forced me to be refugee in a country I don’t speak it is language, I
don’t know any one in it, I have no resources in
it, I don’t’ know any thing about it except that it
is Holland/Dutch, and that is by far not enough for some
one to survive. But I don’t want to survive in Holland or any where, why do I have to survive, why should I not
live, I am dead, emotionally, and mentally since my last kidnapping,
specially that I discovered that every one I knew
was set on me for the purpose to not allow any one normal human come near me
and question me, help me or that I don’t really see how honest human are, I
read about them, in areas such in the new testament (the main book of the
bible) or hear about them from crocked people in the news who claim to be
honest but in reality they are concentrated evil, such as the Bush, Windsor,
Kennedy and Rockefeller families, I know that they are concentrated evil,
because many of their family members live other identities in my fake family
and perform all kind of crocked crimes under the flag of others. Any way I have problem with this computer that is
all in Dutch, I tried to get the operating system in English but allegedly no
one has it, and to publish on the Internet I would at least need Microsoft
Word in English. All the computers in the refugee camp computer room are
equipped with Microsoft Word 2003, but it is in Dutch and it is very
difficult for me to navigate with in, I solely depend on my experience from
prior to the year 2000 to navigate with in Microsoft Word the Dutch version.
Then I asked the secondhand computer shop to download for me the Microsoft
Office 2007 Trial version of Microsoft website, which he was kind enough and
did it for me. So I have a computer with Microsoft Windows XP professional Dutch
version which is bad enough for me because I can’t take full advantage of
Windows due to I don’t understand the menus in Dutch, but with a brand new
Microsoft Office 2007, which is with a very impressive design, and very user
friendly once you get use to it. It shows that many
had made their selves a lot of thoughts and help of the general public to
create this user friendly version of Microsoft Office. Disadvantages: 1.
It is a trial version and it is set to expire on 31.8.2007, around 75
days. 2.
If I want to install the trial version again after the expiration
date, I must reinstall Windows XP professional 3.
Then I must install Windows XP Dutch version again 4.
Then I must install the Windows XP Service Pack-2 Dutch version 5.
Then I must install Microsoft Office 2007 Trial version again 6.
And in all this I must have an Internet connection, because this is
the way Microsoft has developed it, I can’t install all these from CD, it
needs Internet to access Microsoft and get some kind of software approval
codes In short after 31.8.2007 it is socks for me. Why
can’t I do all this only through CDs like before? What about persons who has
no Internet access? which
is many people world wide!!. What did Microsoft
think by developing updates only through Internet in combination with
telephone calls to get the installation codes? I don’t have Internet, nor I have a telephone. Why do I need telephone? Who am I
going to call? All the persons I knew even in my church were against me, at least they had fake identities and lied to me about
their real identities. My ex-girlfriend who I thought I loved very much is
also with fake identity, she is American/English pretending to be German, on
top of that she is related to me and never told me, on top of that she is the
sister of Mrs. Margie Lange, Mrs. Margie Lange is the wife of Pastor Herbert
Lange, Pastor Herbert Lange is the one who peptized me in 1976 in
Unterschleissheim, Germany. Pastor Herbert Lange is in reality Scott Pierce
the official brother of ex-USA-first-lady Barbara Pierce Bush the official
mother of the current USA president George W. Bush and the wife of
ex-USA-president George H. W. Bush. My ex-girlfriend who I thought I loved
very much is also the daughter of Charlotte Ford and Stavros Niarchos, and
she never told me any of these relations, I had to find out by myself. My
ex-girlfriend Adelheid Kuczka who helped in making me paperless, ID less,
nationality less, and helped dramatically to place me oft in prison in the
last 5 years. This is no good. So who am I going to call my fake sisters and
brothers who put me her in first of all with the help of CIA, FBI and INS, my
fake brother and sisters who are members of a very cruel and large
international crime organization, who are Americans and English pretending to
be Syrians. Or my fake mother who is in reality a man disguised as a woman
and is the biological brother of queen Elizabeth II who helped in destroying
my life so she may eat five times chicken a day. The only one I think it is
worth to talk to is my partially innocent son Guenther Najar, but I have free
Internet and can email him with out having to worry
about long distance phone cal bills. |
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We.
30.5.2007 |
I decided to buy a PC/computer, because and even
though there is a computer room in the refugee camp with good access to the
Internet, yet I have many problems with that as follow: 1.
I can’t download from the Internet what ever
I need, such as software for my computer, or even compression program such as
PKzip 2.
There is opening time limitations which is officially Monday 9-13
hours and 13.30-16.30 hours, Tuesday 8.30-11 hours and 13.30-16.30,
Wednesday, Thursday and Friday 10-12 and 13.30-1630, every second Wednesday
and since two months from 10-12 reserved for women only. It sound good
timing, however my sleep is being constantly manipulated with ESP, so that I
oft can’t sleep until 4 or 5 and even 6 in the morning, and therewith I can’t
get up on time for the computer room, which has around 20 computers. This
mean I can mainly go in the after noon. In the after noon there are much more people than before noon,
and therefore the access for each person is limited to 90 minutes. This mean
all in all I can and in average access the computer and Internet only for
approximately 1.5-3 hours a day and that is not enough for my need and goal,
which is to expose my fake and biological family and all the crimes they
perform worldwide and then they blame it on others. 3.
I need much more time to create the web pages, this mean if I work for
8 hours a day creating web pages I would need at least 3-5 hours for
publishing over the Internet and testing what I published and fixing any
eventually over seen bugs/mistakes. This mean even if I go on time to the
computer room on all opening hours, it is not enough, beside what should I do
in my free time in this lock up at the refugee camp in a country I don’t
speak it’s language, I don’t know any one, I don’t have money, I am not
allowed to live any where else, I am not allowed to
work, I am not allowed to do any thing I want, I
have been put on ice, on the shelf on the side, un-functioned, with tide up
hands, mind, and life. On top of all that my alleged only son is also in a
refugee camp in Germany, he is today 21 years old and his life is dead and he
never did any thing to deserve this, in this
alleged free, democratic western world 4.
I never wanted to buy computer under my current circumstances, because
I want to go home back to Germany, and I am expecting to be through out, deported, placed on the street, getting
arrested, jailed or imprisoned, these are all the options of my past since
the year 2000, that they kept on repeating over and over again Any way I went to a secondhand computer shop and
made a deal with him that I buy a secondhand computer by paying weekly. I
receive 52 Euro weekly refugee money of the Dutch government, I told him I
pay week one by pick up 40 Euro, week-2 40 Euro, week-3 35 Euro, week-4 35
Euro, the computer is 150 Euro, with additional hard disk 160 Euro, this mean
week-5 10 Euro. He
agreed. |
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Fr.
4.5.2007 |
I went to the administration for some
thing I forgot what it was, but I also asked them to repair the fire
and smoke alarm. Later in they day the
administration and maintenance persons came to inspect the alarm, and they
asked me why is it damaged, I said some one damaged
it because it goes on each time they grill. They asked me is this grill
belonging to here, I said no, the persons who allegedly live here, brought it
from other persons. They took the grill (electric grill) with them,
confiscate it, and repaired the alarm this time in a few days and not in the
same day. Later in the evening around 10 o’clock the Iranians came and asked
where is their grill, I told them that the administration took it with them.
They threatened me and tried to scare me and blamed me that I complained
about the grill, I said I complained about the alarm. Any way to make long
story short, I left the room and I went to my room, which I do most of the
time any way. When ever some one come and sit in the living room I go to my room,
because I don’t want to talk to any one or have any
thing with any one, I don’t like any one, and I want to be alone. Later and
around 30 minutes, the Iranians asked me for some thing,
and I told them to go and buy it for their selves, then they said bye. All
this from behind the door because I am in my room and the door is locked, and
I don’t like these particular Iranians because of many reasons. After I was
sure that they left I went to the kitchen, and found all my stuff stolen,
Coffee machine, plates, silverware, food, coffee, fruits, vegetables, and every thing else, which is around 30-40 Euro worth, and
since 52 Euro is my weekly income, it is a lot for me. It was Friday night
and I had no more money for this week and no more food. I knew they stole my food
as revenge. I went to the refugee camp reception and complained, but they did
nothing, the police station is right next to the camp, I went there and
complained, they gone and talked to these Iranians in their other apartment
and took them to the station and confronted us. The Iranians denied every thing. However it turned out that they are not
supposed to live in the apartment I am in, but rather one of the Iranian
apartment inmates gave them his key. Any way I lost all my stuff again, but I
gained a new idea, While I was at the police station and waiting I saw a
monitor, TV like that shows wanted persons, their crimes and their
descriptions. At that time I was having hard time about how to place the
information I want on the Internet, and here I had the idea to create a
wanted person sites just like in the police station. Today I know the whole
incident was staged including stealing my stuff to force me to go to the
police so, among others, I may see the wanted
persons pages/list. This is very similar to an incident that happened to me
in 1978 in Unterschleissheim, Germany I was also tricked by the police to see
a wanted terrorist in the post office that I thought I saw one day prior to
that, it was a woman. This mean some one is reading
my mind and manipulating my surroundings to do what it fit them. The
administration gave the grill back to the Iranians, they insisted to do it in
my presence, but I did not get back any of my stolen goods. |
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Th.
3.5.2007 |
They grilled again; they do that every day as if some one wants indirectly to tell me some
thing, such as we hear you. Today they damaged the two alarm again on
purpose so it may not go on when they grill |
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Following weeks of that first week of April 2007 (19.6.2007) |
The apartment inmates cook oft very late at midnight
and stay up also very late, which is difficult to come to peace of mind. Also
and since this grilling incident and each time they grill, the fire alarm
goes on, which is very annoying, even on midnight. In the Apartment I am in
there are two fire/smoke alarms, one in the living room very close to the
kitchen and one in the hallway. My constant grilling inmates damaged the two
alarms on purpose so they may not go on when they grill. The next day there
was an inspection by the administration on the apartment functionalities and
cleanliness, and they noticed the two damaged alarms which they promptly
replaced with new ones. I believe that it was all planned. First they damaged
the alarm, and then the maintenance/administration people suddenly inspect
the apartment and replace the alarm. But the future will show. In general I
try my best not to take any advantage of any of the services offered in the
refugee camp, I just stay in my room or apartment
until pay day and then go shopping for the whole week and stay in the
apartment the whole week. So even if I get sick I try to help myself and not
go to the doctor which is only a couple of buildings far within the same
refugee camp specially for refugees, but under my current forced upon me
circumstances I refuse to take any thing from any
one. |
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Following week of that April 2007 day (19.6.2007) |
The refugee camp is divided into apartments, each
has kitchen, toilette, shower/ washing (washing machine and dryer) room, a
joint living/dinning room and in the apartment I am
in 4 rooms, each with two beds for two persons, this
mean 8 persons in the apartment. Every refugee has to register once a week on
Wednesday by the refugee camp administration and by the immigration police
between 10 and 12 in the morning. I share the room with a young man from
Nepal, he is very quite and polite, but I hardly
see him he comes only on Wednesday to register. Another room has an alleged
Syrian and Iranian, which I saw only a few times. The other two rooms have
Iranian in it. Most of the persons and since a few weeks comes only on
Tuesday evening so they can register by the authority and then they leave on
Wednesday. This mean, and thanks God, I am finally alone. But in this week of
April I was not, and after what happen last week, and suddenly some new
Iranian are in the apartment and they have suddenly a grill and they use it
at least once a day many times they use it twice and some
times even three times a day to grill chicken, whereby the whole
apartment would then stink of the grilled chicken. For me this is no
coincident, this is on purpose, they are repeating or performing what I
complained about last week, trying to eat five times chicken a day and
grilling middle of the apartment on a daily bases. |
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Some
times in April 2007 (19.6.2007) |
I live in a refugee camp in Holland with people I
don’t want to live with, specially that some or many of them provoke me for
the purpose to make me say what is on my mind or what I think or know about
certain subject. So today and after I was positive who is my biological
family, which is the Windsor family in England, and considering what happen
to me and how I was persecuted by my evil family, I was angry, disappointed
and very sad, and lost my nerves and complained very loud about my biological
family, and that they are thieves, drug lords, war criminals and many other
bad things that I discovered in my past about them, so I said that they have
no brain they do all this destruction worldwide for nothing else but for food
to fill their own stupid stomach and eat chicken five times a day. Also I had
some opinion differences with one of the in-mates, who was totally
unconsidered in that they allegedly smoke opium in some kind self made smoking jar similar to water pipe, and I hate
drugs near me, so I told him/them they should smoke it in their room or out side but not where it is a joint living room for every one, and I gave him the example how would you like
it if I get I grill and set it in the middle of the room and start to grill
and make the whole place stinky. All in all these are two statements that I
gave of myself: first statement: my family perform crimes on cost of others lives just to eat chicken five times a day, second
statement: placing a grill in the middle of the room . |
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