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Sa.
18.08.2007 |
See disclaimer
for the new update. Last night I could not sleep early
due to all the sleep torture I was going through in the past in form of sleep
prevention, interruption and distortion. I watched TV and finally I went to
sleep at around 4 o’clock in the morning. One hour later I was wakened up
through ESP. Then I went back to sleep after I smoked a couple of cigarettes.
2 hours later I was wakened up again by ESP, but this time violently through
inflicting pain upon my leg muscles, that made me screams. Which they used to
do a lot to me in USA and especially in Houston, Texas. All in all and since
I was taken by force of ESP to USA in 1984/86, the following ESP sicknesses
and pain infliction was performed up on me: 1.
Pain
on my teeth until the majority of them are damaged 2.
Pain
on my leg muscles 3.
Pain
in my ears 4.
Pain
in my left eye 5.
Prevented
me to go to sleep or waked me up after short period 6.
Inflicting
pain in my hands and face through air/water bubbles 7.
Creating
red and large spots all over my arms and upper body, which the dermatologist
called it fungal infection, and I believed him at that time, especially that
I was taken to him through the CIA whore Najlaa Mahmoud and her whore
daughter Suzanne Khodor, and therewith he worked with them against me. Which
I don’t have any more since I am in Holland 8.
Breathing
problems that the public Hospital of Houston, Texas, called it Asthma and I
believed them, it turned out it was punishment and distraction of my free
thinking, in other words and each time I think about something that is
related to my situation I suddenly had breathing problems and was forced to
concentrate on it and by the time the breathing problem is gone, I forgot
already what I was trying to think about. The hospital prescribed for me an
alleged asthma spray, which also I don’t need it since I am in Holland 9.
Fungal infection all over my feet that I
can’t get ready off since 1990s in Houston, Texas. Even though I took a lot of medication to get ready of
it, yet I can’t. Each time I was in prison or refugee camp, I used to go to
the doctor, then he examined me and gave me cream anti-fungal infection that
I oft took for several weeks and partially several months, and never helped,
but also I was prescribed several times bills/tablets for it and I was told I
should give it a couple of months to work, and it never worked. Today I know
it is all evil ESP manipulation. Today I
am around 58 years old, and when I get to think about it and after I get
Christian in 1976 and until 1978 I had much more pain problems, in my legs,
my ears, my eyes, my arms and my entire body than now. In 1976 I was around
24-27 years old and supposedly much healthier than now, yet and despite the
pain inflicted today upon me by ESP, which I can today recognize as ESP
manipulation, some how I feel much healthier physically today than in 1976,
this mean I don’t have as much physical problems as I did have in 1976 and
that is a paradox, but it is very easily to explain. In 1976 and as I get
Christian in Unterschleissheim/ Lohhof, Germany, I was very evilly and
heavily persecuted by ESP, much more than today, to prevent me of getting
free and find out that my family is not my biological family and therewith
find out all the crimes they performed and who is my biological family is,
and who are some of the members of my fake family and their real identities.
Also I suspect I did not have adult enough children with ESP at that time who
possibly prevented many ESP pain inflicted upon me, and those children of
mine that were stolen were told lies about me and about my situations, mental
status, sexual orientation, and honesty, and therefore many of them fought me
because they were raised to fight me and be used against me, and I recognize
some of them that turned to be very evil just like the people that raised
them, one of those children that I just recently recognized, is an alleged
Palestinian that owned a Video store in Schleissheimer street in 1985-1986 in
Munich, Germany, and that piece of shit helped with his ESP the CIA, Syrian
military intelligence that was present at that time in the illegal
American/English/Syrian military intelligence project called Calypso, and I
was forced with ESP through all these piece of shit and stupid to be with
Najlaa Mahmoud and later was kidnapped to USA where I was totally lost
between all these piece of shit of Bush, Rockefeller, Kennedy, Windsor and
other messed up families and all their hidden businesses that destroyed my
logic, mental state, emotional state and my entire I, and therewith
enslaved me to cover up for all what is in my life which is related to those
crocked minded and messed up people that set my fake family together out of
their own family members which held me hostage all my life and until today,
just because I am the only official and legitimate son of the last king of
England, King George VI that allegedly died in February 1952 officially 8
months before my birth, biologically and in reality almost 3 years after my
birth. But also I am related to the piece of shit George H. W. Bush, most
probably his half brother, and that is why he was fighting me publicly since
at least 1975/76, since he was director of the CIA and set on me his brothers-in-law
Scott Pierce disguised as pastor Herbert Lange in the Evangelical Lutheran
church, and his second brother-in-law James Robinson Pierce disguised as my
employer Mr. Hoegl, both in 1976 and in Unterschleissheim, Germany. But
also fighting me in the hidden since at least 1959 and since he and his
official brother William H. T. Bucky Bush alias my fake cousin Farhat Kheir
kidnapped me from USA to Damascus, Syria in 1959 in cooperation of his
official but fake brother Prescott Sheldon Bush Junior alias Rockefeller
family member and related to Dr. Kubie from Rockefeller Medical research
center in New York alias Mr. Kabani the official brother-in-law of my fake
uncle Jawdat Baroudi alias member of the Rockefeller family in USA and
Porsche family in Germany, that had several look a like and I did not see him
since 1966/1970, what I saw after 1966/1970 was 100% look a like. The
original Jawdat Baroudi was 100% a Rockefeller member that was simultaneously
an official member of the government of the United States of America, most
probably in the Senate or Congress and simultaneously member of the Exxon
managerial group either as CEO, CFO or member of the Exxon board. He is a
very evil man, that caused a lot of grieve for millions of people in USA,
Europe and the Middle East, but also caused me a lot of pain in my life to
cover up the fact who he is. I will recognize that piece of shit of
Rockefeller even if he is one of 100 look a like, because I remember him very
well, just as I remember the piece of shit Fuad Khayat, Samiyath Khayat and
other no good and messed up people of the Rockefeller and Windsor families. I
will hunt them down as they hunt foxes in England and buffalos in USA, and
like rats in the ghettos that they created for their slaves, those greedy,
stupid, cruel, vicious and sadistic pieces of shit. My life is very sad, at least for
me, and I don’t wish it for any one, not even for my enemies, unfortunately
my number one enemies are my biological immediate family members. Personally I
never made enemies, or saw enemy in any one or in any thing, yet many people
saw in me an enemy and made me in the hidden to enemy number one to them and
their countries that they control officially and to the countries they
control in the hidden such as England, Germany, USA, Syria, Israel, Jordan,
Palestine, Lebanon, Egypt and Saudi Arabia. All those countries persecuted me
with their secret service organizations, terrorist and crime organizations
and the result of all these persecution is, I am here over 58 years old,
locked up, yet as if I have never existed on this earth, and locked up as if
I am an alien from another planet that every one is scared of me, or may be
afraid of my feet fungal infection, that was created by ESP as part of
additional stress and distraction of the mind, on the bases, a little bid
here, a little bid there, a little bid of this and a little bid of that, all
together is a very bad mix for an individual that was brainwashed and has no
idea what is going on around him for so long, and suddenly is trying to clean
up his surroundings of his own life, yet it is too many obstacles laid in my
way or life by so many people that all of them forced me to think that they
all were angels and wanted the best for me, which is death. |
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Fr.
17.08.2007 |
See disclaimer
for the new update. I received a letter of my asylum
attorney that was forced upon me and I have no choice of attorney, the letter
stating that he received a letter of the Dutch immigration authorities
stating that they would need another and up to 15 weeks to allegedly decide
on my political asylum application of November 2005, and that I am Syrian.
First I did not apply for political asylum and I will never in my future
apply for political asylum, if I can’t go back home to Germany and with a
German citizenship is not worth it for me to live in this world, because I
was setup my entire life to be homeless, paperless and nationality-less by
the governments of Syria, Egypt, Jordan, USA, England, Germany Holland, my
fake family and my biological family the piece of shit Windsor in England and
Bush, Rockefeller, Kennedy in USA, my
church Evangelical Lutheran church in Unterschleissheim Germany, the
Evangelical Lutheran church of Bridgeport, Connecticut USA and every piece of
shit Moslem that I ever met in my life from Egypt to Europe and USA but also
from India such as the piece of shit CIA agent Khalid Mian who lives in
Germany and pretend to be from India. And therewith is not worth it to live.
If I don’t get the German citizenship now, this mean there is absolute no
justice or freedom in USA, Europe or Germany that is 100% controlled by piece
of shit American, English, French and Russian military, whereby Russian
military is hidden now in the same form as the American and English military
is hidden in Syria, Jordan, Lebanon, Palestine, Egypt and other so called
Arab countries. Beside I am not Syrian and since 1970 my life is being
terrorized in many ways, and one of them I am always threatened to be deported
to Syria, a country filled with thugs and controlled by thugs that have
nothing in mind except drugs, money and food to fill up their stupid stomach
as much as they can. Syria it is the hidden terrorist county of the rich of
our world such as the Windsor, Bush, Rockefeller, Kennedy, Quandt and many
other disloyal, greedy, stupid that sell out their own children and grand
children for money, at least they sold me and all my children for money and
greed. If they want to deport me because I am saying the truth as I know it,
if they want to deport me because I am defending myself and saying who is the
responsible persons for my situation, if they want to deport me because they
want to cover up most of the facts in this website, if they want to deport me
because of all my anger, disappointment and sadness, and if they want to
deport me to a country I was not even born in it and I was only kidnapped to
it and forced to live in it for approximately one year, where they
brainwashed me as a child, wiped off my memory, manipulated my look by
illegal human cosmetic surgery performed by the piece of shit Rockefeller and
bush family jointly, to a country that faked my identity and stamped on my
Syrian as they did to tens of thousands of stolen luxury cars from Germany
and taken to Syria and stamped on them Syria and sold them in all over the
Middle East through out 1970s and 1980s, let them do, I don’t care to live
with thugs any where in this world. I either go back
home to Munich, Germany where I was kidnapped by these stupid or not live and
that is it. I will expose each piece of shit one of them with out any regard
to loyalty to any biological relation or friendship, because and among others
they were all fake. As a
result of all what happened to me in the last two weeks, I was not able to
create as many personal profiles of the persons persecuting me as I want. I
should be able to create at least 50-60 profiles weekly, yet the last two
weeks is getting less and less, until last week was only 23 profiles, and this
week most probably less than 10, who profits through that?? At least those
persons I am creating profiles about them, but also CIA, and many crime
organizations that have many members of their organizations as ones of the
persons surrounding me by force and tricks and I am creating a profiles about
them. They are always defending their actions with fake situation and bunch
of lies, that most people think it is
true or reality, such as the enemy number one in 1960s-1980s is the ex-Soviet
Union and their alleged communist allies, then it is the Palestinian
terrorists, then it is US and English survival interest in petroleum, then it
is Dutch and other alleged Europeans survival interest in petroleum and
Natural Gas, then it is the World Trade Center Bombing, Then it is the
alleged evil Jewish with their alleged Zionist expansion ambition in the
Middle East, then it is the International terrorism under the alleged control
of one man, Osama Ben Laden, a CIA employee and spy of the Bush, Windsor,
Kennedy and Rockefeller families to eliminate their own business competitions
worldwide in illegal and legal business in one hit under the pretension of
fighting terrorism. Osama Ben Laden a man that in reality is a very stupid
(not intelligent man) and not capable to lead to any thing good and in
particular in unifying world terrorism, because unification is good,
terrorism is bad and this alone is a paradox, and a paradox is an expression
defined by human of things they don’t want other human to understand. Then it
is Iraq that was never able to be proved and linked to international
terrorism and mass destruction weapons, yet and today every one is talking
only about a daily hundreds of dead in Iraq by the international terrorist
Osama Ben Laden and Bush administration made up Al Qaida international
terrorist organization to justify land expansion (stealing), to cover up for
the mass drug plantation by his family members and business associates in the
Middle East, and many other different crimes performed by his family members
disguised under other identities in the Middle East, I know that because I am
of the family and I am absolutely disgusted of their limited capability of
being peaceful and productive, imaginative and creational. A combination that
is only to see by absolute intelligence, where ever it does not exist such as
by the Bush family it is 100% due to lack of intelligence, and these people
rule the great United States of America. Then and as the Germans say: Na, dann prost und feritgott. As
the American say and don’t mean it, God Bless the United States of America.
Blessing means honesty, integrity, loyalty, caring and love for every one,
even your own enemy. All these ingredients that are absolutely missing by
my fake and biological families, the
Windsor in England and all their allies in Europe, Asia and elsewhere , Bush,
Rockefeller and Kennedy in USA and all their hidden allies and family members
in the Middle East. Love for every one, even your enemy, because the enemy
that is raised to be enemy is sick (brainwashed) and need caring, love and
nurturing until he understand there is no need for animosity. |
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Sa.
14.07.2007 |
2001 I started realizing and
because of the evil brainwash performed on me jointly by Americans, Israeli,
English, Syrians and my fake family, I had severe problem gathering my
thoughts or even set relation to any thing I know or even newly get to know,
and that was an important element of my brainwash to not understand or
recognize any thing. And since what they did to me is based on their
experience, this means they do that to others, and I hope and with this web
site others recognize their surroundings and who is really for or against
them. Because they always pretend to be the friend of their victims or even
their enemies, and they force their victim and enemy to believe that through
a very cruel, sadistic and vicious brainwash. What a bitty that they waste
their brain, mind and intelligence on this life style, and what is even worth
is that they tell their selves, or lie to their selves or they have been
lying for so long that they believe their own lies, that what they do is for
the benefit of the general population, and that they make letterly Billions
yearly of drugs, stealing and misusing public funds to kill others to steal
what they have is their legitimate right because they are superior because
they have ESP, they think it is their reward for their life style, they think
(or lack of it) every one else is created to serve them. They are really not
capable to create or invent. With drug and killing money they buy big company
shares and sit on their asses pretending to have worked honestly and hard
their entire life to become queen, king, president, minister, owner of
millions of shares of General Motors, BMW Mercedes , Boeing, AEG or hundred
others they bought with blood money of their own relatives and
countrymen/countrywomen. Then they claim look what I made out of BMW or
Boeing or Mercedes. And I look and see bunch of thugs stealing shares of
these companies legally by purchasing them with illegal blood money. Boeing
for example, is managed by punch of crocks who build special Boeing airplanes
that was designed to hide huge amount of drugs, so did Mercedes with their
trucks, or even General Motors. Boeing is not capable honestly to develop
some thing their selves, so they steal it or sabotage their competition such
as Air Bus or McDowell Douglas and many others. And some members of my stupid
family are 100% the saboteurs of Air Bus for Boeing in Germany and Europe
such as Dr. Farzat Baroudi. Or General Electric and their partners sabotaged
the Atomic Energy plans, research and development in Germany and brought it
to a total stop, just so they may be able to sell more Atomic Energy plants
worldwide and have monopoly, but also to be able to sell more electric to
house holds and businesses in Germany and else where in the world. That tells
me that General Electric the biggest electronic company in USA is absolutely
stupid because they only rely on eliminating competition instead on how to
increase the chances of every one to be able to have his own fare share of
daily energy. General Electric was founded by a thief and ever since they
follow his foot steps. Tom Edison is the founder of General Electric, Tom
Edison who stole all of his ideas and invention of other scientists and
claimed it to be his and even registered over one thousand of it as patent to
eliminate any possibility of the actual inventor to develop his own
invention, and that is what patent is all about, stealing and quickly
register it as yours before the real inventor. And exactly here is the prove that they are stupid; because when concentrating
on the actual well fare of individuals, this will help much more individuals
to have more fare shares of energy and therewith increase the revenue. You cant follow money and the well fare of others at the same
time, you can only follow the welfare of others, which brings an unexpected
hidden treasures behind it, which is a new conscious consumer, that have
money to spend on any thing he needs and wants. But these people can’t think
so far, they only see money and what they can buy with it for their selves
and how quick they can make more money to buy more things for their selves.
And the best way to make quick money and make others dramatically suffer and
not pay taxes is to sell illegal drugs which is estimated to be yearly one
Billion Euro per one Million population worldwide and it brings at least and
pure 30% net profit for the head of the crime organization, that is controlled
by my family in USA, Europe and at least in the Middle East, however I have
solid prove that it goes to Africa, entire South Asia and many parts of South
America. And that is one of the major reasons in the continuous wars in the
Middle East, which is to hide the huge amount of illegal drug plants in that
area, which has been secret for so long, and every one is busy with the man
created wars to cover up for what is in this website. And therewith
Afghanistan is 100% cover up for the Middle East. Therefore, it was planned
by my family to link Afghanistan to the biggest and most stupid and ridicules
lie of our century, which is Afghanistan has 75% of opium of the world, it is
impossible, scientifically impossible, infrastructure wise is impossible,
business wise it is impossible, worldwide connection it is impossible and
revenue wise it is impossible. 75% of opium of the world would letterly means
uncountable hundreds of Billions of Euros every single year, this would
definitely make Osama Ben Laden richer than King Solomon and his alleged
hidden treasures, and this will make Osama Ben Laden the richest man ever and
for all times. One lie like the other King Solomon or Osama Ben Laden. Beside
China alone have 10 times more opium plantations than Afghanistan; one very
visible reason is because most Chinese smoke opium and they have more than
ten times the population of Afghanistan. But also India has 10 times more
opium and drug plantations than Afghanistan because the majority smokes opium
and they have more than 10 times the population than Afghanistan. Beside
India or China will not import their much needed and used opium of others who
are against them this mean they make their enemy richer to control them, this
would mean Osama Ben Laden and with his uncountable hundreds of Billions of
Euros out of at least 15 years Afghanistan opium plantations to cover 75% of
the world need, would have to control the government of India and China,
because and in reality, with money you can control a country. But I don’t see
Osama Ben Laden traveling the streets of India and/or China in an open car
waving to people who salute him and think they love him, like they usually do
to many members of my family in England, Germany,
USA, Syria, Egypt, Jordan and other countries. Osama Ben Laden is a criminal
and that is a fact, but it was all part of the plan to present to the world
the head of all the crimes of the world, a scapegoat for the real messed up
people going around in their open cars waving to people pretending to love
the well fare of the people and think we just give people what they want,
they want drugs so we give them drugs, they want God and some one to believe
in, we give them Gods (plural) to believe in and look up to, we give them
variety of religions, we give them a choice, to believe in what we give them
or be persecuted, expelled, forced to mass migration or even being killed,
and we can always blame it on Osama Ben Laden, hidden Nazis, Russian Mafia,
Italian Mafia, the cruel royalties, Iran, North Korea or any thing else no
one can verify, see or touch. Osama Ben laden and his myth of power world
wide have only been repeated over and over again in all media owned by the
persons who go around in an open cars waving to the people. It is a circle of
lies and evil that has to stop now PERIOD. |
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Sa.
14.07.2007 |
This week the Iranian lives in the
same refugee apartment as I do, came on Tuesday with his alleged Dutch girl
friend and stayed until Thursday, doing nothing but bugging me, I would not waste
my time on what they did and how they behaved, nor I think it is worth it to
waste time on them of even thinking of them, because they were set on purpose
with me by the refugee camp administration. They know I don’t want any one
around me and in particular stupid women who have nothing else to do with
their life than coming to my apartment and pretend some thing they are not. I
was very upset, angry and bugged by them and their presence near me. And the
result was I was not able to continue writing but around 5 records in 3 days,
my external computer hard disk fell down and broke, which had all my data in
it, which cost it 15 Euro to fix that I did not have, and it cost me at least a
whole day to rearrange and back up my data in case of future accident, or was
it no accident? Thank you every one for
terrorizing my life, misleading me, feeding me with wrong information just to
suite your purpose. Some times I think I am surrounded only by mentally sick
people. In reality many of them are mentally sick, any one is not capable to
stop pretension, and pretend to be some thing he/she is not is mentally sick,
is afraid to show the truth or his/her own reality. The refugee camp is
filled with people with fake identity, people who claim to be of a country they
are not from, just because this country has political or war problem and is
therewith more likely to be accepted as refugee, or others make up fake
refugee story that is heart breaking just to be accepted as refugees. No one
is welling to set or put his life
honestly on the table, and that tells me there is some thing very wrong in
our society, especially when and through this pretension many others have to
suffer or even be killed. Some times I just want to run away
of all my past and surrounding, but I can’t because of many reasons: 1.
I
am locked up 2.
I
have no papers that proves my real identity and permit me to move where I
want to go freely, or even just go any where but this stupid refugee camp in
Holland or any other refugee camp, jail or prison 3.
I
have to continue to expose all my fake family and what they do world wide 4.
I
have to show that all the suffering I immediately saw around me is not only
man made, but also and very sadistically and cruelly planed and performed
based on a personal gain plan 5.
I
have to find all my stolen children and at least they must know the truth and
reality of what is surrounding them for sadistic, cruel, violent and absolute
vicious people that are using them for their own personal benefit, which is
going to be hard, because most people think what they know is not only the
only existing knowledge but also the only true knowledge or reality, and I
can’t blame them for what they have been feed year after year in their mind
and brain, which is all they have, regardless if it is good or not. It is
their personality. But I would not allow them to be like my family,
regardless if they have ESP or not, regardless if they can force me to do
things with their ESP or not. Being like my fake family is not just like a
monster, it is a monster of destruction. And a monster is an expression of an
entity that has no brain or feeling, it just follow it is instincts of
eating, sleeping even over dead bodies. Human have intelligence that permit
them to do any thing they want in this universe, yet the majority of us
misuse their intelligence to cunning, stealing, cheating, and killing others
for the purpose of stealing, cheating and only feeding their selves but not
others. And what is worth is that they use their own children, friends many
family members, country, or any other human and bunch of lies to reach their
personal gains |
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Tu.
03.07.2007 |
Many
things happened since I last wrote some thing in this daily dairy on So.
24.6.2007. First I should really write on a daily basis, which I wanted, but
some how I am being prevented. Among others through the following two points: 1.
I am trying to give all my time to
list all those individuals who build an international crime organization and
are among others members of my fake family and persecuted me my entire life 2.
I am being set up and my life is
being manipulated in a very sadistic and vicious way by the people I am
forced to live with, which it has a very negative influence on what I do,
think or even behave, therefore, I am trying to eliminate problems in my life
and not accumulate them, and one way under my current circumstances is by
being alone This
could mean that some one does not want me to write down the facts I know about
my family and therefore I am being prevented. Or they are trying to get ready
of me, by making it impossible for me to live in this refugee apartment so I
may leave voluntarily, and therewith I stop publishing about my family, who
are worldwide criminal organization. Also
last week I received two or three emails of my fake sister Fadia Nagar, but I
did not want to read them and I did not read them. I don’t read email of my
brainwashers and persecutors. If she wants she can email photos of my evil
family members such as my fake uncles who are all famous Americans and
English. She has the photos. I can recall one photo that I had, which was
five women together to represent five generation in my fake family, from my
fake grand mother Samiyath Khayat/Baroudi alias queen Mary of Teck, her
daughter (my fake mother) Hayat Baroudi alias twin brother or sister of queen
Elizabeth II, her grand daughter (my fake sister) Suhair Bdeir, her grand grand daughter (my fake niece) Basmath Bdeir/Alami and
her grand grand grand daughter
the daughter of my fake niece I forgot her name. A brainwash photograph it
was from mid 1970s and it was given to me after I became Christian |
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Mo
02.07.2007 |
Today
is really Tu. 9.7.2007 and I am writing what happen since So. 24.6.2007 when
I last wrote in this daily dairy. I will limit my entry to the essentials in
the last a few days. 1.
They brought two new alleged Iranian
refugees in to the apartment I am in 2.
And I am feeling being terrorized by
them, due to all their aggressive behavior, carelessness, inconsidered,
ignorance and they brought back the vicious sadistic Iranian in to the
apartment who terrorized my life for several weeks and then stole all my
belonging in the kitchen 3.
They are absolute mentally sick
people, they have nothing in mind except setting me up, I don’t have to like
them and I don’t have to live with them, yet I have no choice, the government
stole my choice 4.
I asked the administration to place
me alone in a room or apartment 5.
I asked the medical center 6.
I even asked the police 7.
But they are always forcing me to
live with people I don’t trust, or even like 8.
I want to go back home to Germany
where they kidnapped me from, if not I want to be alone 9.
I am not allowed to go back home,
instead and in the refugee camp they always set me up and provoke. 10.
Who places me with these people? The
refugee camp administration, even I asked them many times to place me alone 11.
The more they place me with these
kind of people the more I hate them all and hate the Americans and my stupid family
who kidnapped me and caused all this suffering to me 12.
Today I complained to the
administration about the new refugees and partially what they are doing in
the apartment, I lost my faith and trust in Dutch government long time ago I
really don’t like the Dutch, but I have contradiction in that, out side the
camp it is all peaceful and very nice people, kind, polite, and considerate,
in the camp is another world, at least surrounding me, they are all vicious,
sadistic, careless, in-considered, lazy, unhygienic, think as if they own the
place, don’t care about any thing or any one but their selves. Living with
these people make you hate your life and your self, at least I hate my life
and my self, specially that I can’t achieve one thing in my life which is
going back home to Germany or at least be alone, live alone, among others to
eliminate many problems that are being caused mainly by the people I am being
forced to live with All
in all, I absolutely don’t feel well, not mentally nor emotionally, because I
am being forced to live with these people. May be it is time to confront the
Dutch with why I have conflicts about liking them: these are the reasons from 1977 and until
today |
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So.
24.6.2007 |
My
entire sleep timing was missed up over this weekend. Today I woke up very
late around noon, after I slept around 8 hours last night. Actually I did not
feel for any thing. I watched TV from around 8 in the evening until 6 in the
morning. 10 hours TV, that is not good, but I have nothing else to do when I
don’t feel like writing. Any way I will not watch TV for more than a film,
which is 2-3 hours at one given time. Actually I hate TV, and if I have a
choice I could and would do some thing else of many things on my mind, but I
am in a situation, location and country I don’t want to be in and this since
1986. Finally took a shower, washed my cloths and cleaned a few things that
were bothering me. It is past one o’clock in the morning and I don’t know
what to do because I woke up late today, just before noon, so I don’t feel
sleepy yet. |
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Sa.
23.6.2007 |
Also
today my sleep was manipulated with ESP. I did not have enough good sleep in
the last couple of days, I am very tired. |
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Fr.
22.6.2007 |
After
I went to sleep last night, immediately thereafter I was waken up by some
asshole with ESP, thereafter I could not go to sleep until early in the
morning. Today I scanned several photos and documents that I will publish in
the next a few days and weeks. |
|
Th.
21..6.2007 |
Last
night, Wednesday, I was very tired because I did not have enough sleep in the
last a few days, and I had one liter bier with my dinner, which was Frozen
pizza and fresh spinach salad, therefore I went to bed around 11 o’clock in
the evening, but I was prevented by ESP to go to sleep. At midnight I left my
bed and added more wanted persons profiles, then I went to sleep at around
2-3 o’clock in the morning. I was very tired, exhausted, and my body started
to aching. Also I was waked up by ESP at around 6 o’clock in the morning,
which really disturbed my sleep, therefore I could not wake up early, I woke up at 10.45 with disturbed sleep. This is hidden
physical and psychological torture. Yesterday, the secondhand computer shop
owner was so kind to lend me a scanner, which is a HP multi purpose scanner,
copier, and printer, therefore I need special driver, which I don’t have, I
will down loaded from the Internet and scan the photos and documents that I
have and publish some of them next week. |
|
We.
20.6.2007 |
Last
night I could not sleep until around 3 O’clock in the morning, which happens
to me every Tuesday. Why always Tuesdays? What is different on Tuesdays? Every
refugee in camp have to register on Wednesday between 10 and 12 in the morning
by the administration and immigration police, therefore, many refugees who
live far away of the camp and in other cities they come on Tuesday evening
and sleep in the camp overnight so they may make it on time at 10-12 o’clock,
especially that there is no train stop in town, so it could take 5-7 hours to
come to the camp from other cities. Since
I know that I my sleep is being manipulated by ESP through some cruel
persons, so they want me to think it is some refugee who comes on Tuesday and
while he is in the camp he/she manipulate my sleep. But it is not necessary
true, because I can’t see who is using ESP on me, nor his location, IT could
be a woman, a man or even a child. Beside he could be in England, Germany,
USA or a residence of the city where the refugee camp is. Whatever the reason
or location of that person, he is stupid, because he can’t find some thing
productive to do with his life beside disturbing my sleep and manipulating my
thoughts or surroundings. |
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Tu.
19.6.2007 Today |
It
is 13.10 in the after noon. I wanted to go to the Internet to publish what I
have so far. But some how I don’t feel like it. May be because on Tuesday
afternoon there are most visitors and I will definitely be allowed only for
90 minutes and that is not enough to publish, test and fix bugs. I will try
to publish at least Every Monday Morning which is a good day after the
weekend, where I can accomplish at the most. But for this week I will go
tomorrow in the after noon to publish, because before noon is only for women,
which is an absolute waste, to reserve 20-25 computers just for a couple of
ladies my guess 3-5. Beside why does every one has to make a difference and
separations between human, women’s day, children’s day, youth day, elderly
day, white people’s day, Asian day, African day, where is the limit, where is
human’s day? Or better yet Human’s Life! |
|
Tu.
18.6.2007 Today |
Yesterday
I was working on my publishing until around 2 o’clock in the morning. I wake
up this morning 15 minute before my alarm, it was 7.45. Since 9 O’clock I am
writing on what I am going to publish today. It is unusual for me to wake up
before the alarm especially after going to bed so late. Actually this is what
I was trying to do for very long time; it is so long a go that I forgot when
it was. I always wanted to wake up early in the morning and go to sleep early
to be able to catch the day at the beginning, but I was always prevented by
ESP. At least since 1976, the year where I officially and partially
voluntarily became Christian, partially because I was tricked by my stupid
attorney to become Christian, his name was Ralf Bossi a very famous attorney
in Germany through out 1970s and until 1990s. Voluntary, because and after I
get to read the new testament, I was impressed and some how felt lost and
found. One thing is for sure, you can’t beat the logic within the words of
Jesus. For me it was just like when I first started to work with Microsoft
Office 2007, at first I thought: what is all that, where are all the stuff
and menus that I am used to, but quickly thereafter and after I started
playing around, experimenting and exploring it, I felt in love with it,
specially that I worked with so many other word processors since 1982. And
this is exactly what happen to me when I started to read the new testament, I
immediately compared it with what I knew at that time which was what I
learned in the public school in Cairo, Egypt 1960 through out 1969, which is
Quran and Islam. Then I started to realize two things simultaneously: first
is that the new testament is very human oriented, timeless compassionate,
intelligent and some how innocent. Second: I suddenly realized how wrong my
fake family was; at that time I did not know that my family is not my family.
Also I just realized that my fake family is not only far of being human but
also they don’t even practice what they claim to be, which is Moslem, they
never practice it, then I realized they have two faces, one face to the
public we are practicing Moslems, and the other face is in not public which
is screw religion we can do what we want with any one, any where any time.
But I did not know what to think of these findings because I was heavily
persecuted with ESP at that time in 1976-1978, but I did not know it was ESP
I just registered it as bad situations and that I was doing things I don’t
want to do, I don’t think this way, and I don’t approve of my own doing, I
blamed it on at that time bad marriage and separation of my wife. But today I
have no doubt in my mind my wife at that time, Anita Disbray, had ESP and she
was a very cruel person, but also CIA, Mosad were persecuting me among others
with the help of James Robinson Pierce alias
Mr. Hoegl and Scott Pierce alias Herbert Lange
my pastor. Enough of that. Today
I started writing my daily dairy, I started back dated with “Some times in
April 2007”. I knew that there is many persons or people with ESP (= Extra
Sensory Perception = Telepathy + Telekinesis + others) Telepathy means
thoughts on distance, just like telephone means sound on distance telegraph
means letters/signs on distance and all other tele’s.
This mean people can read my thoughts but also
manipulate them, place thoughts in my mind and this if I want or not.
Therefore and because only some people read my mind with out my approval, I
share every thing with every one who is interested of knowing some of the
hidden secrets of our lives. We created (or discovered and developed = human
creation!!??) Telephone, Television, Telegraph, TeleText,
Telex, Internet (maybe it should be Telenet/TeleConnect/TeleConnection or
plainly what it is in reality TeleHuman/TeleSences!!??), and we can’t be better than our all
teacher, which is God, he crated some thing better long before we did all
that and more, and much better, which is ESP, with out cabling, wires,
switches, modems, hubs or any other substituted help. The question why some
have ESP and some not? He is in reality teaching us how to do it, and best
prove for that is that we are imitating our capabilities; we are not capable
to invent new things out of some thing we don’t know of. Because evil people
always like to suppress others to take advantage of them = slavery, and since
God love every one and give every one equally the same, just like our body
parts, son, air and other things, this mean we all were 100% born with ESP,
but evil persons destroyed it at birth so they may have slaves. And this is
hidden slavery. A slave who does not know that he is a slave, because he can
be manipulated with ESP and he has no idea about it, because we were told
that what ever is in our mind comes only from with in our selves, which is
100% a lie. We can have thoughts that is 100% not ours and we don’t recognize
it because we don’t know all the facts about ESP. It is hidden and kept a
secret. Or did any one ever hear of a criminal who perform a crime and then
goes back admit to it and fully replace every thing to the origin? I heard
about it, I read it in the Bible, Jesus suggested it, but it is never done by
major criminals, I never heard of it, and the reason I am sure about that, is
that I know of a lot of mass crimes and tried very hard to report it to the
police in the last five years but I was not successful, because the criminals
are controlling the situation and preventing police of accepting my report. I
went several times to the head quarter of Munich, Germany police in Ett
street, but they refuse, arrest me, or make fun of me. Therefore I will
publish every thing I know about my family, whereby I am fully aware that I
can be mistaken here or there, and therefore publishing my knowledge will
help correcting my knowledge in that I am expecting people to report to my
web site to confirm or disconfirm, beside I am saying the truth as I know it,
and I know that and my fake family knows that and my biological family also
knows that, and the police in many countries also knows that, and that is why
I have been persecuted all my life, kidnapped, jailed, imprisoned,
brainwashed, tortured and raped, to intimidate me and fill me with shame and
guilt so I may shut up, but I will not, I have nothing to fear except my
life, and I did not even create it, neither my family did, God did, so it is
not mine that I fear about, it is belong to God, I have only the freedom of
choice that was stolen of me by my evil fake and biological families. I have
absolute no reason to love or even remotely like my fake or biological
families, because of the damages they performed on me, on my children, at
least on my officially one son Guenther Najar alias Anas Najar alias Kane
Najar alias Abdulhamid Najar, on my friendships, on my girlfriends, on every
one I know, and did not know. So they can read my mind with out me knowing
despite of approving it, let us see what they are going to do when I dump all
my memory on the Internet and every thing associated with it. This is what
they feared since 1959, and now their fear is coming to reality due to their
own cruel, absolute compassionless and violent bad doings. |
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We.
6.6.2007 |
Today
I picked up the computer; the shop drove it for me to the refugee camp. I had
problem with the computer, which is I don’t understand the Dutch language and
I refuse to learn it, because I was kidnapped in 1984/1986 from Germany and
forced to be locked up in USA for 15 years and then the stupid Americans who
kidnapped me instead of taking me back home to Germany where they kidnapped
me from they dropped me in Holland and forced me to be refugee in a country I
don’t speak it is language, I don’t know any one in it, I have no resources
in it, I don’t’ know any thing about it except that it is Holland/Dutch, and
that is by far not enough for some one to survive. But I don’t want to
survive in Holland or any where, why do I have to survive, why should I not
live, I am dead, emotionally, and mentally since my last kidnapping,
specially that I discovered that every one I knew was set on me for the
purpose to not allow any one normal human come near me and question me, help
me or that I don’t really see how honest human are, I read about them, in
areas such in the new testament (the main book of the bible) or hear about
them from crocked people in the news who claim to be honest but in reality
they are concentrated evil, such as the Bush, Windsor, Kennedy and
Rockefeller families, I know that they are concentrated evil, because many of
their family members live other identities in my fake family and perform all
kind of crocked crimes under the flag of others. Any
way I have problem with this computer that is all in Dutch, I tried to get
the operating system in English but allegedly no one has it, and to publish
on the Internet I would at least need Microsoft Word in English. All the
computers in the refugee camp computer room are equipped with Microsoft Word
2003, but it is in Dutch and it is very difficult for me to navigate with in,
I solely depend on my experience from prior to the year 2000 to navigate with
in Microsoft Word the Dutch version. Then I asked the secondhand computer
shop to download for me the Microsoft Office 2007 Trial version of Microsoft
website, which he was kind enough and did it for me. So I have a computer
with Microsoft Windows XP professional Dutch version which is bad enough for
me because I can’t take full advantage of Windows due to I don’t understand
the menus in Dutch, but with a brand new Microsoft Office 2007, which is with
a very impressive design, and very user friendly once you get use to it. It
shows that many had made their selves a lot of thoughts and help of the
general public to create this user friendly version of Microsoft Office.
Disadvantages: 1.
It is a trial version and it is set
to expire on 31.8.2007, around 75 days. 2.
If I want to install the trial version
again after the expiration date, I must reinstall Windows XP professional 3.
Then I must install Windows XP Dutch
version again 4.
Then I must install the Windows XP
Service Pack-2 Dutch version 5.
Then I must install Microsoft Office
2007 Trial version again 6.
And in all this I must have an
Internet connection, because this is the way Microsoft has developed it, I
can’t install all these from CD, it needs Internet to access Microsoft and
get some kind of software approval codes In
short after 31.8.2007 it is socks for me. Why can’t I do all this only
through CDs like before? What about persons who has no Internet access? which is many
people world wide!!. What did Microsoft think by developing updates only
through Internet in combination with telephone calls to get the installation
codes? I don’t have Internet, nor I have a
telephone. Why do I need telephone? Who am I going to call? All the persons I
knew even in my church were against me, at least
they had fake identities and lied to me about their real identities. My
ex-girlfriend who I thought I loved very much is also with fake identity, she
is American/English pretending to be German, on top of that she is related to
me and never told me, on top of that she is the sister of Mrs. Margie Lange,
Mrs. Margie Lange is the wife of Pastor Herbert Lange, Pastor Herbert Lange
is the one who peptized me in 1976 in Unterschleissheim, Germany. Pastor
Herbert Lange is in reality Scott Pierce the official brother of
ex-USA-first-lady Barbara Pierce Bush the official mother of the current USA
president George W. Bush and the wife of ex-USA-president George H. W. Bush.
My ex-girlfriend who I thought I loved very much is also the daughter of
Charlotte Ford and Stavros Niarchos, and she never told me any of these
relations, I had to find out by myself. My ex-girlfriend Adelheid Kuczka who
helped in making me paperless, ID less, nationality less, and helped
dramatically to place me oft in prison in the last 5 years. This is no good.
So who am I going to call my fake sisters and brothers who put me her in
first of all with the help of CIA, FBI and INS, my fake brother and sisters
who are members of a very cruel and large international crime organization,
who are Americans and English pretending to be Syrians. Or my fake mother who
is in reality a man disguised as a woman and is the biological brother of
queen Elizabeth II who helped in destroying my life so she may eat five times
chicken a day. The only one I think it is worth to talk to is my partially
innocent son Guenther Najar, but I have free Internet and can email him with
out having to worry about long distance phone cal bills. |
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We.
30.5.2007 |
I
decided to buy a PC/computer, because and even though there is a computer
room in the refugee camp with good access to the Internet, yet I have many
problems with that as follow: 1.
I can’t download from the Internet
what ever I need, such as software for my computer, or even compression
program such as PKzip 2.
There is opening time limitations
which is officially Monday 9-13 hours and 13.30-16.30 hours, Tuesday 8.30-11
hours and 13.30-16.30, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday 10-12 and 13.30-1630,
every second Wednesday and since two months from 10-12 reserved for women
only. It sound good timing, however my sleep is being constantly manipulated
with ESP, so that I oft can’t sleep until 4 or 5 and even 6 in the morning,
and therewith I can’t get up on time for the computer room, which has around
20 computers. This mean I can mainly go in the after noon. In the after noon
there are much more people than before noon, and therefore the access for
each person is limited to 90 minutes. This mean all in all I can and in
average access the computer and Internet only for approximately 1.5-3 hours a
day and that is not enough for my need and goal, which is to expose my fake
and biological family and all the crimes they perform worldwide and then they
blame it on others. 3.
I need much more time to create the
web pages, this mean if I work for 8 hours a day creating web pages I would
need at least 3-5 hours for publishing over the Internet and testing what I
published and fixing any eventually over seen bugs/mistakes. This mean even
if I go on time to the computer room on all opening hours, it is not enough,
beside what should I do in my free time in this lock up at the refugee camp
in a country I don’t speak it’s language, I don’t know any one, I don’t have
money, I am not allowed to live any where else, I am not allowed to work, I
am not allowed to do any thing I want, I have been put on ice, on the shelf on
the side, un-functioned, with tide up hands, mind, and life. On top of all
that my alleged only son is also in a refugee camp in Germany, he is today 21
years old and his life is dead and he never did any thing to deserve this, in
this alleged free, democratic western world 4.
I never wanted to buy computer under
my current circumstances, because I want to go home back to Germany, and I am
expecting to be through out, deported, placed on the street, getting
arrested, jailed or imprisoned, these are all the options of my past since
the year 2000, that they kept on repeating over and over again Any
way I went to a secondhand computer shop and made a deal with him that I buy
a secondhand computer by paying weekly. I receive 52 Euro weekly refugee
money of the Dutch government, I told him I pay week one by pick up 40 Euro,
week-2 40 Euro, week-3 35 Euro, week-4 35 Euro, the computer is 150 Euro,
with additional hard disk 160 Euro, this mean week-5 10 Euro. He agreed. |
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Fr.
4.5.2007 |
I
went to the administration for some thing I forgot what it was, but I also
asked them to repair the fire and smoke alarm. Later in they day the
administration and maintenance persons came to inspect the alarm, and they
asked me why is it damaged, I said some one damaged it because it goes on
each time they grill. They asked me is this grill belonging to here, I said
no, the persons who allegedly live here, brought it from other persons. They
took the grill (electric grill) with them, confiscate it, and repaired the
alarm this time in a few days and not in the same day. Later in the evening
around 10 o’clock the Iranians came and asked where is their grill, I told
them that the administration took it with them. They threatened me and tried
to scare me and blamed me that I complained about the grill, I said I
complained about the alarm. Any way to make long story short, I left the room
and I went to my room, which I do most of the time any way. When ever some
one come and sit in the living room I go to my room, because I don’t want to
talk to any one or have any thing with any one, I don’t like any one, and I
want to be alone. Later and around 30 minutes, the Iranians asked me for some
thing, and I told them to go and buy it for their selves, then they said bye.
All this from behind the door because I am in my room and the door is locked,
and I don’t like these particular Iranians because of many reasons. After I
was sure that they left I went to the kitchen, and found all my stuff stolen,
Coffee machine, plates, silverware, food, coffee, fruits, vegetables, and
every thing else, which is around 30-40 Euro worth, and since 52 Euro is my
weekly income, it is a lot for me. It was Friday night and I had no more
money for this week and no more food. I knew they stole my food as revenge. I
went to the refugee camp reception and complained, but they did nothing, the
police station is right next to the camp, I went there and complained, they
gone and talked to these Iranians in their other apartment and took them to
the station and confronted us. The Iranians denied every thing. However it
turned out that they are not supposed to live in the apartment I am in, but
rather one of the Iranian apartment inmates gave them his key. Any way I lost
all my stuff again, but I gained a new idea, While I was at the police
station and waiting I saw a monitor, TV like that shows wanted persons, their
crimes and their descriptions. At that time I was having hard time about how
to place the information I want on the Internet, and here I had the idea to
create a wanted person sites just like in the police station. Today I know
the whole incident was staged including stealing my stuff to force me to go
to the police so, among others, I may see the wanted
persons pages/list. This is very similar to an incident that happened to me
in 1978 in Unterschleissheim, Germany I was also tricked by the police to see
a wanted terrorist in the post office that I thought I saw one day prior to
that, it was a woman. This mean some one is reading my mind and manipulating
my surroundings to do what it fit them. The administration gave the grill
back to the Iranians, they insisted to do it in my presence, but I did not
get back any of my stolen goods. |
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Th.
3.5.2007 |
They
grilled again; they do that every day as if some one wants indirectly to tell
me some thing, such as we hear you. Today they damaged the two alarm again on
purpose so it may not go on when they grill |
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Following
weeks of that first week of April 2007 (19.6.2007) |
The
apartment inmates cook oft very late at midnight and stay up also very late,
which is difficult to come to peace of mind. Also and since this grilling
incident and each time they grill, the fire alarm goes on, which is very
annoying, even on midnight. In the Apartment I am in there are two fire/smoke
alarms, one in the living room very close to the kitchen and one in the
hallway. My constant grilling inmates damaged the two alarms on purpose so
they may not go on when they grill. The next day there was an inspection by
the administration on the apartment functionalities and cleanliness, and they
noticed the two damaged alarms which they promptly replaced with new ones. I
believe that it was all planned. First they damaged the alarm, and then the
maintenance/administration people suddenly inspect the apartment and replace
the alarm. But the future will show. In general I try my best not to take any
advantage of any of the services offered in the refugee camp,
I just stay in my room or apartment until pay day and then go shopping for
the whole week and stay in the apartment the whole week. So even if I get
sick I try to help myself and not go to the doctor which is only a couple of
buildings far within the same refugee camp specially for refugees, but under
my current forced upon me circumstances I refuse to take any thing from any
one. |
|
Following
week of that April 2007 day (19.6.2007) |
The
refugee camp is divided into apartments, each has kitchen, toilette, shower/ washing
(washing machine and dryer) room, a joint living/dinning room and in the
apartment I am in 4 rooms, each with two beds for two persons, this mean 8 persons in the apartment. Every refugee has to
register once a week on Wednesday by the refugee camp administration and by
the immigration police between 10 and 12 in the morning. I share the room
with a young man from Nepal, he is very quite and polite, but I hardly see
him he comes only on Wednesday to register. Another room has an alleged
Syrian and Iranian, which I saw only a few times. The other two rooms have
Iranian in it. Most of the persons and since a few weeks comes only on
Tuesday evening so they can register by the authority and then they leave on
Wednesday. This mean, and thanks God, I am finally alone. But in this week of
April I was not, and after what happen last week, and suddenly some new
Iranian are in the apartment and they have suddenly a grill and they use it
at least once a day many times they use it twice and some times even three times
a day to grill chicken, whereby the whole apartment would then stink of the
grilled chicken. For me this is no coincident, this is on purpose, they are
repeating or performing what I complained about last week, trying to eat five
times chicken a day and grilling middle of the apartment on a daily bases. |
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Some
times in April 2007 (19.6.2007) |
I
live in a refugee camp in Holland with people I don’t want to live with,
specially that some or many of them provoke me for the purpose to make me say
what is on my mind or what I think or know about certain subject. So today
and after I was positive who is my biological family, which is the Windsor
family in England, and considering what happen to me and how I was persecuted
by my evil family, I was angry, disappointed and very sad, and lost my nerves
and complained very loud about my biological family, and that they are
thieves, drug lords, war criminals and many other bad things that I
discovered in my past about them, so I said that they have no brain they do
all this destruction worldwide for nothing else but for food to fill their
own stupid stomach and eat chicken five times a day. Also I had some opinion
differences with one of the in-mates, who was totally unconsidered in that
they allegedly smoke opium in some kind self made smoking jar similar to
water pipe, and I hate drugs near me, so I told him/them they should smoke it
in their room or out side but not where it is a joint living room for every
one, and I gave him the example how would you like it if I get I grill and
set it in the middle of the room and start to grill and make the whole place
stinky. All in all these are two statements that I gave of myself: first
statement: my family perform crimes on cost of others lives just to eat
chicken five times a day, second statement: placing a grill in the
middle of the room . |
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